And I knew that somehow I would find my way back Chapter 1: If I face forward,will I see you again?, a final fantasy xv fanfic

Staying alive and living are two different things. Most people think its the same concept when in reality they couldn't be any farther from the truth. Staying alive was nothing more than doing your best not to die. Some do it for a goal while others are afraid of dying. Being alive was nothing more than breathing. Living on the other hand is when you give to feel so many things. To feel love course through your heart and happiness shine within. People may survive but living only happens once. Noctis was only good at one of those at the time and it sure wasn't the latter.

However by the grace of the astrals Noctis is given the chance and try and change his fate. All thanks to the unbreakable love of a certain someone who has the power to even defy the Gods. But there are coniditons though.

1st he must decide who's love it was that brought him back and be right about it. 2nd he must find a way to still defeat the immortal one and 3rd he is not allowed to tell a soul of what you have experience

Looks like hes in for it again.

So here I am guys with my first FFXV fic. So I absolutely love the game and all but ugh the ending killed me. Dont get me wrong it was good but I'm a sucker for happy endings and my boys being happy. Plus I am a huge Promptis shipper so I wanted them to be happy.

Notes on the fic would be that while it sounds like Noctis is just going to do it all over again i am changing a lot of things. So some things will remain like the game but there will also be some big changes. Also just so everyone knows and I dont get accused of it after reading the first chapter: I in now way hate Luna. There will be no bashing in here and I actully have some good stuff planned for her trust me.

Above all I just hope you guys like this fic and are gentle with me. I'll try and update every week if not every two weeks. I do have 3 other fics I'm working on though so you guys will have to remind me if i forget.

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Being dead was such a surreal feeling. Even though he knew he was going to die a part of him still couldn't believe he did. Like at any moment he would be spared from this fate. That he could pass the cup to someone else and be done with it. Yet another part of him was glad it was over. He was so tired and worn to the point that he couldn't even think of anything else. At least now he could finally sleep in peace. No crystals, no Astrals, no daemons, and no kings, only sleep for however long he wanted.

Waking up in a field of sylleblossoms was quite the opposite of sleeping though. Groaning in slight irritation Noctis sat up and looked around. Being in such a field he expected to see Luna especially considering they were both dead now. He saw no trace of her though as he huffed. He wanted to sleep dammit and did not appreciate being woken up for nothing thank you very much. But before he could lay down again a deep, booming voice called out above him.

" Chosen one, we must speak with you."

Whipping around from where he sat Noctis was shocked to see the 5 Astrals hovering above him. Ramuh and Gentiana (he still wasn't quite use to calling her Shiva) looking down at him with warm expressions. Titan was odd enough sitting cross legged and looking down at him with a almost calm expression. Well as calm as it could get seeing as his teeth were in a constant state of being bared. Leviathan separated from them off the right by themselves. Curled around herself and watching Noctis with a almost spiteful gaze. And last was Bahamut standing mighty and proud in the center of the semi circle they all formed.

Noctis couldn't help but sigh as he took them all in. He had just saved the world while oh yeah dying, what did they want now? Standing up from where he sat he turned to face them. In his head sending out a plea for patience in dealing with them.

"What is it?" He asked, doing his best to keep any impatience or irritation out of his voice. As much as they were exhausting to deal with he didnt quite want to be booted to hell or whatever horrible side of the afterlife there was.

"You have done well in your quest chosen one. The darkness has been driven away and light restored to the land. Even though we doubted you in times you pulled through and that is a feat in itself."

"Uh thank you?" Noctis didnt know whether to take that as a complement or not. Then again it being Bahamut he supposed it was his version of one.

"However," Bahamut continued and effectively snapped Noctis out of his thoughts. And this was where Noctis heart sank. What did he mean by "however"? There should be no however anywhere in this conversation. All he wanted to do was enjoy his post death dammit. It still hadn't even quite sunk in that he was dead in the first place. What more did there have to be to this? Lucky for him though Bahamut never kept him waiting long.

" You deserve to rest we know but we have all decided to offer you a chance."

