The characters in this story do not belong to me but too DEGRASSI.
Consumed by Love
"Maybe I should have told him why I left, and how walking away was the hardest thing I'd ever done. I should have told him that with every step I took I lost myself even more than what I was. Today, everything is a blur, I don't how we got here, but were here, and he's erasing me from his mind something I'd never be able to do. It hurts to have to distance myself, to not be able to crawl under his arms when everything is going wrong like right now. That day is stained in my brain, seeing his pale skin in between those white sheets was mortifying but seeing his glare, it just killed me. The first day I met him his glare was cocky and smug, it was different. I love him and I'll always love him but I couldn't help think that instead of helping him I was destroying him, our love consumed us, and all that was being left was something rotten and bitter. I could tolerate the world being against us but I couldn't tolerate seeing his fire extinguish before my eyes. I wanted to cure him but I wasn't able to, seeing him hurt scared me and I didn't know how to cure him, and that scared everything in me."
"Alli he's erasing me, how could he do that…?" I said in a crackly voice as I gently sobbed onto my pillow.
"Clare, it's for the best…ok honestly I believe Eli and you were just too good to be true, he's not sane Clare, look…look how he's hurting you" Alli handed me a mirror, I didn't know who was there, she had short auburn hair, which flip-flopped everywhere, her eyes were a puffy pink color, ad her skin looked too pale.
"He didn't do this to me, he cured me Alli, he made me believe in myself, and you know that"
"Don't ever say he harmed me, because he never did that and he never would!" I said as tears poured down my cheeks, I tried to catch my breaths but I couldn't stop crying.
"I'm sorry Clare…I know but I don't know what to say, you've always been the strong one between you and I, even with KC, you weren't hurt like this, and I don't know what to say to make it better." Alli told me as if talking to a small child, I felt like a child, I crawled into her arms and sobbed.
"Alli I love him… I love him" I whispered in between hard breaths between my tears