This is based on something that actually happened to me.
Also in honor of Yuri Awareness Month.
Cold.
Ice cold.
That s what I feel right now.
All I have been able to feel since the day I left.
I feel the grey coming over me again.
It s slowly turning blue a glassy glazed over shade of blue.
I shouldn't t have left.
I made a mistake.
A terrible mistake.
You found a new best friend.
You don t miss me.
You don t want me.
You don t need me.
My best friend does not care anymore.
I want to come back.
But I shouldn't.
I want to scream and say I miss you more then I want to,
Yet I can't.
I don t want people to get the wrong conclusion;
Don t want you to get the wrong conclusion.
The situation is very bittersweet.
I see you happy;
But you re happier than you ever were when we were together.
So I will leave you be.
I will stay in hiding until I am forced to return.
Then, maybe, hopefully you ll take me back
And be my best friend again.
The one who knows everything about me,
But does not know how much they mean to me.
It s quite funny really.
The day I left, you looked like a sad puppy Wanting to say something, but afraid to.
Then, when I returned for a day, you looked overjoyed;
But you said four words that made me crumble later that night.
They were as follows:
"I didn't miss you."
That was the only time I have ever hoped you lied to me.
To keep myself from falling apart I laughed it off.
Put on my mask and got through the night.
Hopefully no one noticed how much that hurt me.
Maybe the rest of the time I m gone you ll miss me.
Just like I miss you.
If not, I guess I will try to move on.
But right now,
The only thing I can feel is,
Ice.