As Bahamut spoke Noctis could feel the sinking feeling expanding from his heart to his stomach. Why did he feel like this was going somewhere he most definitely wouldn't like. Was is it too much to ask that they leave him alone for the next couple of eons at least? Apparently it was as Bahamut looked at him with expectation.

Holding back a groan Noctis decided to bite. " And what chance would that be?"

Raising his head in a almost king like way Bahamut answered him, " The chance to go back in time and change your fate. A chance for you to fix what you want and live King Noctis."

Noctis would have been surprised at Bahamut calling him "King Noctis" for the first time if it wasn't for everything else that had been dumped on his plate. They were offering him a chance to go back. A chance to try his fate and live. What the hell did that even mean?

" Umm no thanks. Why would I want to relive all of that again? To suffer for your mistakes that you all selfishly cast upon my line and me?!" He knew the way he was speaking to them was not considered respectful in the least bit. They could easily zap him where he stood but in that moment he couldn't find himself to care. How dare they ask him to do it all over again. Like he hadn't suffered enough the first time.

But instead of Bahamut responding to him it was Gentiana this time. " King Noctis you are right. We all have cast our mistakes on you. We have made you suffer and I apologize for that. But please listen to what Bahamut has to say."

If it wasn't for the abundant respect he held for her Noctis would have been happy to tell her to shove off. He was tired beyond belief and they didn't seem to get that.

"I know you guys are on my side. But cant you see what you guys are doing to me? I watched people I love die, my friends suffer and my kingdom turned to ruin. Why would I want to go back? I don't want to go through all of that again. I don't wanna go back." As much as he tried to sound stern Noctis knew he sounded like he was almost pleading. But then again by this point he might as well have been. He needed them to see his reasons and take his wishes into account. Sadly though it seemed not all of them would in this case.

" You selfish little human! You should be grateful your even being given a opportunity like this. If it wasn't for Bahamut's urgings I would have never agreed to this." Leviathan's scratchy voice roared. That fucking worm never liked him and he was proud to say the feeling was mutual.

He was relieved though when he didnt have to listen to them rant anymore as Titan held up a hand to silence her. Yep Titan was the MVP in Noctis book right now. Waiting for everyone to settle once more Bahamut spoke up once again.

" Is that what you wish?" He asked Noct. Blue eyes softening as they took in his tired eyes and slumped shoulders.

"Yes of course." He tried not to growl back. He was certain in his answer and would not think of anything else. Well that was until Bahamut opened his mouth again.

" Even if the only reason we are giving you a second chance is because someone back in the world of the living loves you to the point in defying us and the kings."

For a moment everything came to a screeching halt. He knew what love felt like but to love someone enough to make even the Astrals offer him a chance to change his fate? That was something that he had obviously never felt.

"I- I don't understand." He managed to get out as he looked at them for explanation. All of a sudden feeling like a small child asking what love meant for the first time.

To his surprise though Ramuh was the one to explain this time. He had never heard the astral speak up to this point and it was hard not to be in awe as the other spoke. His voice wispy and deep but at the same time gentle as he spoke.

" Back in the world of the living someone misses you and wishes that you were still with them. We have listened to them for many days now. Listened to them beg and plead to us to return you to them. Many humans have begged us for such things but none have held such a powerful love as they do. None have been as worthy to have us want to grant their wish."

As Ramuh finished speaking one thing stood out to Noctis the most. While he couldn't believe someone out there could feel so much love that wasn't what was bothering him. Ramuh had said that they had listened for days. How was that possible considering he died what had to be minutes ago? It was this thought that he chose to express.

" I just died though. How could someone already miss me that much?"

For a moment none of them said anything, looking to each other instead. Of course one of them had to tell Noctis though. Silent words seemed to pass between them all as Gentiana was the one to answer. Using her most gentle voice she begun to explain.

"King Noctis time does not pass the same as it does in the world of the living. That being so while it feels like you have as of recent passed in truth its been 5 years since you have left the other world."

