The breeze was slightly blowing against my face while the moonlight shined down over the ocean. I hoped that sitting in my favorite spot, the bench by the tree, would help me clear my head, but it didn't. I was still just as confused as I was 2 hours ago. Breaking up with Michael was one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make, but it wasn't because I didn't feel right about my decision. It was because I felt like I lost my best friend. Michael and I have been together for two years and I have always seen him as the man I would marry, but today something changed. When I used to look at him I saw love, kindness, a future, but now all I see are lies and deceit. How could he lie to me for so long? How could he stand by and act like everything was fine? How could he sit back and let me give my child away to a couple that was just as messed up as the situation itself? If I was being honest with myself his lies weren't the only reason why I broke it off. If I was being honest with myself I knew that another reason why I broke off our engagement was because I knew that I couldn't go into a marriage feeling the way I felt about him…Rafael.
-"Hey"
-"Hey"
- "I saw you come out here. You looked kinda upset"
-"Yeah. I didn't want to ruin my mom's night, so..."
-"What happened?"
And there it was again…the pounding in my ears, the beating in my chest that makes me feel like my heart is about to explode out of my body. This was the other reason I couldn't marry Michael….Rafael. Every time I saw him my body would react this way, like an electricity that is running through my veins. I tried for so long to chalk it up to pregnancy hormones, but I couldn't deny this anymore. I had feelings for this man. He was sweet, considerate, and sexy as hell. Not only was he my child's father, he made my heart race. I felt consumed when I was around him, I felt alive. The way I felt around him wasn't anything like I felt with Michael. When I looked into his dark brown eyes I would get lost and forget everything that was going on around me. Just like now…while he was staring at me with those beautiful eyes.
-"I broke up with Michael."
I knew when I said this everything would change. Nothing would be the same and part of me was terrified, but another part of me couldn't help but feel this heat that was rising inside of me. From head to toe I could feel it and then he moved towards me. Before I knew it his strong hands were cupping my face and he was looking in to my eyes. It was at that moment I noticed just how deep and rich his eyes were and how perfectly they complimented his tan skin. It was at that moment I realized that I wanted to know everything about Rafael. Then his lips were on mine. The warmth of his lips sent a current running into my toes, making the hair on the back of my neck stand up. When he pulled away he didn't just look into my eyes, he looked in to my soul.