The figure glided towards the glass wall. She gazed into the cell to only see him suffer quietly in despair. There he was…all alone.
She leaned close on the transparent barrier and closed her eyes.
Say something, I'm giving up on you
"Please Loki, anything…please." She pleaded in desperation.
Still he made no attempt to acknowledge her.
I'll be the one, if you want me to
"Despite what may be going through your mind right now…I'm here for you." another whimper.
She pressed her hand against the glass as if she could reach out to him and feel his warmth.
Anywhere I would've followed you
She loved him still to this day so dearly. Despite all the treasons or the deaths, she still remained faithful. She did not care if he were a monster, a beggar, or a mortal man for she would still love him unconditionally.
Say something, I'm giving up on you
"Loki, the All-Father allowed me to venture this far because he deemed it only appropriate that I tell you in person." She found courage to muster the strength to vocalize what she had been sent to say.
Still he made no attempt to look her way.
"I am to be married to another. The All-father has annulled our betrothment. Loki, I came here to say goodbye." She took a long pause and opened her eyes. And I am feeling so small
He glared at her. His eyes were full of accusations and anger as they pierced her being.
She had fought the advancements of many suitors during his absence, but somehow his scowl made her feel weak and full of guilt as if she did not try hard enough.
"Loki, please it pains me to have to go through this! We feel the same agony; do not think I do not feel anything! Whatever you feel, I suffer through it as well!" She cried out.
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
He smirked and weakly shook his head as if he were mocking her outburst of emotion.
"You know nothing…you do not know what I had been through. You are a pathetic mewling quim." He emphasised the every word with such drama and intensity.
It was then that she realized that the madness had already consumed his being. And I will stumble and fall
No matter how hard she attempt to reach out to him to save what sanity he still had left, it will do no difference. Not only did she suffer emotionally, her body suffered from the insomnia and the malnutrition as she developed lovesickness. She had scars from this trauma and they burn.
I'm still learning to love
He had all her "firsts" from the kisses to those moments of intimacies. She was so eager to learn how to please him because she only treasures his smile.
Just starting to crawl
He was her first love and perhaps her only true great love.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you" she whispered.
"I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you" She regretted that she was too naïve back then to realize his pain sooner.
"Anywhere I would've followed you" Despite all that she had to go through, she still loved him. She had no regrets.
"Say something, I'm giving up on you" Her mentality was fading as their bond was crumbling.
The guard came and whispered to her that it was time to go. They both knew that if she leaves, then perhaps they will never see one another again. This time it was final.
There was great silence as the moment drowned with intensity. "And I will swallow my pride"
"You're the one that I love" He whispered out faintly but she knew what he had just recited.
"And I'm saying goodbye" He spoke up, smiled and nodded to the guard to take her away with one final look at her.
"No…No!" she struggled against the guards trying to guide her back away.
"You may be the God of Lies, but this lie will not fool me!" She screamed at the top of her lungs.
She knew that he only did so to make her feel at peace, but he forgot she grew up to be more deceptive than that. He wanted her to think that he had given up on their love and that it was time to move on. She did not buy it.
The goodbye was not at all genuine.
The door closed and the eternal darkness begins in both their hearts.
But what could a captive Loki do?
Loki knew better than anyone that what the All-Father wants, the All-Father gets. It was better that she moved on and had a normal woman's life consisting of marriage and children and so forth. Loki knew ever since the beginning that he would never give her happiness. He was the God of Mischief and Chaos for god's sake, and with a title like that how could anyone foresee a happy ending? Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you
She wondered out into the edge of the Bifrost in the midst of night.
She walks in beauty like the night of cloudless climes and starry skies.
There she wavers in a lush green gown with gold embroidery; the very one Loki presented her before the madness took over with as a token of his everlasting love.
Say something, I'm giving up on you
"I gave up on us." She whimpered as a tear drop traced the outline of her face before dropping deep into the abyss below.
She took a step and fell. She fell no harder than when she did when she was in love with him.
Say something...
Something hit Loki, but he knew perfectly what it was.
"Alana…" He whispered into the darkness.