Chapter One

I gulped tears snaked down my cheeks "Mommy will always love you no matter where you are the two of you will stay together and look out for each other and we will be together again but just not right now but anytime you feel like you need me just look up to the moon and the stars and mommy will be looking down at you."

"It's time." Gemma, my social worker said softly I glared at her she took that as a signal to leave I then continued.

"Mommy doesn't want to say goodbye so she will say until we see each other again."

I choked and wipe away my tears I held them close and kissed them both on the forehead.

"Goodbye Hannah Grace Winters."

"Goodbye Luke Ashton Winters."

I gently put them down in their separate cots and looked down at them for a second almost memorising what they look like.

Hannah has brunette hair and hazel eyes Luke has brunette hair but it's a little darker than Hannah's his eyes are hazel. They have my hair but they also got his eyes.

A tear fell down my face I wiped the tear away then I saw that they were asleep they look so peaceful. Then the door open and reviled Gemma "Shh they're asleep." I whispered she nodded and opened the door wider.

I sighed and picked up my backpack and the rest of my stuff and started to walk out of the room I looked back at them and then continued walking till they were only a glimpse.

That was a few days ago but I feels like it was a year ago I still worried and think about them every day I love them so much I actually kills me to be away from them but it's killing my slowly.

"This is a good foster home it's one of the best actually you're going to be alright there." Gemma says doing a U turn and going back on the main road.

I nodded "When can I see Hannah and Luke again?" I asked she looked at me then back on the road and bit her lip then I knew it was something I didn't want to hear.

"Well the court had said that you can only see them twice a month depending on your behaviour." She said like it was plain and simple I took a deep breath to calm myself down.

"So if I flip out I would only be allowed to see them for once that month." I said not raising my voice but anger was visible in my tone.

"Actually you wouldn't be allowed to see them for the whole month depending on your behaviour." She said parking in front of a modern brown house with turquoise gates in the front of it there were trees around the area and they had a big backyard.

"That's not fair I'm their mum they can't do that." I yelled angrily they're my children not theirs they can't just decide when I can or can't see them.

"But if you have good behaviour they will hopefully move the meetings to once a week." She said unbuckling her seat belt and stepping out of the car and closing the door.

I unbuckled my seat and stepped out of the car. I can't believe that they won't let me see my CHILDREN if I do something that they won't like it's not fair.

"Well from now when will I see them again."

"Next Saturday at the latest but if I can get a sooner date I will inform your care workers but we will come to you but that's if you behave." She said I rolled my eyes and ran my fingers through my hair.

She knocked the door we waited a while then the door opened inside looked very homey and was better than the dump I lived in all my life.

I was greeted by a middle aged man he said is name Mike Milligan and that he was head care worker. Then I was greeted by another care worker who said her name was May-Li.

"Kids could you come in the hall please." Mike said and kids were coming from all over the house I felt eyes glued on me I looked at that direction and saw a guy he had brown hair and blue eyes his expression was as if he was trying to figure me out but honestly he shouldn't even bother.

"This is Jasmine she will be staying with us." Mike said in a cheery voice I sighed and ran my fingers through my hair.

"Can you please show me to my room." I asked nicely knowing what happens if I don't.

Mike smiled at me "Alright." I nodded he lead the way towards upstairs. He leads me towards a door I opened it and saw a single bed in the middle of the room there were drawers and a closet. I put my stuff on the ground and sat on the bed.

"If you need anyone to talk to May-Li and I are free anytime day or night and none of the others know about your situation so it's your choice to keep it to yourself." He said with a smile at the end.

"Thank you."

He muttered 'it's alright' and shut the door and left. I collapsed on top of the bed and closed my eyes.