On My Own
Disclaimer: I do not own Weiss or it's characters. The song On My Own is not mine either. It is from Les Miserables. I suggest you listen to it. It's very sad.
And now I'm all alone again, nowhere to turn no one to go to. Without a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello to. And now the night is near, and I can make believe he is here.
"Why did you do it Hiei? Why?" Yusuke slammed his fist down on the hospital night stand, tears streaming down his cheeks. He couldn't look at his bashed and battered friend. The heart monitor bleeped monotonously, the lone indicator that Hiei was still alive. The broody fire demon was still bleeding and the doctors had said something about possible brain damage.
Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping. I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping. The city goes to bed, and I can live inside my head.
"God damn it Hiei! You're a demon for God's sake! How could I hurt you like that?" Yusuke's fingers traced down the lining of Hiei's favorite cloak. The battle was more or less a blur to the teenager. Yusuke placed his head in his hands. He couldn't figure out what was going on in his friend's head. The only indicator was sheet of notebook paper that was laying on the floor, crumpled.
On my own, pretending he's beside me. All alone I walk with him till morning. Without him I feel his arms around me, and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me.
Something had made him so incredibly mad. He had never seen Hiei so angry before. The demon attacked him with no remorse, but what made it worse, was that Hiei did not even seem to recognize him. He had just... attacked. "I tried everything I could think of not to attack you. I blocked, defended myself, but you wouldn't stop. Why didn't you stop?" Yusuke thought of the lyrics on the paper written in Hiei's curvy, delicate handwriting. Kuwabara had joked that for someone so masculine Hiei's writing looked like it was a girl's. Kuwabara ended up with a black eye after that comment.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver. All the lights are misty in the river. In the darkness the trees are full of starlight, and all I see is him and me forever and forever.
The monitor continued to beep. The sound was driving Yusuke crazy. He wrapped the cloak around his fists. Tears stained his cheeks. He was furious with himself. "Why weren't you guys here to talk some sense into him? Kuwabara. Kurama. Especially you Kurama."
And I know it's only in my mind, that I'm talking to myself and not to him. And although, I know that he is blind still I say, there's a way for us.
"Could you have been that mad that he left you? He was coming back you idiot!" Yusuke looked at his own bandaged hands. "Damn it Hiei. Or did you drive him away? Was that it? Did you make Kurama leave? Could you have really felt like that song?"
I love him, but when the night is over he is gone, the river's just a river. Without him the world around me changes, the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.
"He loved you Kurama! And I know you loved him. I know it. Why didn't you two ever admit it? For once why couldn't you just swallow your goddamned pride?" Yusuke glanced back over at the heart monitor. "And now it might be to late."
I love him, but everyday I'm learning all my life I've only been pretending. Without me his world will go on turning, a world that's full of happiness that I have never known.
"Did you not feel worthy? Why didn't you talk to me? I would have helped you! You never let anyone help you, you stubborn bastard!" Yusuke threw the cloak at the open door. It landed and slid over to a young boy, with a pair of piercing green eyes, standing in the doorway.
I love him, I love him. I love him, but only on my own.
Disclaimer: I do not own Weiss or it's characters. The song On My Own is not mine either. It is from Les Miserables. I suggest you listen to it. It's very sad.
And now I'm all alone again, nowhere to turn no one to go to. Without a home, without a friend, without a face to say hello to. And now the night is near, and I can make believe he is here.
"Why did you do it Hiei? Why?" Yusuke slammed his fist down on the hospital night stand, tears streaming down his cheeks. He couldn't look at his bashed and battered friend. The heart monitor bleeped monotonously, the lone indicator that Hiei was still alive. The broody fire demon was still bleeding and the doctors had said something about possible brain damage.
Sometimes I walk alone at night when everybody else is sleeping. I think of him and then I'm happy with the company I'm keeping. The city goes to bed, and I can live inside my head.
"God damn it Hiei! You're a demon for God's sake! How could I hurt you like that?" Yusuke's fingers traced down the lining of Hiei's favorite cloak. The battle was more or less a blur to the teenager. Yusuke placed his head in his hands. He couldn't figure out what was going on in his friend's head. The only indicator was sheet of notebook paper that was laying on the floor, crumpled.
On my own, pretending he's beside me. All alone I walk with him till morning. Without him I feel his arms around me, and when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me.
Something had made him so incredibly mad. He had never seen Hiei so angry before. The demon attacked him with no remorse, but what made it worse, was that Hiei did not even seem to recognize him. He had just... attacked. "I tried everything I could think of not to attack you. I blocked, defended myself, but you wouldn't stop. Why didn't you stop?" Yusuke thought of the lyrics on the paper written in Hiei's curvy, delicate handwriting. Kuwabara had joked that for someone so masculine Hiei's writing looked like it was a girl's. Kuwabara ended up with a black eye after that comment.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver. All the lights are misty in the river. In the darkness the trees are full of starlight, and all I see is him and me forever and forever.
The monitor continued to beep. The sound was driving Yusuke crazy. He wrapped the cloak around his fists. Tears stained his cheeks. He was furious with himself. "Why weren't you guys here to talk some sense into him? Kuwabara. Kurama. Especially you Kurama."
And I know it's only in my mind, that I'm talking to myself and not to him. And although, I know that he is blind still I say, there's a way for us.
"Could you have been that mad that he left you? He was coming back you idiot!" Yusuke looked at his own bandaged hands. "Damn it Hiei. Or did you drive him away? Was that it? Did you make Kurama leave? Could you have really felt like that song?"
I love him, but when the night is over he is gone, the river's just a river. Without him the world around me changes, the trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers.
"He loved you Kurama! And I know you loved him. I know it. Why didn't you two ever admit it? For once why couldn't you just swallow your goddamned pride?" Yusuke glanced back over at the heart monitor. "And now it might be to late."
I love him, but everyday I'm learning all my life I've only been pretending. Without me his world will go on turning, a world that's full of happiness that I have never known.
"Did you not feel worthy? Why didn't you talk to me? I would have helped you! You never let anyone help you, you stubborn bastard!" Yusuke threw the cloak at the open door. It landed and slid over to a young boy, with a pair of piercing green eyes, standing in the doorway.
I love him, I love him. I love him, but only on my own.