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"Char, go to hell!" I shout as I slice the arm off his Gelgoog. It's finally time to end this rivalry. I'll prove once and for all I'm better than him! Just one stab to the cockpit, and it'll be all over. Just one stab...
I swing my beam sabre in for the kill, and... NO! LALAH! What have you done? "Lalah," I cry out, unable to speak louder than a whisper. This can't be. Dammit, this wasn't supposed to happen! Even from my cockpit, I can hear her scream through our Newtype link. "LALAH!" I cry out again, finding the strength to shout. What have I done?
What's this I'm feeling? It's like that telepathic conversation I had with her earlier... I'm in the psychic plane again, I can tell. I see Lalah in the distance. She can't be dead, she can't be!
"People are becoming like us all the time," I hear her say.
"Yes they are. Just like you, Lalah," I say between sobs. I'm immersed in the psychic world now. We're together again. I don't want this moment to end.
"Do you really believe that, Amuro?" she asks. I can tell she's fading.
"Yes. Just like you thought. Mankind will someday control time," I barely manage to say this. I want to be with Lalah forever...
"Ah! Amuro, I'll see you in time," she says just as she fades, and I start to enter reality again. Please Lalah, don't leave me! I want to join you, Lalah. In the afterlife... I can feel her soul passing through me now. She feels so wonderful. It's beautiful.
It's reality again. I pull the beam sabre out of the Elmeth, and Gundam starts to drift into space. Then it finally hits me. I'll never see Lalah again. How could this happen? How? The Elmeth explodes in front of me, sealing Lalah's fate. NOOOOOOOOOOOO! I want to join you, Lalah! Please don't go...just don't go. Please. Dammit, HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN? I'm crying full force now, and I don't care. Lalah's gone, and I have no reason to live anymore. I just want to die, so I can follow her to the afterlife. I cry out "Lalah...I killed her. I killed her..."
As the explosion dies out, I see Char in his Gelgoog. No...I didn't kill her. He's the reason this happened. If not for him starting this fucking battle, Lalah would still be alive, and I'd be happy. That son of a bitch. It may have been my beam sabre, but he killed Lalah! Char must pay for this. If there is any justice in the world, Char must pay. How could Lalah sacrifice herself for that bastard?
But I can't kill him now. I feel too helpless...too weak. I must get stronger, and then exact my revenge. I've never felt this vulnerable before...even when Bright locked me in the brig months ago, I still had my confidence. Now? I have nothing except sadness and hate... Damn you, Char, for doing this to me.
I have to get back to White Base now. So I can become stronger. So I can beat Char. So I can find a way to join Lalah. I'll get that murderous bastard eventually, even if it takes me fifteen years, I'll get that bastard. Fuck it. I can barely think straight. I still can't believe this happened. The others will tell me that life goes on. It won't. Not without Lalah, and Char took her from me. He took her from me...
Gundam has arrived at White Base. I stop thinking now, and just cry even harder...
Author's Note: This is my first fanfic, and I welcome reviews, comments, and criticisms. I told this story in the present tense because my goal is to capture Amuro's emotions as the events are happening. If I put the story in past tense, it would look like Amuro is telling the story from sometime in the future, and won't have the emotional impact I'm trying to get.
"Char, go to hell!" I shout as I slice the arm off his Gelgoog. It's finally time to end this rivalry. I'll prove once and for all I'm better than him! Just one stab to the cockpit, and it'll be all over. Just one stab...
I swing my beam sabre in for the kill, and... NO! LALAH! What have you done? "Lalah," I cry out, unable to speak louder than a whisper. This can't be. Dammit, this wasn't supposed to happen! Even from my cockpit, I can hear her scream through our Newtype link. "LALAH!" I cry out again, finding the strength to shout. What have I done?
What's this I'm feeling? It's like that telepathic conversation I had with her earlier... I'm in the psychic plane again, I can tell. I see Lalah in the distance. She can't be dead, she can't be!
"People are becoming like us all the time," I hear her say.
"Yes they are. Just like you, Lalah," I say between sobs. I'm immersed in the psychic world now. We're together again. I don't want this moment to end.
"Do you really believe that, Amuro?" she asks. I can tell she's fading.
"Yes. Just like you thought. Mankind will someday control time," I barely manage to say this. I want to be with Lalah forever...
"Ah! Amuro, I'll see you in time," she says just as she fades, and I start to enter reality again. Please Lalah, don't leave me! I want to join you, Lalah. In the afterlife... I can feel her soul passing through me now. She feels so wonderful. It's beautiful.
It's reality again. I pull the beam sabre out of the Elmeth, and Gundam starts to drift into space. Then it finally hits me. I'll never see Lalah again. How could this happen? How? The Elmeth explodes in front of me, sealing Lalah's fate. NOOOOOOOOOOOO! I want to join you, Lalah! Please don't go...just don't go. Please. Dammit, HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN? I'm crying full force now, and I don't care. Lalah's gone, and I have no reason to live anymore. I just want to die, so I can follow her to the afterlife. I cry out "Lalah...I killed her. I killed her..."
As the explosion dies out, I see Char in his Gelgoog. No...I didn't kill her. He's the reason this happened. If not for him starting this fucking battle, Lalah would still be alive, and I'd be happy. That son of a bitch. It may have been my beam sabre, but he killed Lalah! Char must pay for this. If there is any justice in the world, Char must pay. How could Lalah sacrifice herself for that bastard?
But I can't kill him now. I feel too helpless...too weak. I must get stronger, and then exact my revenge. I've never felt this vulnerable before...even when Bright locked me in the brig months ago, I still had my confidence. Now? I have nothing except sadness and hate... Damn you, Char, for doing this to me.
I have to get back to White Base now. So I can become stronger. So I can beat Char. So I can find a way to join Lalah. I'll get that murderous bastard eventually, even if it takes me fifteen years, I'll get that bastard. Fuck it. I can barely think straight. I still can't believe this happened. The others will tell me that life goes on. It won't. Not without Lalah, and Char took her from me. He took her from me...
Gundam has arrived at White Base. I stop thinking now, and just cry even harder...
Author's Note: This is my first fanfic, and I welcome reviews, comments, and criticisms. I told this story in the present tense because my goal is to capture Amuro's emotions as the events are happening. If I put the story in past tense, it would look like Amuro is telling the story from sometime in the future, and won't have the emotional impact I'm trying to get.