Title: The Secret

Series: Ouran High School Host Club

Pairing: Tamaki/Kyouya(yes, that means guyxguy).

Rating: PG-13

I had always been wondering, especially with the anime, why Kyouya always has a notebook with him. I always wanted to know why that was, there had to be a reason. And then, a thought came to me, and this is what I want to share with you. I found this part isn't really very exciting because it's more introducing the store, and also because I haven't written a fic in a loooooooooooooong time. Also because of that, OOCness is probably to be expected xD

Enjoy~

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Ouran Academy. A prestegious school for the children of wealthy households. Not just anyone can become a student of the Academy, but for normal Haruhi Fujioka an exception was made. As she (unfortunately for her) stumbled upon the infamous Host Club, her whole world changed forever. However, she's witnessed many things hiding behind the beautiful masks of the hosts. Some things were good, while others were secrets they'd rather keep to themselves. We now take a look behind the mask of Kyouya, and take a look at something not even Tamaki knows. That is, until now.

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"Hey, I have a question..." Haruhi looked over to the twins as they waited for homeroom to begin. They both turned to her, blinking at her in unison as they often did and used that as an indication to go on. "What is Kyouya-senpai always writing in his notebook?"

"What do you mean?" Hikaru asked.

"What I mean is, he's always writing, but it seems like he doesn't have that much to write. I understand he has to write financial statements and merchandise ideas and whatnot, but is there really that much that needs to be written? Something seems suspicious about it but I can't put my finger on it."

"She has a point..." Kaoru looked over to his brother, who seemed to be thinking, "And it almost seems like he gets a new one every day. I mean, it's the same type, but it's a new one."

"Well, the only way to find out is to ask," he finally spoke once it seemed like he'd stopped thinking about it.

Haruhi shook her head, "And do you think he'd tell me? You know how he is - he's always very private. Usually it's that easy, but this is Kyouya-senpai we're talking about. He's like Carl Orff." The twins stared at her, both with blank expressions. They obviously had no idea who Carl Orff was. Haruhi sighed and elaborated, "Carl Orff was a German composer who's most famous work was Carmina Burana. Look it up on the internet when you get home, you'll know it when you hear it. Anyways, his life was so private that people knew almost nothing about his personal life. Doing projects on him is frustrating in that aspect because all we really know is about the work aspect of his life - what schools he went to, what organizations he founded, etcetera. In short, he liked to keep to himself."

"That does sound like Kyouya. I mean, we know what his father does for a living and we know he has some siblings but that's really about it," Kaoru commented, "This could be an interesting experience to find out more."

Hikaru shook his head and Kaoru looked back to the front of the classroom as class began. Although the two of them had more or less bushed it off, Haruhi was still thinking about this. For some reason it worried her and she wasn't quite sure why. She had to find out what it was about that notebook that was making her so intrigued.

By lunch time, the twins sat down at a table with Haruhi. "We have a plan~," Hikaru announced to her proudly.

"Plan?" she blinked at them, forgetting all about their conversation that morning. She had still been thinking about what she'd mentioned, but she forgot she had mentioned it to them. She tended to try to block them out of her mind at times.

"Yes, plan. It's really simple. Tell her, Kaoru," he asked his brother while he proceeded to eat.

"Ah, right. Think about it: What's one place he wouldn't be able to hold on to that notebook?"

"Hmm..." Haruhi thought, looking to her lunch as if it would give her the answer.

"Time's up~ The bathroom! You can't write and do your business at the same time."

"And what does that have to do with me?" she asked.

"It was your idea," Hikaru joined back into the conversation.

"My idea? I just mentioned that I was wondering. I didn't plan on hatching a scheme.....besides, I'm not going into the guys washroom!!! And even so, weren't you guys not really interested in what I said this morning?"

"Well we're guys, aren't we? We can do it," Hikaru stated.

"I don't know, are you guys?" Haruhi rolled her eyes, still a bit unimpressed by this plot. Kaoru snickered and Hikaru shot him a dirty look and smacked him lightly.

"What? You ask a stupid question you get a stupid answer," he laughed.

"Yea yea fine, but the point still stands. While he's...going, one of us will distract him and the other will grab the notebook. It's that easy. And you're right, we weren't interested this morning, but now we've decided it would be fun to play a prank~"

"I'm not sure...Kyouya-senpai isn't an idiot."

"Who knows? Maybe he's easily distracted..."

Haruhi just shook her head. She was wondering why the twins were so optimistic about this, "Whatever. You want to do it you can, but keep me out of it."

"Good, now we just have to catch him going to the bathroom..." Hikaru thought.

"You sound like a stalker...." Haruhi muttered.

"I know! He probably goes at lunch, since we have Host Club after school. We should try after we eat," Kaoru suggested.

