I just couldn't resist writing a .hack fic. I love .hack (sad it is ending this year…) So I decided to show my love for the series by writing a fic for it. Don't bug me about updates. (By that I mean asking when I'm going to update. Saying 'update soon' or 'asap' is fine.) I have a busy life and barely find time to write for my stories anymore. And I work on stories more when they are my current interest. (which runs in shifts.) But no matter how long it takes I plan on finishing every story unless I have no clue where the plot is going or don't like where it is going, or lost interest in the paring or the series itself. I might stop for months and when I finally come back it being massively rewritten. (Maybe even from the start)

The story will be written in first person almost most (if not all of the) time. (Mostly Atoli or Haseo) I don't plan on changing POV in one chapter, so the times of scenes from one chapter to the next may differ.

Thank you and enjoy!

Summary: Atoli logged onto The World looking for a friend, but after getting PKed multiple times she thought about giving up the world. That was until she was saved by him. But when she tried to thank him he PKed her and called her 'Worthless'

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.hack//G.U. Absolution

Vol.1 Alienation.

(Main characters Atoli/Haseo/Shino)

Chapter 1

I glanced up at the sky, it was a dark black; sure enough it is going to rain. Maybe even the sky is feeling sorry for me. I let out a dry laugh in my mind. Yeah right… even the sky probably hates me. . . thinks I'm worthless.

I wanted to get home and cry my eyes out. But I knew that I would just be yelled at the minute I opened the door, so I decided to just wander around.

My teacher had lost my test, and claimed I never handed it in, so I got a 0 on it. And it counted for 35% of our grade this year. I barely even have a slight chance of passing now. I knew my parents were probably complaining about how could they have been given such a worthless daughter, and how I shame the family name.

"Are you getting on?" A voice asked me.

I turned and glanced at the open bus door in front of me. I hadn't even realized I was standing in front of the bus stop. Maybe I should just leave. Get on a bus and just go far away, somewhere nobody knows me, somewhere I can be liked even if it is only a little.

You are just kidding yourself Chigusa; everywhere you go people with just call me worthless, because that is what I am.

"I'm, sorry. . . no," I muttered before quickly running away from the bus stop. The driver probably thought I was a freak; he probably wouldn't have even let me on anyway.

I glanced at the show windows as I walked down the street. One ad caught my eye and made me stop. It was for one of those Online Multiplayer RPG's that are all the rage at my school. I had never played one before, nor played a video game of any kind. But the words on the ad made me interested in trying this one.

Create your own character in The World. Write you own story and play with millions of others all over the world. Battle monsters, or just hang out. The World is a different world where you can be whoever you want to be. Where your dreams can come true!

The World? I think I heard people at me school talking about it. But I can really be anyone I want to be. I don't have to be worthless Chigusa. Maybe I could actually make a friend or two.

I felt part of me saying it was a foolish thought, for no matter what I do, I can't change who I am. Chigusa will always come through, even in this game. Eventually my friends would abandon me, just like my ones at school. When they see how worthless I am, they will just cast me aside and mock me like all the others.

But maybe I just wanted to believe in that hope. The hope this brightly colored ad talked about. I walked into the store and headed straight to the counter. It took me a while before I mustered up the courage to ask about the game mentioned in the ad. But the shopkeeper was nice and he explained things about the game, and what I need to play it.

After pursing the items I needed I ran out of the shop. Maybe if I'm in luck I can start my other life when I get home. Maybe I can sneak in and avoid the yelling for a little while.

As I ran I drops of rain hit by clothes and face. No don't rain the things I bought will get ruined. The rain grew heavier and the bag I was holding got soaked ruining the fragile electronics inside.

I slumped and sat down on the curve. The hot wet feeling of tears ran down my face. Maybe this was a sign that I don't have any hope, and I should just give up and accept that in my life everyone will hate me.

All of a sudden the rain stopped. But I could still see it raining on the street in front of me. I looked up and saw a young man my age or a little older holding an umbrella above my head.

He must be new around here if he is helping me, after all . . . I' m worthless. I muttered a shy, "Thank you."

"Why are you crying?" he asked me. "That stuff, it is for The World right. Did it get ruined in the rain?" I just nodded. He seemed in thought afterwards. He rubbed the back of his head with his free hand. "I can understand if you wouldn't want too. But I have an extra copy of all this stuff at my house. You can have it if you want, but you would have to come with me to get it."

He seemed nervous; I could tell he didn't have any malicious intent so I decided to take up his offer. I took my shoes off in the entrance of his house even though he told me I didn't have to. I was so used to it; it felt odd not doing it.

We went upstairs and into his bedroom. This was my first time going into a guy's bedroom, but from what I had seen on TV I expected it to be messy. But I was surprised to see the room was clean and tidy.

But the room lacked life; it reminded me of my room in a way. My room was painted a rosy pink only because my mom liked the color and thought it was the normal color for normal girls. Otherwise my room would have probably been white just like his room.

