hello guys i have also used the correct spelling of Steven, always thought it was Stephen, anyway enjoy. :)

The property of Brendan Brady

Although it was hard for me I'd left him alone, carter and hay had been open over a week and I hadn't even shown my face in there. Steven had been so different with me lately and I wasn't used to it, it kind of shocked me, I wouldn't ever admit it to him but it knocked me a lot. I know people don't think so but I am only human after all. It was always so easy to win him back before, worm my way back into his life, but not anymore, he's different, he's stronger.

He doesn't need me anymore, he has moved on from me now, but the thing is I don't want him to move on. I want him to always need me, always want me, be there for me, and why? Because I want him, I need him still. I have never stopped loving him no matter how bad things got between us. I could tell that something had changed between them when I went in, the atmosphere was strained, or maybe that was just because I walked in.

"What do you want Brendan"

That was all he could say to me. Something had definitely gone on between the two of them, maybe they'd had a row, Douglas did look rather guilty. When Steven and I were alone in the shop I made my excuses and left, it felt odd between us and I could tell he didn't really want me there. He never looked at me the same anymore, what I'd give to see him look at me the way he used to but that all seemed so long ago now.

He loves me really, I'm sure of it, there is nothing like me and him, I know it, he knows it. He just thinks Douglas is Mr perfect at the moment, but that will all change when I decide to mess with him and show Steven what kind of person he's gone into business with. I couldn't stop thinking about Steven, that's all I did these days. I kept thinking about how good it was between us the last time we were together, we almost made it. Eileen put a stop to that, then Declan, but really it was all my doing, it was my entire fault.

I've left it too long to go back, to expect him to just be mine again. I thought that I was over him; I thought I could forget, but the more I ignored my feelings for him the stronger I felt them. It had been six days since I saw Steven that day at the deli, so I thought I'd drop by and pay him a little visit. The shop looked quite, closed up, but it wasn't as I tried the door and it was open, I walked in ready for some friendly banter with my favourite boy.

I looked through the glass in the kitchen door and saw them kissing, I was devastated, crushed. Steven had his hands on his face; I could tell by the way they kissed each other that it wasn't their first time. Then it hit me, this wave of emotion because he looked so happy and it wasn't at the hands of me. I couldn't help but think I'd lost him for good; I didn't want that, I wanted him back, back in my life for good. They hadn't even noticed me watching them, I wanted to explode there and then but then they would know that I'd seen them and I was thinking that I could use this to my advantage somehow.

I saw how guilty Douglas looked last week now I know why; he still owes me as it is and now with this as well. I took one last look at him, my Steven with his tongue shoved so far down that American prick's throat that I nearly threw up. I went back to the club and into the office, slamming the door behind me. Once inside I could no longer contain my anger, my frustration and all I could see in my head was them kissing, and in a fit of rage I smashed up my office.

I am not going to lose him, and especially not to Douglas. I need to stop this from going any further; he will not take him away from me. They could be doing allsorts together now, I need to get them apart so I decided to text Douglas.

"Meet me in my office NOW"

If he thinks that I am just going to stand by and watch while he takes away the love of my life then he's very much mistaken. I will make him pay just for trying. I pour myself a very large whisky and wait for him. I hope he doesn't keep me waiting too long, he should know not to mess me about. Mind you he is rather busy at the moment, busy with Steven, god I'm never going to get those visions out of my head. I know it's him when I hear a knock at the door, even the way he knocks the door is weak and pathetic.

I will have to teach him a lesson; he needs to know that Steven hay is strictly out of bounds and will always be…

THE PROPERTY OF BRENDAN BRADY.

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