This is an audio read I created for Tumblr. If you want to read and listen I made it to the song How To Save A Life by The Fray
Louis had been acting weird all night; come to think of it he had been for a couple weeks now.
"Hey babe," I said shaking Louis out of his daze. "Are you ok? You seem a little…off tonight."
"Huh? Oh, yeah. I'm fine, just a little tiered." Louis replied. "I think I'm just going to head back to my flat and go to bed. Bye love."
I didn't want to let him leave. I knew something was wrong. I could tell it in his voice, it was quiet and timid, and his eyes had no life left in them. He was more than tiered; he looked like a bus had just hit him. I should be more forceful and see what was wrong but I think giving him his space is best for now.
"Oh…ok. Bye babe."
The next morning I hadn't gotten my usual 'Good morning love X' message from Louis but considering the way he had looked the previous night I didn't think anything of it. I wasn't concerned until lunch came and went and I hadn't seen or heard from Louis all day. He wouldn't respond to any of my 7 texts or calls. I needed to see if he was ok so I drove to his house to discover a note tacked to his flat's door.
Dear Eleanor,
I am so sorry to be writing you this but I can no longer stand this. Life has been a constant struggle lately. A struggle between night and day, sun and moon, happiness and sadness, life and death. Sadly, the moon is high and bright in the sky. I am so sorry but I can't fake my smile for any longer pretending everything is ok with me. The band has fallen to pieces and Harry has gone down the wrong path. I lost my closest friend because of fucking drugs. All I am left with is you. I don't want you to believe this is your fault in anyway at all; you could not have prevented any of this to be happening. It just…happened. I couldn't control it and it got the better of me. Until we meet again I want to make sure you know I love you, I always have and I always will until the end of time but I need to go. Goodbye love.
Always and forever,
Boobear
I was crying hysterically by the time I finished the letter, groping my purse for my keys with tears blinding my eyes. Once I found them I could not open the door fast enough. I ran thought the door screaming his name.
"LOUIS! LOUIS WILLIAM TOMLINSON WHERE ARE YOU! GOD DAMN IT LOUIS SHOW YOURSELF!"
I got shut up as soon as I ran into the kitchen. I had found Louis sprawled out on the floor with a pool of blood originating form what looked like a stab wound in his side. All my worst fears came true from reading that note.
"LOUIS!" I screamed when I saw his body. I ran over to him and checked his neck for a pulse. There was just a small, faint beating and I could faintly hear his shallow breathing. "Louis, why?" I said crying even harder. I held his head in my lap. "WHY! Why would you do this? I could've helped you! We could've gotten you help." My crying caused a lump to in my throat and my words barely escaped my throat.
He whispered out with his last breath, "I love you Eleanor. Always and forever."
Between my tears I choked out "I love you too Boobear. Always and forever."
After that I could feel no pulse and heard no breath. I sat there, crying and cradling his head in my lap.