Discalimer: Nope, don't own anything! I just wish I did…

Well, after grabbing a ice cold can of Sprite, my best anime mix cds and my cd player, and making sure the ac was on~ I decided I'd get to work on something random. So yea. Faye's view on the whole Spike thing~

Session #27

Blue

Well, I guess that's it. Game over. Spike's gone, never to return. Jet's moping around here trying to pretend like everything's fine when it isn't. The funny thing is, he thinks he's fooling me.

Things wouldn't be so bad if that annoying mutt and that hyperactive kid were still around, I mean at least they'd provide some entertainment, try to cheer us up. But they're gone too. It's different in their case. Sure, I miss them, but there's always the chance we'll see them again, the fact we can track them down when we realize we miss them too much. In Spike's case, that just isn't going to happen. We'll never see him, well not for a long while anyway.

I'd finally gotten my memory back, but like I told Spike, it didn't get me anywhere. I have nothing to return to, no one that was alive back then would still be around. And if that wasn't bad enough, the man I'd come to care for had gone off and gotten himself killed. But maybe I sort of expected that. I'd met Julia myself. She's a mysterious dangerous type of woman. The type you can't just leave alone.

I guess I couldn't really understand why Spike did what he did because I hadn't ever been as determined to settle the score with my past as he was. I mean, the way I see it, what's in the past is over and done with; you can't change it, and it will always remain the same. Not unless you happen to have a time machine or something, I guess. Spike was different though. Spike saw his past as sort of unfinished business, and he felt he had to tie those loose ends up. Or maybe that wasn't it, after all, when he lost Julia he'd sort of died. That's why he was so determined to find her when he'd found out she was still alive. But what about Vicious? He and Spike were partners, they trusted each other and covered each other's backs on the missions the Syndicate sent them on. What I found interesting is that it took just one woman to turn them against each other.

But I guess it's time to put the past aside for now and focus on the present. What's going to happen now? Jet's been gracious enough to let me stay, even though I told him I'd just leave. Then he just said something about, "So where do you think you're going to go? You don't have anywhere, do you?" I don't think he really does either. I mean sure, he could go back to his home planet Ganymede, back to that woman, what's her name? Alisa. But she only cares about that Rhint guy now. She's forgotten all about Jet. So, on that note, I guess returning home would be too painful for him. Jet and I, I guess we're not that different after all. Both without places to return to. Ah well, whatcha gonna do?

I don't think we'll be hunting down anymore bounties. It'd remind us too much of our days with Spike. Besides that, without our annoying kid hacker, Ed, it's be more difficult to track down the bounty heads anyway. But if we don't do anything, we'll eventually run out of money, something we're already short on, so who knows? All I know is the future's uncertain and the past? It doesn't even matter. But what about the present you say? Jet's going to go fix the shower. Then he'll probably complain that if I, "didn't take so many damn showers" he wouldn't have to fix it so much.

I just wish I could have told Spike how I felt, made him stay. Oh well…It's in the past, after all, it can't change…Goodbye Spike…

SEE YOU SPACE COWBOY…