Hi all, it has been ages since i wrote anything, so don't expect much. This is just another typical love story about an Idol (Kim Jaejoong of JYJ/DBSK) and his fan. *DISCLAIMER. It is all just made up story. Has nothing to do with real life (or death) situation. I really don't know them personally (nor have I researched about them enough) so my depiction of the characters are totally fictional. it has no relevance to real life setting except perhaps my wishful thinking that this may happen to me. :p Any coincidence or aligned facts are most probably not intentional. Italic words are inner thought

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"Finally, some peace and quiet." Nana lies down on a concrete block looking at the sky. From a distance, she could hear excited shouts as some idols languidly saunters into the vicinity.

"How do they find the energy to that every single time, everyday? It's only been a couple of day for me and I am already so sick of it." she said as another round of excited shouts rings in the air. She peered out from the top of the roof towards the crowd which seems to have only one focal point.

"But then again I have those two as a near example... really, what do they get out of shouting 'oppa, saranghae' to people who don't even know they exist?"

For the past three days, she had been dragged on an idol hunting trips by her cousin Ira and her friend Suzy. They manage to cover a number of talent agencies and some big TV stations in Seoul. And since Ira is the one with the knowledge on how to get around and can somewhat speak Korean, Nana had no choice but to follow them.

Well, they did told me the sole purpose they are visiting Seoul is to meet the Idols. but i didn't think that is literally all they would do... Nana let out a deep sigh at this thought.

After two days of the constant running around, Nana decided to explore the area by herself. Telling her companions to "call me when you're done". Today, her exploration leads her to a secluded area on a low roof-like open space with a clear view of the building's entrance.

"The sky is so blue here" she said to herself as she breathes in the crisp air of autumn.

A sudden burst of cries attracts her attention. She watches as a tall figure emerges from a black tinted van. He was wearing a navy turtle neck with a long black cardigan. His face was white and seem to glimmer under the sun from the distance. His current short hair sporting a few lose strands that dances as the wind passes by. His every steps seems to exudes charisma and confidence even from where Nana was standing in the distance, she was mesmerized.

"Wow. That kind of presence, no wonder the girls are tripping over themselves."

Suddenly the Idol stopped in his tracks and seems to be looking straight at where she is. As if by reflex, Nana ducked and hid out of view.

"No way! He can't be looking at me, right?" She felt her heart beating wildly.

"But, why am I hiding? It's not like I did anything wrong!" It doesn't make sense, but that 5 seconds that she felt like their eyes met rendered her breathless.

"Come on Nana, don't tell me you're going Idol crazy too? Hahaha"

Shaking her head disbelieving herself, Nana sat on concrete block. Hands supporting herself as she leaned back to let her face feel the sun.

"maldo andwae"

A male voice made nana jump out of her daydream, and in her haste to stand she took a wrong step and like a scene straight from a romantic comedy flick she stumbled right into his arm.

"guenchana?" he said looking concerned and somewhat perplexed at the girl currently in his arm.

"oh, s-s sorry, thank you, biannimida, a-a are you okay?" Nana replied, stuttering, flustered, as she tries to straightened herself up.

"yes, I am okay. Do you speak Korean?" He gave himself a mental kick for surprising the girl like that. It's just that he couldn't believe his eyes and just had to check himself.

"Not enough to make a conversation." said Nana with a sheepish grin.

"I'm sorry for surprising you. I thought no one but me know of this place. When I saw someone here from the entrance I just had to make sure..."

"Oh? Is this a private place? I'm sorry.. I didn't realize..."

"Oh no, not at all. It is a public place. it is just that no one else ever comes here but me. Well, no one else know of this place... and now you."

"Well it has a nice view, and seems to be a good place to run away from that crowd there." Nana peered towards the beautiful face now standing beside her. "Are you running too?"

"Sometimes. When it gets too noisy." He said looking at the sky. "And sometimes just to stop for a while and look at the sky like this."

Nana followed his lead and look at the sky.

Click, *Click

Nana turned towards him to see him taking photos of the sky. He smiled to her. "The sky is exceptionally blue today. Don't you think so?"

That smile almost made her faint. Gosh this guy is so gorgeous!

"Can we keep this place quiet?" He said looking at Nana with a smile in his eyes.

"If that is your way to ask me to keep this place a secret, then ermmm... maybe yes." Nana replied with a chuckle.

"Maybe?" He said puzzled

"Look, I am going to be frank, i would probably never have a chance to meet you again after this. Or anyone half as good looking as you are. So, i will keep this place a secret, but in return can I have a photo with you? if you don't want to I will not post it anywhere. Just something for me to keep and to proof I was not hallucinating. Kol?"

He looked so serious that Nana almost regretted what she said. Did i went overboard? I mean, it is just a photo right?

"Hmm.. On two conditions." He said after a while.

"Yes?" Nana waited, suspense building up in her.