He led me over to his closet and opened it. Inside a cardboard box on the floor was a copy of everything I had bought today. He grabbed the box and took it out. "My parents bought this for me without knowing I had already bought it with my own money."

He showed me how to start everything up slowly and carefully making sure I understood. I read the words on the screen. Create your character.

I looked at all the different looks for characters, while he explained what each class could do. Harvest Cleric just clicked for me, they were people who aided others, and it was odd for people to not have one in their party. Enter character's name.

Hmm… what should I name myself in this world? What would be a good name? Something no one has used; is there such a thing?

I typed in the name I chose and logged on for the first time. A whole new world opened up before my eyes. It seemed I was in some kind of building. Behind me was a large blue circle that was spinning. I glanced around the area looking for him; but he was nowhere in sight. He probably got sick of teaching me how to set things up.

"Atoli," a guy spoke to me. "That is a nice name for you Chigusa."

I turned around and looked at the guy who was speaking to me. He had spiky black hair and blue eyes, along with a red x right below his left eye. I looked at the name of the player that spoke; Maelstrom-Fenrir. "I'm sorry do I know you?" I spoke softly.

"Oh, sorry, I should have told you what my player name was," he chuckled lightly. "It is me Hiro."

I bowed in apology. "I'm sorry Hiro, I should have known it was you. I'm sorry."

"It is ok Atoli," Fenrir told me. "Oh and you can just call me Fenrir, everyone of my friends online do."

I felt nervous even though it was an online game. "Ok.. . Fenrir," I spoke in a barely audible voice. Could I call Hiro a friend.. no who am I kidding he is just being polite.

Hiro.. .no Fenrir explained all about the world to me and showed me around. He even helped me level up once before we both signed out.

"Thank you Hiro-san I had a lot of fun," I told him. I spotted the look on the wall it was already past 9PM. "Oh no, I have to get going," I panicked. "But if I bring the stuff home with me, my parents will see it."

"I will bring it to you," Hiro offered. "I will bring it to your house after your parents go to sleep and set it up for you."

I felt nervous about that. That would mean that Hiro would come around midnight and be in my bedroom at that time. But agreed anyway despite my bit of fear; I wanted to believe in Hiro, that he wouldn't do anything to me. After all he could have done something if he had wanted as soon as I entered his room. But he didn't so I wanted to trust that he was a good person.

I tried to quietly sneak into the house but as soon as I started taking off my shoes. I heard my mother and father yelling at me. This is going to be a long and loud scolding….

As soon as I entered the living room, I felt the sting of a slap. I turned and looked at my mother. I could still feel the heat from the slap. It hurt a lot, but I knew this was only the start, or at least that is what I hoped.

"How could you stay out this late," she yelled at me. "You wretch don't you realize how bad it looks if you are out this late. You are just like those other teenagers who shame their parents. Why can't you do anything right; you worthless daughter!"

"Do you want to shame us that bad. You little wretch you don't realize how good you have things. If it didn't shame us I would throw you out on the streets, but that would make us look bad!" father boomed at me.

On and on the yelling and insults came, over and over again. It lasted for almost an hour before they were finished. I ran to my room and laid down in my bed crying when it was finally over. All that yelling and it was just for me being back so late, they haven't even learned about my grade yet.

I didn't even realize I had fallen asleep. But I suddenly heard a light tapping sound on my window. I saw Hiro standing on the large tree branch that ran next to my window. Allowing him to come in I opened my window.

"Hello Atoli," Hiro greeted as he stepped into the room. "I will just quick set everything up, and up and then I will let you go back to sleep."

I watched as Hiro set up The World for me on my computer. It only took him a few minutes before the installer started up. After that it took around ten minutes for it to finish everything. Hiro checked to make sure everything worked before he bid goodbye and left out the window.

I was so tired when Hiro was installing everything, but now I felt wide awake. I wanted to log back on The World for a little while before going to sleep. I put on the headset, and logged into the game.

I remembered what Hiro told me about friend's lists, and I remembered we never added each other. So I quickly sent a friend invite to his character.

I should level up some. I'm only level 2, and he is 45, if I want to party with him I should level up first. I wonder what class he picked.

I opened the menu in front of the chaos gate and entered three area words. It was a level one area so I should be alright by myself. I pressed the button and warped to the area.

The area I warped to make me think I was in an old Japanese style mansion. I walked around the area for a little while before I spotted a group of monsters. Two onion like things; I can handle them I think.

I made my staff appear and rushed at the monsters. I whacked one of the Onion Mashes on the head. I quickly hit a second time before it realized what was going on.

I lifted the staff up to strike it again, but it suddenly spun around, bumping into me and knocking me to the ground.

I let out a cry of pain as it bit down on my leg. "Let go!" I yelled kicking the creature off me. I rose and started running away, but I was struck in the back by the other one.

