Once Upon A Broken Heart: A Sue/Caspian pairing
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the original characters from the Chronicles of Narnia series. They are owned by C.S. Lewis.
The OC's are created by me, though.
Based on the song by the BEU SISTERS.
Chapter 1: Prologue
Once Upon a Broken Heart...
Susan's Journal - Latest Entry
July 7, 1949
"Dear Diary,
I was walking alone in the dark...
Two years have passed since the train accident. Two years of mourning, regrets, and hating anything and everything from the letters A to Z. I want to forget; I want to die; I want to... I want to disappear. Was my life really just a dream? Is there even a sliver of truth in any of it? Two years have passed and still nothing.
Looking for a way to start again...
I've done everything: from Alcohol - to Drugs, Jail, partying, Stealing, Meaningless relationships with Sex, Smoking, Reckless, Driving, Attempted Suicides here and there, and finally--merely existing. It's been a while since I dreamed; it's been a while since that accident - 2 yrs. and 6 months to be exact.
What I wouldn't give for a friend-
My whole family was taken away that day, you know? By the time that they buried their bodies right in front of me, it was when I truly stopped believing. It was the time when I started to think that I should just not expect anything from this world - to put everything behind and not look back; to not look for clues that would reassure you that your past was real.
There was no love in my life...
My whole world had cracked when I came back from the fantasy that my siblings and I had played for the 2nd time. I imagined love in that visit but before that love had a chance to grow, I was pulled back right into the midst of reality again. Worst nightmare ever! Why am I thinking right now? I should be forgetting about it, right? Caspian's not even here or could be dead by now.
There was no light in my eyes...
Time in dreams, fantasies, and games always travel faster than reality. They keep us entertained or informed (or maybe both?). And dreams are forever: they don't age, they don't fade, or change appearance - you can shape and reshape them again and again.
All the tears that I had cried and cried...
That was my problem; I've played these games with my siblings so much that I started to believe in them, believe that they were real. I've let myself believe that some fairy tales can come true - "as long as you believe". What a load of crap! If believe and believe long enough, hard enough, then those games wouldn't be dreams or games in the first place.
It seem like they'd never end -
It was like: anything and everything are telling me that I'm not good enough; that I'll NEVER be good enough. Whatever that means! I'd drawn paintings, pictures, even scenes of that place and those people - even wrote about them in my journal and still, where am I? I'm still in this shitty world where I'm a complete nobody.
All in all what I did want was to be a somebody to someone. I don't want anything, especially a fantasy. I want something REAL.
Anyway, I have to go. I'm going to a party that a friend had invited me to. Maybe next time, my wish will come true.
Susan
Author's Notes:
The actual insertions of the lines in the song's lyrics are pretty much random. So, you guys just have to wait and see. Oh, and also the length of each chapter so please R&R.