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Chapter 1: My Blessing, My Curse

He looked at her, well in fact he took a shy peak at her, trying to make out if she was in a good enough mood. They were newlyweds and things had changed very dramatically for both of them. Of course it was an exciting and happy time, but they had difficulty getting used to married life and the responsibilities that came with it.

Goku did his best to get to know Chi Chi even better. He was struggling to please her and to prove to her that he was a good husband. Goku was okay with the fact they were living together and was quickly adjusting, but Chi Chi seemed to be a bit nervous and insecure. Goku, innocent and kind, tried to make her laugh and help her the best he could. But whatever he tried, Chi Chi avoided him, though subtly.

It hurt Goku to see Chi Chi struggling with the current situation, he liked her when she was her confident and feisty self. She scared him sometimes but she looked very cute when she was angry, though he would never say that to her. Goku didn't really know what to do about Chi Chi's sadness, her almost permanent sad complexion. That kept him busy all the time, especially since he was curious about the stories he heard about marriage, which sounded very pleasant.

'Chi Chi, can I get you something to drink? I think I'll go grab myself something.' Goku wanted to break the uncomfortable silence first. 'Yeah, I didn't drink anything the entire morning, so I guess some water would be great. Thank you, honey.' 'Would you like to go out tonight, go do something fun?' Goku asked quickly, now they were having at least some form of conversation. 'Well, I don't know, I am kind of tired, there is so much to be done…' 'Aw, come on Chi Chi, I mean, don't you think we should try to do some nice things together? Take a walk, or go swimming? I would really enjoy that. Please?' Chi Chi kept silence for a couple of seconds, but slowly said she didn't feel like it. Goku sighed, but he didn't want to push Chi Chi any further.

She was really beautiful. Goku hadn't really paid attention to differences in women's appearances, but now he was older he started to differentiate 'pretty' women from others. Chi Chi was a pretty woman, Goku had noticed. Besides that, he enjoyed her presence. Not like he enjoyed the presence of his friends, but in another way. He noticed that he had a sudden… desire to touch her when he was near her. Of course he had touched her before, but that was different, at those times he did not have odd, feelings in his stomach, feelings that were warm and lightened up his mood. And now, he found himself breathing faster and more focused in her presence, sometimes at least. He wanted to explore those feelings a bit more, but Chi Chi kept away from him.

Uncertain what to do, Goku decided to give her some space. He whistled his Nimbus cloud and took off to go visit Master Roshi on his island. He looked once more at Chi Chi's face, her protruding dark eyes and took off, waving a little.

Chi Chi saw Goku taking off, much to her surprise. She didn't want him to go away, she wanted him to be with her. If only she could tell him that. Chi Chi sighed and put her long, loose hair behind her ear before taking a seat on her favorite chair.

Chi Chi was very frustrated with herself, so full of passion for Goku but so distant at the same time. She was angry, angry because she had noticed that Goku was occasionally getting aroused -something he probably didn't even understand- when he was near her, but she always discouraged him instead of kissing him paasionately. She was so afraid that Goku didn't genuinely love her, but only had a sexual interest in her even though he probably would not realize it himself, the naïve man he was. But Chi Chi couldn't help thinking about his dark, innocent eyes full of childish wonder, his spiky hair that was always soft and astonishingly black. Goku had no idea how breathtaking a man he was. Chi Chi wanted to make him know that, but he had to love her first. 'It isn't very easy, being married to a man who probably doesn't even love you' she thougt, sighing.

Chi Chi decided to watch a movie before taking a hot shower and going to bed, instead of her usual walk. The movie was one of her favorites, unlike many women, Chi Chi loved action movies so she watched a classic in the genre. When the movie was finished, she decided it was time for her shower. She stepped in, and gently massaged her body with some body lotion. She took good care of her physique, since she thought it was very important. Chi Chi wanted to keep herself healthy and well-cared for. She kept thinking of Goku and his beautiful eyes as she put some shampoo in her hair.

Goku stepped of the Nimbus cloud and walked inside the house. He didn't see Chi Chi anywhere, he figured she must be out, taking her usual evening walk. She always did so at this time. Goku decided he needed to wash himself, since he smelled really bad after some training. Since he thought Chi Chi was gone, he took off his gi and put them away.

Naked, he slowly walked to the bathroom while stretching and yawning. He was really worn out. Goku walked into the bathroom and splashed some water in his face.

Chi Chi walked out of the shower, feeling refreshed. Then she looked up and stared at a surprised-looking Goku standing naked in the bathroom, his face wet. Chi Chi looked down and slowly the realization daunted that she was naked. Goku stood frozen, looking at her. Chi Chi started to feel her cheeks turning red, and she felt the shock running painfully through her body. She could not move, but she saw Goku's eyes going very slowly up and down her body and she noticed that he started to breath more heavily. He was getting aroused.

Goku took a step towards her, without blinking, breathing heavily and , Chi Chi thought, definitely led by his desire. Chi Chi wanted him too, she wanted him so badly but she was very much startled by the look of an adult naked man. She felt very scared, since she was naked too. She was married, but not ready to give herself to a man that did not really love her, who only wanted… her body.

Goku couldn't stop looking at her. He noticed immediately that his private parts were burning with a strange sensation, that his mind was telling him to touch her, to want her, to make her feel good. He took a step towards her, and then another, until he was so close to her that he could feel her body warmth, her face almost touching his chest. He saw her naked body, which was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. Smooth, with gorgeous curves. He had never seen breasts before, but he was astonished by their beauty. His entire body was drawn to her, wanting her, and when he instinctively brought his lips towards hers, he looked her in the eyes and immediately withdrew.

She was scared, Chi Chi was scared by his appearance. He wondered why, she knew he would never hurt him. It was something else, another kind of fear that almost made her cry. An, even worse, he saw shame in her expressive eyes. That made him sad, since these new feelings that Goku felt, felt really good to him but certainly not to Chi Chi. He backed off, apologizing clumsily, while his wife quickly walked out of the bathroom, her face flustered and tears in her eyes. Goku had never felt so guilty before.

Hope you like it! First chapter is sort of a try-out, this is my first fanfic ever and would really like to know if you guys think it's alright. Please comment, if I get a couple of 'em I will soon post the next chapter!