A/N: The characters, Hogwarts and the world of Harry Potter belong to J.K. Rowling

This story is AU but might contain spoilers to all HP-books. If you really like Dumbledore, James Potter or Sirius Black, you shouldn't read this fiction.

The Truth behind your eyes

by RawenclawBabe

Prologue

December 1979

Lily stormed into their house in Spinner's End her emerald green eyes were wet with tears. She cried: "Sorry, Severus I can't do this any more. I know you are spying for Dumbledore, but you can't have a muggleborn fiancée as Death Eater. I really loved you, but I want to be with James now. We needn't hide our relationship, he is successful and he has money. He can offer me more."

Severus grabbed her shoulders and started begging: "Lily, please - don't leave me, I love you and I can't be without you. I'll always hide you from the Dark Lord."

Lily shook her head: "Sorry, Severus. I can't. I'll be safe with James and he mustn't know that you and I ever had any relationship."

She freed herself from his grip and stormed out. Severus tried to follow her but before he could take her hand, she apparated away.

Severus went back inside his house and sank down on his knees. He felt empty. Lily was gone. She had left him for this arrogant toe-rag – this cruel bully - James Potter. He felt like crying, but he didn't, he couldn't – "men don't cry", his father always told him when he beat him. His relationship with Lily was the only thing which kept him on the light side. He had made mistakes in their relationship – she had never truly forgiven him for calling her mudblood in their fifth year. He worked hard ever since to redeem himself in her eyes. He always tried to show his good – light side, she needed to know that he wasn't evil

But after his NEWTs Dumbledore had asked him to join the Death Eaters – he needed someone to spy on Voldemort. Lily accepted it at first. He had always been her friend and she trusted him – more or less. But he being a Death Eater spy took a toll on their relationship. They drifted apart.

Since their sixth year Severus had never been sure about Lily – she dated him or she dated Potter – Severus knew, Potter didn't. Lily was everybody's darling, Slughorn adored her, Flitwick admired her Charms skills, all the students liked her. Potter fancied her and wanted her at any cost. Severus loved her and tried to ignore, that she was also with Potter.

Lily Evans was desperate. She was nineteen, pregnant and didn't know who her child's father was. She ditched Severus for James. James was attractive, had money and had asked her to marry him.

She knew James and his best friends Sirius were players, who slept with every woman - and man, that wasn't away on the count of three. They also seemed to be closer than friends usually were – they often were with their partners together.

But they had always been like this and it didn't matter to Lily. She wanted the best for her child and that was James' money. She knew, Dumbledore would help her, he wanted Lily and James as Golden Couple for the Order of Phoenix – he had asked her to ditch Snape, when he heard, that she was pregnant – he seemed to be certain that it was Severus baby. But Albus Dumbledore had told her, he would do everything for the 'Potter heir' she was carrying. But they had until July to decide the necessary actions.

Lily Evans became Lily Potter in February 1980 and she didn't spare a thought for her former best friend and lover Severus Snape. Life was good for the Potter's – they were expecting their first child and were Dumbledore's Golden Gryffindor Couple in the Order of Phoenix.

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A/N: I've decided to do a few changes to the Prologue.