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"It's now or never." Amy thought to herself as she reached daunting door of 4A.
In matter of moments, she was due to knock on the familiar door, be greeted by her sexy-praying mantis of a boyfriend, and partake in the social convention of "pizza night" that she had grown accustomed to do every Friday in her past years as Sheldon Cooper's girlfriend.
Except, tonight was different. Tonight, she was a woman with a mission and she knew she had to do what she must, even if it meant losing Sheldon permanently, to let the truth be known.
Hesitantly, Amy glanced down at her watch, the golden hands of the instrument told her it was 5:49, a good 11 minutes before she was due to enter and, by no coincidence, the time Sheldon took to empty his bowels before the scheduled social gathering.
Knocking softly she hoped beyond belief that Leonard would be able to answer discreetly. She didn't want Sheldon knowing she was here just yet.
Almost immediately Leonard answered the door, the wide "I just made out with Penny" kind of smile he'd been sporting for some months now was plastered on his face.
In the momentary space between Leonard opening his mouth to welcome her in, inevitably announcing her arrival to practically everyone in the complex building, and her quickly hushing the, now horribly confused, homunculus her brain quickly cataloged everyone who was in the apartment.
Penny was on her designated chair on the far right while Howard was sitting on the couch laughing at his own jokes. Though she couldn't see her Amy was sure she had heard Bernie call from the kitchen. Scratch that, she was sure the greater part of San Francisco could hear Bernie as she was doing her scarily accurate Mrs. Wolowitz impression. Raj and Stewart were nowhere around surprisingly. Amy assumed this was in part to Raj's new found love interest and Steward's lack of one.
"Good" Amy thought "the less people the better".
"Amy, what's going on here? Did Professor Whack-a-doodle do something stupid again?" Penny growled in a hushed voice as she now had the feeling she should have an intense fear of monkeys at the moment. Amy didn't respond at first and simply walked into 4A.
After a few moments, Amy sighed slightly, Amy started to speak with both the conviction and confidence she internally didn't possess. "Friends, I wish to speak to Sheldon privately when he returns from the bathroom, could you please relocate to my Bestie's apartment until I'm done?" then, almost like it was an afterthought, she turned to face Leonard "Leonard, while I realize I have no authority to make you leave as you reside here, I beg you to please temporarily relocate. It's of the utmost importance."
That got Penny Angry "AMY! WHAT'S THAT WHACK-A-DOODLE DONE NOW…I'LL KILL HIM IF HE'S HURT YOU I- " but what Penny was going to do we'll never know because at that moment, Amy interrupted her with the sense of urgency apparent in her hushed voice.
"Bestie, I know you care about me and worry about but no Sheldon's done nothing wrong and I am begging you a moment alone with him, of all people you should know why I need to talk to him alone."
Belatedly catching her drift Penny's eyes grew wide and went a total 360. "Bernie, we need to go, come on boys"
"but Penny what's going on" Howard voiced, "What's so important tha-"
"Come one Howie, I'll make out with you next door" Bernadette cut in.
"Oh-kay" Howard said, no longer concerned with the Shamy's weird behavior.
"Thank you for going" Amy smiled weakly, now all she had to do was wait for Sheldon to come out and she'd –
"Why are you asking our friends leaving Amy?" It was Sheldon; apparently he had already left the bathroom and was now looking at the shaken Amy with as much worry as curiosity.
The door slammed and Amy turned, everyone who had witnessed her little plea was now out the door, obviously not going to answer any of Sheldon's crazed questions.
"Amy, I was talking to you, where have our friends gone? Why did you ask them to leave, I could hear you begging them from the bathroom. "
Damn Vulcan hearing Amy mentally scoffed.
"Sheldon, I asked them to leave because I have something very important to talk to you about…about us"
"ohhh boy" Sheldon breathed nervously. This wasn't going to end well.
"Sheldon…I…I…I come here in front of you, asking for forgiveness. I know full well what I've done and how it's violated line after line of the relationship agreement and though my actions are illogical I purpose you hear me out and if you wish to terminate our relationship I understand"
With those words Sheldon's expression went from curious to concerned in two seconds flat "what had she violated? Was this way of her dumping me? I can't go back to cats, I'm allergic!" he thought quickly to himself.
"I will always listen to you" Sheldon croaked out before quickly adding "what-what did you do to violate our agreement?"
He prepared himself for the worse, infidelity, hatred, deciding she was above all relationships as he had once been…everything he could have thought of except -
"Sheldon, I'm in love you"
His mouth swung open and tried to speak but no noise came out. He was flabbergasted.
Love, someone was in love with him. Not just anybody either, Amy Farrah Fowler, the most pragmatic and logical person he had ever known, besides himself. His girlfriend loved him.
At this thought, a new wave of emotion that he was must unfamiliar with crashed over him. It was like how he felt when Meemaw came over, but with more intensity, more…dare he say passion.
Several moments passed in awkward silence. Amy didn't dare say anything for fear he would run away. Sheldon simply couldn't speak as his logical side battled with the new information he had been given.
Then, tentatively, Amy spoke, barely above a whisper but Sheldon heard every word of it. "Sheldon, I know you think romantic love adds no value to human relations, I know that you probably will reject my love declaration, I know that you may break up with me or ask for a reboot, and/or request me to vacate the premise as you once said "bitches be crazy" when you last thought I was in love with you. But I needed to tell you, I needed you to know and I needed to get the proverbial monkey off my back I know we're not hippies, and I know you don't like emotions, and I know you don't subscribe to baser urges, but I had to say it, for my own sanity."
There was still no response.
Amy sighed again. More seconds passed in silence it was almost deafening how quiet it was and with each tick of her watch Amy's heart dropped more and more.
"I really shouldn't be feeling so bad" Amy reasoned with herself, "I knew going into this he might react badly," but no matter how much she rationalized the current state of events, it still hurt. It pained her to know that her boyfriend wouldn't return her feelings, it pained her to know that she must have scared him and he might leave her, but most of all it pained her because all her life she'd known nothing but rejection and now, in a time when she had something she had never had before, friends, she was still being rejected by the man she cared about most. She could feel her heart breaking.
Now, desperately craving a tub of rocky road ice-cream to calm her broken emotions with the realization that Sheldon wasn't going to answer her; Amy turned around, bent on leaving Sheldon to his thoughts. Her logical side had won out and she had reasoned that Sheldon needed his space to comprehend and would contact her in his own time if he contacted her at all.
Just as she was about to grab for the door's handle she heard a faint voice call out "Amy". She turned slightly, looking sidelong at her pale faced boyfriend.
"Amy…when Leonard told Penny he loved her she left him…I don't want you to leave me." Sheldon said, his voice quivering with every word. He definitely wasn't prepared for this.