Disclaimer= I do now own Naruto.

That cannot be the first and only tender moment I share with Uchiha Sasuke. The kissing and touching felt so right with him and so appropriate that it made the chakra in me all warm. Damnit… stop this thinking Kurotsuchi. You are the Yondaime Tsuchikage, so act like it. Having your lover be the most sought-out rogue ninja in the world? The one who killed Deidara-nii? The one who single-handedly defeated that venomous freak Orochimaru and went toe to toe with the Yondaime Raikage? You want to be with that person?

Yes.

Kurotsuchi knew damn well that no matter how much she wanted it, no matter how much her heart yearned for it; Uchiha Sasuke could not be associated with her. The amount of scandal that such a romance would bring for Iwagakure would be too much and sensing the vulnerability, crimes would rise up and other villages would find it signaled for invasion. Since she was the leader of her village now, personal desires had to be kept aside.

Ever since that day, Kurotsuchi found it difficult to sleep peacefully because the rogue ninja would creep into her dreams and turn them into something indescribable, causing her to wake up in a cold sweat and only want the man more. It was wearing down on her; to make matters worse, she was not sure if she could confide in anyone in her village of her Uchiha desire. Someone outside of the village? Kurotsuchi can only imagine how that conversation would turn out.

Sakura-san, can I confide in you with some salacious information?

Sure Yondaime, what did you want to tell me?

I'm head over heels for the rogue ninja.

There are many rogues Yondaime, so I'm not sure which one you are referring to,

I'm head over heels in love with Uchiha Sasuke,

Huh?

"Exactly. That man is so stunning that his looks alone have more power to them than any jutsu his sharingan possess."

"Which man are you referring to Yondaime-sama?" Hakuta had looked up from the book she was reading to look at her Tsuchikage blushing and giggling, behavior that she never saw from her. Kurotsuchi looked at her and started to stumble on her words, quickly telling her assistant that there was no man.

"Yondaime-sama, there is nothing wrong with having a man in your life. As a matter of fact, there is nothing wrong with having a lover. It is only nature, and you have equal rights to take part in it as everyone else."

"I know, but I'm the leader of Iwagakure. I need to be focused solely on issues pertaining to our village,"

"True, but would the villagers like it if their Yondaime Tsuchikage was running on fumes from overworking? That is what I'm here for Yondaime-sama; I'm the person to whom you delegate all of that annoying paperwork to. I don't mind, since one day if I do become Godaime Tsuchikage, I will have my assistant do the same thing."

Perfect. I will have her do these things.

Kurotsuchi turned the tables in a figurative sense, telling her assistant that she had an important matter to attend to, that it required her to be away for several days. Hakuta flashed an acute smile, likely realizing that such a matter involved a potential lover.

"Yondaime-sama, wait a minute," Hakuta said to her Tsuchikage before she departed.

"Yes?"

"I hope you find that man and become happy."

Several days had passed, and Kurotsuchi could not find a trace of Uchiha Sasuke, the man she so desperately wanted to be with. Her confidence started to waver when, hoping to find him posted up by the cliff, did not find him at the Earth Country border. She searched far and wide, using all the resources that were available and there was no trace of Sasuke anywhere. Sleep was out of the question since she did not want to potentially miss the Uchiha somewhere. After several days of not sleeping, the lack of it was taking its toll on the Yondaime Tsuchikage, causing her to be sluggish and reduce her speed to walking. Kurotsuchi had no idea where she was at, fatigue getting more prevalent by the minute.

Uchiha Sasuke, why won't you show yourself? You cannot sit there with a straight face and tell yourself that you did not feel anything… You told me that you loved me and I love you too. So why won't you appear? I want to do that again with you because it felt too real to me, as I'm sure it did to you.

Kurotsuchi did not hear or sense a person who was closing in on her. Sight was becoming less and less for her, as her vision continually blurred. Breathing became palpitated as movements now became swayed and sluggish.

Sas…ke…

xxx

"Yondaime-sama, wake up!"

That voice sounds familiar…

"Please Yondaime-sama, wake up…"

Hakuta.

Kurotsuchi woke up and found that her assistant, Hakuta, was by her side, giving her some food to eat and some towels to cool her down. She made an effort to get up, but her assistant would not have it, telling her to rest on the sleeping bag provided.

"I've kept this secret for too long Hakuta. Please let me confide in you my real intentions of being absent from my Kage duties,"

"Were you able to find the man you searched for?"

"No. He's gone, perhaps forever."

"Aww don't say that Yondaime-sama, who was this man you were looking for?"

"Uchiha Sasuke." Kurotsuchi expected her next in line to react repulsively for wanting to find the most wanted rogue ninja. She did not react, which surprised her.

"You don't find fault in me hopefully finding Sasuke and him potentially becoming my lover?"

"Why would I do that? If you love him and he loves you"

He does love me.

"…then I would not have a problem with it."

"You don't find fault in the fact that Uchiha Sasuke is the most sought out rogue ninja in the world? That he,"

"Stop it Yondaime-sama. I know I'm supposed to be in the village right now, but I couldn't help myself in following you here. People always need assistance, and I felt that it was pertinent for your case." Kurotsuchi thanked her, and several minutes later, she got up and headed back towards the village. She was tired and wanted to sleep comfortably for a couple of days on her bed.

"You are not going to look for Sasuke anymore Yondaime-sama?"

I can't bother looking for someone if they do not want to be found.

xxx

That's it for Kurotsuchi? No way Sasuke forgot about her this quickly…