A/N: i know I've posted a lot of stories recently but don't worry I already have the second chapter half way done and you guys should get it by next Saturday.

Despair #1

Despair is darkness-

~Shalom Freedman

Your just acting childish she tried to convince herself. It wasn't helping though as she left her heart sink lower and lower into despair.

They'll hate me, they'll run me out of the village. I can't tell them, there's to much at risk.

Naruko whimpered and hugged her knees to her chest as more and more negative thoughts entered her brain. She had taken a sick leave today, deciding that skipping training and missions would probably help clear her confusing thoughts, oh how wrong she had been. As soon as she had arrived back in her apartment her thoughts had attacked her, tearing her to pieces to the point she was left shivering sitting in the corner of her bed. Taking a sick leave had been the worse decision she had ever made, and to make things worse she had decided to make it last three weeks. Why so long? She didn't know, but at the time it had sounded the best, and she had so many why not use her amount to her advantage.

I'm so stupid what was I thinking, this is going to kill me. I should just tell grandma Tsunade maybe she would understand.

Naruko slightly smiled, the first in weeks at the thought that maybe she finally found a way out, maybe just maybe she could get herself fixed. The smile suddenly vanished though as she remembered that
though grandma Tsunade supported the jinchuriki's she wouldn't possibly support her now. She was a monster for Kami's sakes.

NOOOOO! I can't tell grandma Tsunade either, I'll get thrown out of the village.

By now tears were flowing freely down Naruko's perfectly tanned skin. Soon after the hiccups started and the gasping followed. She was going crazy, she couldn't take it. Finally feeling exhaustion roll into her system Naruko laid down, pulling the blankets tightly over her shivering form as she tried to get some rest.

She heard hushed whispers outside of her door, someone was here, someone was looking for her. Silently she slid out of her bed and tip toed over to the door. Placing her ear against the wood she listened carefully to whatever was happening.

"Tsunade this is not a request but an order from the council, this girl has become far to dangerous."

"Who are you and the council to be giving me orders, last time I checked I was the Hokage of this village not the council" Tsunade bit back harshly.

"For thousands of years the council has had the right to over rule a hokage's vote if it is necessary and proper and with a two-thirds vote from both the Civilian council and the Ninja council. We won this vote by a full house."

Naruko shivered as she heard a ninja land on top of the roof of a neighboring building, he was quickly followed by another and another until her building was completely surrounded by ninja and Anbu. She
watched then for a second waiting to see if they would do anything but when they didn't do anything she pressed her ear back against the door resuming listening to the conversation despite knowing nothing good would come out of staying.

"This is bullshit! Naruko's only seventeen and wouldn't hurt a fly if it was her god dam choice so how the hell is it that you expect her to be the cause of those deaths!" Tsunade was screaming now not even
bothering to keep her voice low.

Suddenly their was the sound of flesh hitting flesh.

"Keep your voice down woman, we don't want to wake her. If she somehow gets away because you woke her it will be your head instead of her's." the man whispered harshly.

Naruko's eyes widened, she took a step back from the door fear wrecking her body as she heard footsteps come closer and closer. She had been so focused on the door that she forgot to worry about the ninjas on the other roof tops. So she was expected to be surprised as suddenly the glass slider door to her balcony shattered and two Anbu ninja landed gracefully before her followed by two more and then two other ninjas. She didn't have time to dodge before she was tackled by the first two Anbu and roughly sent to ground, and given a chakra enhanced punch to the face.

A scream was ripped from her lips as she felt pain course through her nasal system, no doubt her nose was broken. It was then that the door was blasted open by a lightning jutsu. As the smoke cleared she first saw grandma Tsunade step through the smoke followed by a old man covered in bandages. He looked familiar but she couldn't quite place her tongue on from where.

"It's nice to finally be graced with your presence...Kyuubi." the man said walking closer with the help of his wooden cane.

"I'm not the Kyuubi!"

"Silence!" the man glared done at Naruko with his one good eye. Suddenly his frowned lips turned into a grin as he tapped his cane against the floor.

Naruko released yet another blood crawling scream as another chakra enhanced punch landed on her face this time breaking her jaw.

"You bastard! There's no point to any of this, if thus is what the council voted to do then I was right. Your a bunch of old buffoons who can't tell right from left! Your about to kill an innocent person in
your hatred!"

"You will speak when spoken to,Kyuubi. Is that understood. The sane goes for you as well Tsunade, you she be happy I haven't had you trailed for treason, helping this this"

"Demon!"

Naruko fearing yet another punch did nothing but nod. Her eyes flickered over to were grandma Tsunade stood. Her face was cold and her cheek was still from the slap. Naruko felt anger boil in her stomach.

"Naruko Uzumaki also known as Kyuubi No Yoko you are here by sentence to immediate death for the murder of Fourth Hokage, and thousands of civilians and ninjas alike."

Tears swelled up in Naruko's eyes. Death? She hadn't killed anybody even on missions she never killed anyone maybe servery injured but never killed. Had the council finally figured out a way to disposing
of her.

"I haven't done anything!"

"Silence!" another tap of his cane and another punch to her face.

The man finally walked closer and Naruko whimpered as she was picked up and sat on her knees. Shivers once again took control of her body as the mans hand gently stroked her tear stained cheeks.

"Such a shame that a body as yours has to go to waste."

Beside her the Anbu cleared his voice.

"If I will Danzo-sama the councils order were to merely to "remove Naruko-san from the equation" never did they give a time limit of when she must be executed."

Danzo chuckled the Anbu was I'm fact correct. Naruko could only gag and cry as Danzo suddenly forced two fingers down her throat until her gag reflex kicked in.

"Well look at that Kyuubi your body won't go to waste after all. Men feel free to remove your mask at any point at all. Tonight's going to be a longnight."

Naruko screamed as her night clothing were suddenly cut clean from her body. She screamed and pleaded for Tsunade to help her to rescue her from the pain she was feeling, only to receive a cold stare.

Why won't she help me? I knew she wouldn't side with me once found out? Please Kami end this quickly

It wasn't until her battered body had been tossed and used by every ninja, female and make alike. She had been horrified when most removed their mask to reveal faces she knew fairly way. It wasn't until she had finally been thrown to the side that she finally became aware of the one ninja stalking slowly towards her, kunai in hand.

Get up dammit! Get up!

Naruko cried as she felt the cool metal of the kunai being pressed against her throat. Naruko looked over to grandma Tsunade one last time through blurry vision.

"Please grandma Tsunade! Help me!"

"Korosu!" Danzo finally order and Naruko's would suddenly went dark.

Naruko jolted awake body trembling and sweaty as big fat tears rolled down her face. Hugging her knees to her chest and pushing the thought of her soaked shorts, panties and the smell of urine to the back of her mind she cried.

I can't tell them! I can't tell anyone! I don't want to die... I don't want to be raped!

As Naruko cried defenseless against the dark thoughts that raided her mind her heart sunk even lower into despair.

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