"One, I don't make deals with stranger. So you need to tell me your name."

Nana laughs at this. "Ok that made sense... I am Nana Eddy. You can call me Nana. Nice to meet you." Nana held out her hand for a handshake.

"I am Jaejoong Kim. Nice to meet you too." He reaches out for her outstretched hand.

"I know who you are. Can I call you Jae?"

"Sure, go ahead"

The handshake seems to linger a moment too long.

"Ermm, and the second condition?" asked Nana letting go of their hands.

"I want a copy of that photo." His smile stretched to his eyes making a little wrinkle by his eyes. "Kol?"

"Kol!" Nana cant help but to smile back. Nana took out her phone for a photo. But after the first snap, her phone rang.

"Hello, ah okay. Where we separated just now? Sure I'll be there in... Hello? Hello?"

"Is there a problem?" Jae asked as he saw her looking at her phone with a disturbed expression.

"My phone just died. I didn't even get a proper photo. and so i have no idea how to fulfil your second condition."

"Simple" Jae said as he moves closer to her, he took out his phone. Going across her shoulder embrace like position he says"Smile!" and snapped a photo.

Nana felt herself stiffen. Her heart felt like it was just about to jump out. She was saved from reacting when his phone rings.

Sounds like his manager is looking for him. Nana thought to herself as she listens to him speaking.

Jae finished his conversation after a while. His manager was making a fuss and lecturing him for his disappearing act. He was getting nervous as the next appointment is happening in 10minutes.

Jae turned to where Nana was only to find her no where to be seen.

I didn't imagine her did I? He looked at the photo from his phone. "No, she is real. I will see her again. Like we did before. Like we did today.. I'm sure."

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Jae's memories

He saw her first two days ago and he recognized her first today. And both times he picks her out from among hundreds of people passing by and surrounding him. He don't know why but it feels like there was an invisible force that pulls him to look at her direction just like today. And today as she was looking at the sky, she looks so unreal that he can't help but to snap a picture just to prove that she is real. He thought to himself, she is beautiful.. even on that day too..

When he first saw her she was smiling as brightly as she did today and looked like a little angel fluttering about. no, she wasn't what you will call a classic beauty, nor a model type or idol type that he is used to. She is small, standing a full head shorter than him, slightly plump with curves just at the right places. she has small white face, when she smile, her eyes smiles along, and she has an unorthodox half dimple forming along her smile line. She was wearing a simple floral long dress that day with a flower crown to complete her look. She was laughing with her friends and was passing out dried leaf to passerby and saying something to them with a smile.

She probably doesn't remember a random brooding stranger in a hoodie that she passed by, but she made my difficult day feels a lot lighter and brighter.

As she passed him, she handed him a dried leaf and said, "Smile, everything is going to be just fine". As she disappears from his view, he looked at the dried leaf. There scribbled on the leaf was

"Hey you, you are going to be okay. Lift up your head and live with a smile :)"

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Nana's Memories

I can't believe I met Jae again! the last time she saw him, she regretted it so much that she didn't think of taking a photo with him! The odds of her running to him was little to none. It's a miracle that it happen the second time. It's a pity she had to leave so abruptly like that. She can see Ira and Suzy were looking about for her while seemingly trying to get her on the phone. They must be worried as they can't get her on the phone. She wanted to say goodbye to Jae but the phone call looked too serious to be disrupted. So she decided to leave quietly.

It was a clear day like today when she first saw him. He probably doesn't remember me..

That day, before continuing to their next destination, Nana manage to persuade her companions to have a little walk and see the autumn leaves. As if he was calling out for help, she saw him sitting on a bench looking down to the earth. He was wearing all black with a cap and a hoodie. He looks like the world is about to weigh down on him.

Why do these people always think that wearing like that will make people unable to recognize them? they stood out like a sore thumb actually. He must have had a bad day to be looking like that. He doesn't even realize that people are looking at him, obviously recognizing him, but with the air around him, they are just too scared to get close.

"Ira, lend me your sharpie for a while"

Nana collect some dried leaves and start scribbling things on it. She turned to her companions and said, "Let's spread some positivity." without waiting for her friends to responds, she laughs and starts to randomly passing out the leaves with words of encouragement to passerby. And just as casually, she approached the brooding figure and passed him the leaf. As she was walking away, she turned to look at him looking at the leaf.

And before he was out of view, she saw him smiling.

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" jayuropge mannaseo sumjugyeo salmyeon eotteohge,

ige nugu chaegimilkka?

geugeon neo, na rago hal geot do eopseo

danji sarang hanamyeon dwae...

nan sarang hanamyeon dwae"

"How is it that I met you of my free will and I ended up not being able to breathe freely,

Whose responsibility is this?

We can't say that's ours or mine

All we need is love...

All I need is love"

-Kim Jaejoong, 그거 알아? (You Know What?)