"After we eat it is! Hurry, Kaoru, let's eat so we can go!"

"I never thought anyone would be excited to use the washroom..." Haruhi thought to herself as she ate her own lunch. She was just going to stay out of this. When the twins had an idea in their heads it was best to just stay away before someone got hurt.

"Ah! Kyouya! What brings you here?" Hikaru entered the washroom first. He wanted to distract him first so his other half could come in hopefully unnoticed. Once Kyouya wasn't looking, Kaoru would take it and run. Once Kyouya noticed, Hikaru would make a run for it too.

"Can I help you?" he asked simply. He had just gotten there, so he hadn't actually done anything yet. Hikaru said nothing, and Kyouya waited for an answer. There was a long and awkward silence as the both of them waited for someone to say something.

"What? I can't go to the bathroom?" he asked. He didn't actually have to go, so he'd have to try and see what happened.

"You asked why I was here," he replied, "I'm using the bathroom for it's intended purpose."

"Of course~ How silly of me..." he unzipped his pants, slowly, studying Kouya's movements as well as his brothers' as he tried to sneak in.

Kyouya shook his head, "I think I'll use a stall...."

"Ah Kyouya~ Come on, don't be so modest. I'm sure you're very impressive~" Kyouya didn't say anything, but for once you could see a slight bit of embarrassment in his face. "I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said that. Look, how about you leave your notebook of host club finances out here? I'll watch it for you~ I promise not to read it, probably boring anyways." Kyouya still didn't say anything as he watched him suspiciously. Slowly, he put it down and made his way into a stall. Hikaru gave his brother a thumbs up as Kaoru made his way over, grabbed it, and left. Hikaru innocently pretended to use the washroom.

When Kyouya came out of the stall, he did not look impressed. "What did you do?"

"Me? What ever do you mean?" he replied nonchalantly.

"You know what I mean." It was such a simply sentence, but the way he said it would make anyone freeze up with fear. His face was completely straight when he said it, no anger at all, which made it even more frightening to hear.

"Er...uhm..I..havetogonowbye!" he ran out of the bathroom, zipping his pants on the way out.

Kyouya shook his head. "Idiots..." he muttered to himself, "Never have anything better to do..." Although he seemed unconcerned with this, he was very concerned. He figured he'd use his spare until after school when he'd be able to retrieve it.

"I didn't know he could be so scary..." Hikaru was saying to himself.

"He didn't hurt you did he?" Kaoru asked him.

Hikaru shook his head, "No, no. He just looked pissed."

Kaoru nodded as they headed to their after lunch classes.

"Tamaki-senpai...?" Haruhi went up to the Host Club President after school.

"What is it my lovely daughter~ Daddy is always here for you~" Tamaki was in a weirder mood than usual, but that was to be expected on occasion.

"Yea yea, have you seen the twins anywhere? I haven't seen them since lunch and I'm wondering what they're up to," she asked him, annoyed obviously since he still didn't get the memo that she didn't like being his 'daughter'.

Tamaki looked hurt, but answered her anyways, "I haven't seen them yet. They should be here soon. Oi, Kyouya..~"

He looked over to him. Something looked different about him, but it was hard to put your finger on it. It was almost like he was...confused in some way.

"Do you know when the twins were supposed to arrive today?"

"Who?"

Tamaki frowned, now concerned. He hadn't noticed Kyouya's expression yet, "The twins..y'know, Hikaru and Kaoru?"

"Oh..uh..yes, right, I thought you meant someone else. I don't know where they are, nor do I care..."

Tamaki looked to Haruhi, and Haruhi to him. Something was definitely not right with Kyouya. He never stuttered like that, he was always certain about everything he said. For the rest of the afternoon, Tamaki and Haruhi studied Kyouya. He was even forgetting some of his constant clients. What was wrong with him? Finally, at the end of the day, he left. He didn't calculate the earnings for the day, he didn't update the merchandise website. He left. "Something is definitely very strange with Kyouya-senpai..." Haruhi finally said, "Should you go see if he's alright?"

Tamaki shook his head, "It's none of my business really. I'm sure he'll be alright...." He seemed concerned as well, though. He really wanted to know what was wrong with what was pretty much his other half, but he didn't want to risk asking him and having him mad with him(although that's never stopped him before..). Although they did fight often, both of them were often concerned when something was bothering or wrong with the other. It had pretty much always been that way since they'd be friends. Even though Kyouya would never admit it, he did get a bit concerned about Tamaki at times, although Tamaki was usually more concerned about him than he was for Tamaki. They really were like a married couple. They often fought, but at the end of the day they still loved each other. Tamaki finally snapped out of his daze, "Well then~ Does Daddy need to give you a ride Haruhi~?"

