This is during "New Moon" 1 year after Edward leaves.
Song-Katy Perry-"Thinking of you"
Disclaimer: Stephanie Meyer owns all-I own nothing.
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I hear a song come on in the background in Jacob's room.
Laying his bed, I think of "him"
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
He left. Telling me he doesn't want me.
Telling me to move on, have a life.
I still cry, for hours.
You said move on
Where do I go?
I guess second best
Is all I will know?
Spending time with Jacob, having him hold me,
I keep thinking-dreaming of when "He" held me,
Singing me to sleep. Touching my face.
Being held in "his" arms.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
I hope to see his eyes when I look at Jacob, to see
Amber eyes instead of brown warm eyes.
His cold touch instead of heat.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of a winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better?
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the water's I will test
I want to see the sparkles of his skin
in the sun, when I thought he was the most beautiful.
His voice, velvet and soft.
I try with Jacob-but; I think of "him"
When he's touching me, laughing with me.
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
When I spend the night there I feel-so distant
Empty.
But; I close my eyes and bear it.
Hold Jake tighter, hoping to numb the pain.
When we make love,
I think of saying his name.
Feeling his mouth on mine,
Taste his lips.
Sweet honey, ice.
I feel so guilty and used in the end.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
I dream of him climbing through my window
Laughing with me, telling me of his hunts.
To feel what it would have been like if I gave into
Making love.
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lessons learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know
I wish, I tried to fight harder to keep him here.
To make him understand what he means to me.
Not to be his play thing.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
Oh how I dream, that he would sweep me away from this.
To hear him say he loved me, wanted me.
Make love to me instead.
To feel that marble skin, cold touch across my face.
So, I close my eyes and dream of him when Jacob
Feels me.
Touches me.
I still scream at night for "him", wishing he would come back to me.
It won't happen.
So I bear it.
So, I succumb to Jacob's warmth.
Review and tell me if I should keep writing..
this is a first story in a long while and I was watching the music video for Katy Perry's new song-"Thinking of You"
I know your thinking "Ya think?!"
PLEASE!!
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