And if that didnt hit Noct like a ton of bricks he didnt know what would. He supposed in the grand scheme of things 5 years wasn't that long. Especially considering he had been gone for 10 years before everything had come to a end. But still, 5 years without someone you love could feel like a eternity. And 5 years of praying to the Astrals took a fair amount of devotion.

" We will allow you to go back and try and fix what you want but we have our own conditions." Bahamut continued on as if he had already agreed to it all.

However in all things it was best to keep the Astrals pleased and so Noctis went ahead and asked, " So what are these conditions?"

" 1st you must decide who's love it was that brought you back and be right about it. 2nd you must find a way to still defeat the immortal one and 3rd you are not allowed to tell a soul of what you have experienced."

Of course they would set such ridiculous expectations. If he had to die in order to beat Ardyn then how the hell was there another way? Not to mention he had no idea whose love it was or even what kind of love it was. He had met so many people on his journey and while he doubted most of them could harbor any sort of love for him that would be that strong, there still was no telling.

There was also the slight fact that he had no desire once again to suffer. Watching people he loved die or be hurt tore him apart and he didnt think he could go through that again. He didnt want to spend those long days nursing broken bones or gashes when they ran out of healing potions. Didnt want to fight tooth and nail for the right to survive in the world. Going back would for certain kill him.

" I cant." Was all he could get out. While a tiny part of him was grateful that they were even trying to offer him another chance he couldn't do it. Once was all that he needed. It appeared though as if they all had known that would be his answer as Bahamut closed his eyes for a moment. Almost as if resigning himself to the fact but as like all things in Noctis life it was never that simple.

" We had a feeling you would say that. Being as so there is someone here to try and perhaps sway your mind." Bahamut said, eyes drifting over Noctis shoulder as he did so.

Raising a eyebrow in confusion Noctis turned around and sucked in breath at what he saw. Standing there in the field behind him was non other than Luna. She was wearing the same white dress she had been when he had last seen her. This time though her hair was down and a crown of sylleblossoms rested on her head. Noctis would be the first to admit she was beautiful but for some reason his heart didnt ache at the sight of her. Not like it use to anyway.

"Sit with me and talk?" Was all she asked as she stepped forward. Her voice a gentle hum that had Noctis relaxing in almost a instant.

Not knowing what else to say Noctis merely nodded his head and settled down on the ground with her. As he settled he noticed the Astrals had vanished and couldn't help but be thankful for it. This was a private conversation between Luna and him and the last thing he wanted was for them to be hovering around listening.

At first Luna did not say anything as she took the time to smooth out the creases in her dress. Noctis dimly realized that it was her way of giving him time to collect his thoughts. He supposed he should appreciate it but in all honesty it was making him more anxious. He wanted to know what her opinion of all this was. Although if she was here to "sway his mind" then it obviously wasn't the same as his.

" Does it feel strange being dead?"

Snapping out of his thoughts Noctis whipped his head around to look at Luna. Eyebrows raised in shock and mouth slightly open. Well he for certain wasn't expecting that level of bluntness from her. Great way to start a conversation Luna.

"Umm I suppose. For the most part I'm just tired." He admitted.

Smiling she nodded her head in understanding. " Usually its like that in the beginning. But after you get use to it you start to find that it can be lonely here."

If Noctis heart didnt ache before it did now. Everyone in the world of the living weren't the only ones who had waited for 10 years. " I'm sorry." Was all he could say though as he looked at the ground with guilt.

" Noctis its alright. I knew it would be like this for awhile and I am ok with it now. However that is not what I wish to talk about."

And here it came. In truth he didnt know what to expect but regardless he knew it was serious. If the Astrals believe Luna would have the right words to sway his mind then whatever she was going to tell him would be important. Straightening up he turned his undivided attention to her. As much as he didnt want to talk about it he at least owed her this.

" I will cut to the chase Noctis. You do not want to return and I can understand why. However I know it is what is best for you."

When those words left Luna's mouth it was like someone had delivered a sucker punch to his gut. Why would she think something like that. For sure out of all of them she knew what it was like to suffer. To suffer and have to fight your way to even have a hope a survival. Out of everyone he would have thought she wouldn't want him to go through it again.