She shook her head, "No, I'll be alright tonight, but thanks for the offer...." She didn't snap at him like usual, because she knew he was troubled by Kyouya's current state.

"Well then, goodbye Haruhi~" he waved as she left the room. She waved back to him. She knew she wouldn't be able to sleep tonight knowing there was stuff going on. Tamaki would be the same, he'd probably be pacing around, waiting for that fateful phone call that Kyouya was in a coma or something. None of the host club members ever expected what was actually going to happen.

The next day, Kyouya didn't show up for class. That was the first thing that tipped Tamaki off that something was wrong. Kyouya never missed class, he was too much of a good student to miss class ever. He'd known times when Kyouya was extremely ill and he still showed for class. After making this discovery, he promptly called all the host club members down to the front office. The twins were still not in attendance, but Tamaki figured that was for the better. "As most of us know, Kyouya has been acting strangely since yesterday afternoon!" he announced.

"Ah, Tama-chan, what's going on?" Hunny was getting impatient. Of course, Mori told him to wait until the president was finished.

"Now, he has not attended class this morning! We have to find out what is wrong with our vice-president. It is out duty as fellow hosts to find out what's what!" he was being all dramatic about it.

"Can you please get to the point?" Haruhi sighed.

He pouted, disappointed that his enthusiasm wasn't rubbing off on everyone else. "My point is, we need to find him and find out what's wrong. I propose we make a trip to the hospital."

"If it means missing class, I don't want any part of it," Haruhi said simply.

"Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease?"

"No."

"Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease?"

"No."

"Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease? For Kyouya?"

She sighed, "Fine, but remember I'm not doing this for you." She didn't know why she was doing this for Kyouya either, but didn't really care at the moment. It was probably because she didn't want to rack up more debt.

"Alright everyone! To the hospital!"

"Yay! It's like a field trip!" Hunny exclaimed as they marched out the front door.

The happiness wouldn't last.

Once they arrived at the hospital, Hunny and Mori went to explore while Tamaki and Haruhi went to find out where Kyouya had gone. "Tamaki-senpai....are you going to be alright?" It had been a silent walk down the halls and up stairs(since the elevator was broken at the time). Haruhi had decided it was time to break the silence, since usually it was Tamaki's job to do that. It was never silent when he was around, yet this time it was.

After a moment, he flashed her a signature smiled, "Yes, of course." Although he was usually happy, the smile still seemed sad and Haruhi could see right through it.

"You're not okay.....sometimes if you tell people what's wrong, it will make you feel better," she at least wanted to get a conversation going. At least this way Tamaki could say what was on his mind.

He sighed, but was still smiling, "All right, you caught me. We've just been friends for so long, and although it seems like he doesn't tell me things, he usually does. So when he doesn't, it hurts me. It hurts me that there was something wrong and he didn't tell me. It hurts me that he wouldn't trust me enough to tell me. It hurts me that I've told him so much about me, but he hasn't told me much about him. I try not to let it show through, but it just hurts to much it's hard not to. I mean, I know I shouldn't let it get to me so much, but he's my best friend. No, that would be an understatement. He's more than that. It hurts that it seems he thinks I see him as less than that."

Haruhi stared. She stared for a very long time, even when they were standing outside Kyouya's door. She had never heard something so meaningful come out of the President's mouth. Usually it was silly and sugarcoated, rarely did you get something serious like that. Finally, she got the courage to speak, "Tamaki-senpai, I..."

"Don't worry about it. It's not fair that you have to be involved in any of this. You shouldn't have to feel like you have to do something," he said simply, looking away from her and to the door.

Haruhi just nodded. She did feel like she had to do something, but she knew right now was not a good time to try an push that. Right now was a good time to just step back and be the support group. She knew that Tamaki wasn't playing around right now, and because of that she needed to take this very seriously. It was hard, because she wasn't used to taking things seriously with him. She knew that she had to, however, for the sake of all of them. Hunny and Mori had finally made their way up to the waiting room on that floor, so Tamaki and Haruhi decided it was time to finally pay Kyouya a visit.

Tamaki opened the door, "Mommy~ Daddy's missed you!" He bounded over to the bed and hugged his friend. After hearing what he'd said before, Haruhi could see the mask Tamaki was wearing. That the reason he was so silly most of the time was to hide for the hurt, to hide the relationship that was slowly breaking between himself and Kyouya. "And look~ Our daughter is here!" he continued, grinning. Kyouya looked to Tamaki, then to Haruhi, then back to Tamaki. You could see the wheels turning in his head, but nothing was coming. Like a toy factory's machine was working, but no toys are coming onto the line. His expression finally changed to that of annoyance, and he spoke.

"Who the hell are you?"

~~~~~~Part One End~~~~~~