A/N: I wrote this one night after chatting with my soul sisters. It was a bit of an inner purge and I'm really proud of it. I hope you all enjoy this short.
BTW I don't own Lucy or Fairy Tail because Hiro Mishma does.
Lucy sat at the bar mindlessly stirring the thick strawberry milkshake Mira had made just for her. This was the first time in years that Capricorn had relaxed her diet enough that dairy and sugar weren't completely forbidden. "In maaaaa-deration," the echoing of his words played through her memory, her lips slightly lifting remembering his stern look trying to rein in her self-acknowledged over-the-top shouts of glee. The shake was sweet and creamy with just enough of that delightful fresh strawberry tang; she should really be drinking it instead of watching in warm in her glass but the experience wasn't the same as she remembered, or maybe it was and she was the one who changed? Either way, this drink was from her past and even now she knew it needed to stay there.
In time all things change, all people change and she knew she wasn't an exception to the rule. It happens slowly, in the little choices you make until one day you wake up and look in the mirror and it just hits you. Like this morning it had hit her…
She was different.
She'd published 3 novels in total so far, this last one topping the best sellers list finally and after only a month of being released. She'd made a name for herself as a mage outside of bikini spreads or Team Natsu's destruction and now had specific mission requests asking for only her by name coming to Fairy Tail. She'd fulfilled all her childhood dreams and yet…
And yet.
That was the problem. There was some unknown thing inside her that longed to be realized but everything she'd learned and tried over the past few years in her unconscious search, while useful, exciting, fun or even a huge mistake never to be thought on again, flopped. Maybe it was because what she's tried in the past hadn't really been new…just more of the same but different enough she'd convinced herself it wasn't the same at all?
Why was she trying so hard to stay the same?
Why was she still clinging onto the little girl she was, in her big house surrounded by people yet still lonely and alone? Did she even know how to reach out to those around her and make a real connection? One that didn't fade with time as her friends all moved onto new things in their lives?
She didn't know.
Pushing the barely consumed drink away from her Lucy stood up and stretched letting her past finally slid off her shoulders completely. Today was just as good as any other to finally move forward.
Grabbing a solo mission from the request board at random Lucy walked out of the guild not once looking back or around at her guild mates and friends so she missed the curious looks from a table on the second floor and the one of pride in the back corner.
She was finally ready to just be.
Leave a comment and let me know what you think. - Blas