I'm not a big fan of writing in the first person. But here we go. As usual, I don't own anything, and I am insanely jealous of those who honestly can say they do.

I have never claimed that I deserve a medal for being a great person. If I were to sit down and make a minute by minute written replay of my life I'd not be able to count on all of my phalange the number of times I'd said or done something that probably wasn't what the most mature people on the planet would have done. Everyone makes mistakes, and I've made my share.

I should be able to forgive my share, too.

But when I saw Penny and Raj come sneaking out of the room, and doing a terrible job at being discreet, too, I look at her in stunned silence. "It's not what it looks like," yes, that's what she said. Well, maybe it's not what Sheldon thinks it looks like, but I had a pretty damned good feeling that it was exactly what it looked like to me.

Penny scooted quickly across the hall, shoes in hand, and I turned to face Raj, standing there with the blanket, my blanket, wrapped around his naked body and I knew that it was exactly what it looked like. Penny was never a very good liar. If she was, she'd probably have her name on the big screen by now, or the small screen at the very least.

Raj looked at me then, and gave his small, shy smile in an attempt to gauge my feelings. At the way his tiny smile faded to nothing, I knew that the hot, searing fire in my chest was reflected in my facial expression.

I am sure that the words how, dare, you, sleep, with, and Penny, strung together in that order, were transmitted telepathically from my brain to his.

I am sure that he tried to send I'm, sorry, I, slept, with, your, ex, and girlfriend back to me. But he had it wrong.

Penny, I may have been able to take this better had you been my 'ex – girlfriend'. But you are not only that. Despite my current girlfriend's request that I block you completely out of my life, I cannot ever completely do that. And I cannot forgive Raj, either, although I have done him wrong before, for what you and he did. And I cannot accept his telepathic I'm sorry I slept with your ex – girlfriend.

Because you are not only my ex – girlfriend.

Because you are Penny.

Because I have loved you.

Because I can't ever completely stop.

And because I have loved you, that makes everything different. Whether it ought to or not.

Sorry this is so short! I didn't want to go into too much detail of what happens after the finale ended, because I'm unsure exactly where they're going. But I feel that Leonard could have these thoughts in those seconds, regardless of how anyone acts in the premiere.

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