Do you know what it's like to be in love with someone? Someone that you've genuinely fallen for. Someone that when you're with them, you cherish every moment. Knowing that they may choose someone else. Someone they have known all their life, grown up with. Well that's my life. My name is Peeta Mellark, I am in love with a girl named Katniss, but she has to make the hardest decision that she will ever have to make. That's pretty much my life at the moment. But it's the worst feeling in the world. Not knowing if you're going to spend the rest of your life, blessed with the feeling of happiness and contentment, or spending the rest of your days curled up in a corner somewhere, knowing that you've lost the best thing that ever happened to you.
Most people just think that I'm just another handsome, smooth talking boy, with no real feelings. They wonder why I don't have enough confidence to just walk up to a girl and ask them out. But that would make me just like everyone else, kiss the first girl I see. That's not me. What I feel for Katniss is stronger, it's real, it's a feeling I just can't explain.
I've known she's the one all my life. Since the first time that I saw her. Five years old, in the school playground. Her dark hair neatly plaited, her perfectly pressed school uniform, that sweet smile that follows me wherever I go, reminding me of my first ever crush.
But it doesn't matter; it was never really 'love' until the arena, my eternal devotion only developed when the games began. Up until then a 'crush' was all it was. I have never met anyone like her; and I never will meet anyone else.
Will I end up like my father? Was what he said to me more real than I wanted to believe?
"See that little girl? I wanted to marry her mother, but she ran off with a coal miner."
Is she going to run off with Gale – the boy she's known for ever – is me and her just a figment of my overactive imagination? I mean, if it was you, who would you pick?
Gale (Your best friend and hunting partner, who you have known all your life) you know he loves you, and would do anything for you.
Or me (The guy who you had to fake a relationship with, just to stay alive) you know I am desperately and completely dedicated to you, and clearly in love with you.
The chances of her picking me aren't high, but I know in my heart that I need her. If she picks Gale then I don't know what would happen to me. I need to know that she feels the same way about me; I need her to pick me…