Pop Stars Don't Cry
Disclaimer: I don't own Hannah Montana, Miley Cyrus, Emily Osment or any characters from Hannah Montana! I wish I did. I would be rich and extremely happy right now if I did.
Author Notes: Ok, this is my first Hannah Montana fic. Please read and if you like, review! Important note: this fic DOES have a relationship between 2 females; so if that is not your thing, please don't read. (LILEY)
Summary: How will Miley and Lilly deal with the pressures of coming out? Will there be trouble? Will they be accepted? How will people in their small town in Tennessee react? This story is slightly AU as they live in Tennessee and not Malibu.
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Chapter 1 – The Beginning (Miley's Pov):
1 year ago, the summer before my sophomore year of high school, a new family moved in next door. I remember just getting back from riding with Ollie, my best friend, and seeing the most beautiful girl I'd ever laid my eyes on. She had long blonde hair that sparkled in the sunlight and deepest blue eyes I'd ever seen. She was dressed kind of skater chick, but to be honest, I found it incredibly cute.
Later, I found out she was from Malibu, CA. I asked her why in her right mind she would move from California to Tennessee, but apparently her parents got a divorce and her mother wanted a complete change. I told her, "It don't get any more different than here, that's for sure! She wanted a change, well she got it!"
Lilly Truscott, that's her name, laughed it off and said change was good sometimes. I completely agree. What I wouldn't give to leave Tennessee and all the bigotry behind and go to California, or anywhere for that matter.
Now, I've known I've been a little Sapphic for going on two years now, but the only people that know about my appreciation of the female form are my brother and my best friend Oliver.
Here in Tennessee, being gay or lesbian isn't exactly accepted. At all. I remember watching the news a while back and hearing a story about a gay guy getting beaten by the football team at his high school. Now, this didn't happen in my town or anything. It was actually a couple towns over, only about an hour or so drive from here, but still a little too close for my tastes.
My family is actually pretty open-minded about many things. In fact they thought it was "a shame some boy got beaten just for being a little different". Of course, if it were one of their own, I don't know if they'd be singing the same "it's ok to be a little different" tune. Who knows. I really don't intend to find out anytime soon. I figure graduate, leave the state for college, THEN find out over the phone or something. I don't want to be anywhere within throwing or grabbing distance when that little tid bit of information is finally told.
Ok, back to the beautiful Miss Truscott. Lilly and I have been secretly dating for 4 months now. We finally got together at the end of our sophomore year. I have no clue how we managed to keep it a secret from everyone, especially our families. Well, my family really. Her mother and brother already know. They'd known she was a lesbian for years. I think that's a big reason I'd love to go to California. Things like being gay or bisexual seem to be more accepted out there than here.
Oh, and Jackson and Oliver know too. I couldn't keep it from my best friend or my brother.
Since her mother and older brother know about us, we tend to spend most of our free time at her house. With so many people at mine, we'd never get any privacy to kiss or snuggle. Plus I'm so scared that we are going to get caught that I'm paranoid beyond belief to even let my eyes linger on her for more than 2 seconds.
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Currently, we are sitting cross-legged on Lilly's bed watching a movie. It's Friday night and today was our last day of school. It's finally summer vacation. Three months of no homework, studying, or getting up early. God, it feels so good. Two years down and only two more to go and then, I'm FREE! Hopefully I'll get into a decent college somewhere on the west coast. I don't care where, just as long as it's FAR from here.
Don't get me wrong; I love my family to death. I even love my town. I know I'm going to miss being able to ride my horse whenever I please and the quiet and peaceful country we have here, but I'm so ready to see what else is out there. I'm ready to be myself and let my hair down.
"Hey, whatcha thinking about?" Lilly asks with a concerned look on her face.
"Nothing serious. Just how we only have two more years of high school left and how I can't wait until we can leave here and go to college together," I replied with a shrug of my shoulders. "I can't wait until we are on our own and have our own place. Then I'll be able to kiss you anytime I want!" I added while pouncing on her and capturing her lips with my own.
"But you can do that now," Lilly stated while pulling back.
"Not really. I can't kiss you at my house, around town, or at school. Only here in your house. We always have to sneak and I hate that," I countered while looking down at my hands.
"Hey! I wanted to come out, remember!? You're the one that doesn't want to tell anyone or-"
"I know, I know," I cut her off while getting off the bed and standing up. "You think I want to hide that we are together?! I would love to tell people, but you didn't grow up here. I did. People aren't as excepting of gays or lesbians here. You have no clue how close minded people here are about that stuff!" I yelled with a stomp of my foot.
I want to pull my hair out sometimes with her. I love her. I really do. I think I've loved her since the first day I saw her when she moved in, but sometimes she drives me absolutely nuts!
We've had this argument many, many times. The first couple of weeks Lilly didn't mind that I wanted to keep our relationship a secret. She understood the pressures of coming out to your family and the world, having been there herself at one point, but she didn't grow up here. She doesn't understand what could really happen and what does really happen to people like us here in the south. I wish I could get it through to her.
After the first month or so, she started pushing me to tell my family. She thinks my family will be fine with it and sometimes, I think they will be too, but then Mamaw or someone else will make a comment and I know they won't be ok with it. They still don't know that Lilly is a lesbian. I'm afraid to tell them.
I've thought about testing the waters and telling them about Lilly since I know they like her, but I'm afraid they won't take it well and she won't be welcome in our home anymore. She's practically family now as it is. She comes and goes out of this house and Mamaw even puts her to work sometimes.
"So, cause I didn't grow up here, that means I know nothing?!" Lilly said also getting up to pace around as she made her point. "I know that there will be consequences, I know that not everyone will be ok with it, but I also know that I'm going to have you, right here beside me!" She finished right in my face with stomp of her foot as well.
With that last sentence, I swear, if I didn't love her already, I would definitely love her now. Her face was red with indignation and it made her look so much more beautiful to me. I guess I always knew she would be with me through thick and thin, but to hear her say it with such conviction, made my heart constrict with so much more love for her.
Slowly leaning in, I kissed her with every emotion I had in me. All the fear, anger, sadness, pride, and especially love I had for her got poured into that kiss, and I think she felt it all as she clutched to me like a lifeline.
I think that maybe, just maybe, it's time to tell my family. I'd like to tell everyone, but well, baby steps for starters.
Tomorrow, I'll tell my dad and the rest of my family.
Lord please let them accept us.
TBC…
AN: So, tell me what think so far. Should I continue? Should I end it here? R&R!
Also, I am currently writing another Hannah Montana story as well. I had 2 ideas in my head so I'm going with both of them. I'm going to be posting that story in the next day or two and then pretty much alternate between the two when it comes to updating. So check out the other story. It's Liley as well and is called "If Tomorrow Never Comes". Have a wonderful day!