No Lullaby

I cry for an angel who is fighting for his life, an angel, the braves' angel of them all, the one that saved my life, once and for all. My angel above, who is lying there so still, who had to come down to earth, to stay by my side and guard my heart with his life. Can you hear me my sweet angel? Would you please open your eye, those brown ones that make this world shine so bright, those brown ones that take my heart away, in them lies a silent comfort.

his scream are so loud, filled with so much anger in them and there's no escape for me expect you, but you are there yet, you haven't come down to earth yet, to stay by my side and fight with me against my demons. There is no air here, not in this dark place that he has me in.

I want to run so fast, run far away from his, away from my fear but I can't breathe. He is taking my breath away and not in a good way.

Not like you do when I see you walking towards me. Angel, please save me, hurry up and take my heart away.

His eyes are so red, filled with anger and it's so cold, he's so cold. Sometimes I don't think that he has a heart or maybe he does but it has to be made of stone, hard cold stone. Nothing else makes sense, and yet I still stand here wondering, why, why doesn't he love me? What did I do wrong?

He says I'm no good, that I'm stupid and lazy, director, what kind of craps job is that going to do you he asks me. Question, yelling at me and I stand there, taking everything but I know that this won't last because I feel how I 'm breaking free from him.

He says I do nothing, that the army the right thing for me, the right way to be just like him, but I know that is the last thing that I want to do. To be like him, a bigot, a cold hearted man without any dreams what so ever.
Blames everything on me and I don't know...

I don't know what I've done, I don't know what's wrong but he's so mad at me. Yelling louder and I'm just waiting for him to snap.

Oh please angel, my guardian angel. Are you there, up in the sky at this so very cold night? I hope that it's not too much to ask but could you please, could you just hold me through this night, I need you, your warmth, your love.

Just someone...

I'm so cold and it hurt so much inside, to know that my father doesn't really love me, he doesn't accept me for whom I am, and that hurts. I already knew that he was a cold man but not this cold.
Please make it go away, in some kind of way. Could you kiss the pain away, like a mother does, like someone who has a golden heart does, with love and care.

Please angel, sing me a sweet lullaby, and block the noise that fills this room. All the anger that lies here, in his heart and all the pain... I'm not asking you to make it go completely away, just make my dad stop screaming, just for once.

I'll be waiting here for you, my sweet golden angel. I'll be waiting for a lullaby, just one to make the pain go away. Dad doesn't love me and no mother I have... Just you and I wouldn't wish for it to be different... Hurry up... I'm waiting...