This is kind of hard. I muttered to myself as I got up. "Repth!" I yelled as I cast the healing spell on myself. I rushed back at the monsters and fought some more until I needed to heal myself again. After a few times I finally had defeated the monsters, but I was also out of SP.

I collapsed after the fight. This game is hard by myself. When I was playing with Hiro he would keep all but one monster busy and heal me if I got hurt. I waited for my SP to return before heading off once again.

I heard the sound of footsteps and saw some other players heading towards me. One was a female player with green hair. She was dressed in black armor and had a bulky purple hat on her head. The other was a guy with silver hair. He wore a black sleeveless shirt and baggy blue pants.

"Oh, look another one." The girl laughed. She smirked; "She's all mine!" A large broadsword appeared in her hands and she rushed at me. Before I could even blink or think she slashed me with it.

My body turned gray and started to phase out as both of the other players laughed at me.

I found myself back in front of the chaos gate at Mac Anu. I lost all the experience I got.

"Did something happen," a fragile looking little girl asked me. She was standing next to a tall male player. She had on a cute pink sleeveless outfit and a miniskirt. White feathered wings were attached to her back.

The male player had spiky dark gray hair. He wore mostly normal clothes with little armor.

"Were you attack by PK's?" the girl asked this time.

"Shika, stop it might have been a bad experience for her." The guy hissed.

"Sorry, sorry," the girl apologized. "I'm ShikaRose, and my friend here is Wyvern"

"Um.. . Nice to meet you," I said shyly.

"I know why don't Wyvern and I help you gain the experience and items back that you lost; and more." Shika suggested.

"You would really do that for me?" I asked feeling touched.

Shika smiled at me. "Oh course."

I smiled as we chose the area words and warped away. But not long after we entered the area Shika muttered. "I'm sorry."

"Um, excuse me," I answered puzzled.

Shika pulled out two small blades and in an instance she stabbed me in the chest with them. Just before I disappeared I heard her mutter, "I'm sorry Atoli."

I once again found myself in front of the chaos gate in Mac Anu. It happened again… I was PKed. I thought about giving up, but I decided I would try one more time to go to an area and level up.

I picked a level 2 area and warped away. I walked around field for a little while before I spotted the first set of monsters guarding the symbol fragment. I rushed at them and after a long fight managed to win. I continued fighting monsters in the area until I finally had all three fragments. By that time I was already level 4. I really felt good about myself I had managed to double my level. I walked towards the island with the beast statue on it.

As I crossed the bridge I saw some players getting harassed by other players. "Stop it!" I yelled with out thinking and rushed over to the group. "There isn't a reason to do this. Can't all of us players just get along?"

The two PKs laughed at me. "What are you an idiot. There is no reason! That is a good one, there is a reason. It is fun! And that is what a game is about, so we continue to do it because it is fun!"

And then right before my eyes they slaughtered the two players I was trying to save. "You're next," they laughed as they turned towards me.

I shook with fear as they drew closer and closer towards me. They lifted up their swords and I closed my eyes. But instead if the slash I heard two cries of pain. I opened my eyes and saw a player coated in spiky black armor standing in front of me. He had light grayish hair that was parted in the front. He held a large scythe in his hands.

He saved me from the PKs. He saved me; worthless me. A newbie in the world; but he took the time to save me anyway. He really looks cool standing there. I must thank him for saving me.

I slowly stepped towards him. Nervously I opened my mouth to speak. "Um… thank you for-" I was cut off sharply by my savoir swing his scythe and slashing me. I was killed again, for the third time since I started playing The World. In the last hour I was killed three times. I hate this game!

"Sorry, I forgot you were there," he spoke. "I have trouble noticing worthless beginners!"

I froze. . . that is right; I'm just a worthless person. Mac Anu appeared before me again, but I no longer cared. I logged out of the game.

I didn't even realize until the game shut down that I had been crying. I ripped the headset off my head and threw it who-knows-where. Where it had landed I didn't care. I just wanted the infernal thing to go away.

Tears ran down my face as I cried. I sobbed as I lay in my bed. I really am worthless…

Log Out

Author's Text

Ok quick notes mostly. Asta and IYOTEN are the first PKs Atoli met. Shika is an Adept Rouge, she has powers from Harvest Cleric and Twin Blade. Wyvern is an Edge Punisher. Fenrir is a Lord Partizan. Haseo is in his third form (if you didn't already know)

Next don't expect things to be the same at all. Characters will have different roles than in the games. But anyone who has an important role in the games will at least make a one scene cameo. I call this project of mine project .hack A-Z. 26 .hack fics with each one have three Vols.

As far as paring it would be AtolixHaseoxShino (I know the same kind of main triangle as in the games) Series A focuses on Atoli and Haseo. But other series will focus on different characters. I hope you will enjoy my massive tribute to the .hack series. (oh yeah some might not even be GU fics)

Sorry if any facts are incorrect I'm going to go through GU again to recheck monsters and areas. (Area words will be mentioned for most places in the story)