Just a random story that I started to write, the only thing that's put in about future episodes is about why Addison goes to Seattle the rest is just AU.
I don't own Greys Anatomy or Private Practice, please review and tell me what you think I haven't written anything in about a year.
Addison had no idea how it had happened, she had no idea how she had managed to get herself into this situation again. She didn't understand why she kept doing it to them, maybe because she had hope that they could work, or whenever she looked into his eyes, he just made her melt and she just remembered how great his arms felt around her body when he held her. He had seen her at her weakest, when she needed someone he always seemed to be at her beck and call. She could blame Archer for this, sure it wasn't his fault he was sick but if he wasn't sick she wouldn't be forced to go up to Seattle and see this guy again. She didn't normally give into temptation but it was properly the idea of loosing someone that she was close to that she needed him again.
He had dragged her into Joe's, pointing out that she needed to get some alcohol down her system and that she should leave Sam and Naomi together because getting in between them wouldn't be good. And hanging around Derek and worrying about Archer wasn't good for her and she would just be sick. She needed to take her mind off everything and just relax with him. She should have said no, she knew that relaxing with him meant sex but a part of her hoped after Kevin fell through and Wyatt just fizzled out that he would be good for her, that he might have changed because she had heard through the grape vine that he wasn't just sleeping with anyone he wanted to and it seemed like he had settled down. She didn't believe that now or their bodies wouldn't be tangled in with the soft hotel sheets and each other's legs, her head resting against his chest because a part of her was trying to tell herself that this was what they needed.
"How long have you been awake?" Addison slowly tipped her head up to look at Mark, unable to stop the soft smile falling across her lips as looked into his brown eyes.
"Not long, I've just been thinking." She whispered as she moved her head back down to its previous position and curled her body into his even more. She had never met anyone where their curves fitted together perfectly, their whole bodies did and maybe she had just been missing this the whole time. She knew that he hadn't slept with anyone else through their bet and when she slept with Alex it was just a moment of weakness.
"He's going to be okay, Derek's the best." Addison slowly nodded, feeling the tears start in her blue eyes but she was fighting them back because the idea of losing her brother was something she couldn't stand. She was the older of the two and as much as he had been the protective brother when it came to boyfriends, she always felt like she had to look after him and make sure nothing happened to him. Not that he ever liked that.
"Yeah, that's why I came here." She muttered as she sniffled back the tears, feeling his arms tighten around her waist, almost to the point where she thought she was going to have to climb on top of him.
"I missed you." Addison had a feeling that she wasn't meant to hear the words fall out of his lips because they were said silently. It was like they were meant to be for him to hear and no one else. She wouldn't say them back but that doesn't mean that she didn't feel the same way, she had missed the banter that they had most of the time and the times where he could actually be loving but that normally happen when they actually said that they were in a relationship.
"Can we just stay like this for a while?" She questioned, she didn't want to leave this room where she felt so safe and his arms which had the same effect on her. Looking up at him as he nodded his head, she slowly closed his eyes as she moved her body up slightly so she could kiss his lips. She needed to take her mind off what was happening because if she stopped for two seconds, she thought about it and the emotion over took her.
"As long as you want." She nodded her head as she pulled her lips away from his own and looked into his eyes; she was hoping that she could get Richard to let her work for a while during her trip up here because she knew that when she got like this, she needed to cut and save a life.
Snuggling her head back into his chest, she felt the tears slowly rolling down the cheeks and the sobs leaving her lips. She never thought this would get to her so much because Archer really was a pain most of the time but he was the one that she spent a lot of time with when she was younger and had no one else. Feeling him pull her closer and his lips against the top of her head, she knew that she wanted this and she wanted him but she was too scared to do anything about it because she didn't want to get hurt again. She was tired of getting hurt by people, she never thought that Kevin would do it but he did and she felt so weak again, the skin that she had managed to build up after the pain she had felt in Seattle, had just been ripped off by someone she had started to fall in love with. "It's okay." She heard him muttered, she knew that he had seen her weaker when she was in New York and she had been missing Derek.
She had to shake her head because it wasn't okay; it wasn't okay for her to get this weak again. She said that she would never get like this again but she couldn't help it. She didn't think she would feel this loss, not that Archer had died but she had never seen him so scared in her life when he had found out about the brain tumour. He tried not to show it but she could tell by the look in his eyes that he was worried about the outcome.
As she felt his hand running up and down her bare back, stopping at where the sheet collected around her waist, she gave into the sleep that she didn't get much of last night.