" Why would you say that?" He asked her, voice tinged with a note of betrayal.

Picking up on that note Luna's eyes softened and her mouth turned into a gentle smile. Reaching out she took his hand in her own and brought it to rest in her lap. Squeezing softly in reassurance when Noctis stiffened up.

" Noctis you have so much to live for. Your kingdom needs a strong ruler to rule them. Someone that has a kind heart and brave like yourself. Your friends all miss you so much and are hurting once again. And yes I knew you were going to die but after watching you after my death I wished from the bottom of my heart that your fate was different. I accepted mine but for you I wanted so much more."

"I know but I cant-" Noctis started to yell, becoming frustrated with the whole thing. But once he realized who he was starting to raise his voice to he calmed himself. Luna only wanted what was best for him after all.

Seeing that he was once again calm Luna continued on, her voice soft and inquisitive. " Isn't there things you would like to live for as well?"

And there it was. The question that had sat at the back of his mind for awhile. He had given it some thought of course but never had he come to a solid conclusion. He supposed now was as good as time as any.

" Of course there is. I have things I want to still do but its to late now isn't it? Besides why should I have to do it all over again just to be happy for once?" He growled. He wasn't trying to take his frustrations out on her but wasn't that what he was doing? Taking a deep breath he let the tension bleed out of himself and waited for what Luna had to say.

He watched as she took a moment to think. Her eyes tracing patterns in the flowers and fingers trailing over them. She really was beautiful with her light hair that shined every which way and her blue eyes that were full of so much wisdom. But it didnt make him feel what he once felt. He still loved her but it wasn't the same love he thought he once held. And it seemed he wasn't the only one who realized their love wasn't that kind of love.

" Tell me, How did you feel when I died?" She finally spoke up and asked.

By the Astrals this women was killing him. He guessed it was because they hadn't spoken in person since they were children but he had never known she could be so to the point. Or impatient for that matter as she looked at him with a expectant look. He wasn't getting out of this one so easily.

Sighing he looked anywhere but her as he rubbed the tension out of his neck. How did he even began putting this into words? Oh well better to speak from the heart. " When you died I was lost. It was hard for me to get over it and I'm ashamed to admit this but it affected me to the point where I got into a fight with one of my friends, neglected another one and injured the last. I couldn't think straight and it was... hard." He all but sighed the last part.

Humming in acknowledgement Luna squeezed his hand once more before letting go. Turning to him her eyes were full of kindness as well as something else. But before he could place it she spoke up.

" Then how do you suppose the person who loves you enough to defy gods feels?"

Yep it was official. Luna was wise beyond her years and could think of every other little thing Noctis failed to see. They would have made a great couple if it wasn't for the lack of feelings among other things. In all of this he hadn't thought of how the person who loved him felt. He could only imagine the agony they must be going through right now. Praying to the gods over and over to have him back and with no answer. Well at least not yet.

When he thought about it, in the past if Luna had been the one agonizing over him he would have not even hesitated to do it all again. So how was this different now. Perhaps it was because he did not know what kind of love it was or the person who held it. But when he moved past that and thought about it his heart ached to think of whoever it was out there crying and begging for him back. And just maybe a part of him wanted to feel what that love was like. A love that defied gods and kings.

" You're sure I know them?" He asked Luna.

Sensing the shift in his mind Luna's mouth broke out into a radiant grin while she nodded her head with excitement.

" Positive. They know you and are waiting for you."

Smiling at the thought Noctis nodded his head in understanding. So he really was going to do this?

As he thought that last part two tall, white doors appeared before them. Etched into the doors was the Lucis crest and they watched as it split when the doors opened. Nothing but bright light filled the doors and even when Noctis squinted he still couldn't see anything. Standing he offered a hand to Luna before turning back to them.

" I believe that's your queue Noctis." She grinned.

Looking to her with unease he couldn't help but question, " How far is it taking me back?"

Shaking her head she answered, " I don't know. I suppose whatever time has been determined as the best for you."

Noctis had nothing to say to this as he huffed in slight frustration. Great so he had no idea in what part of time it was going to spit him out in. None the less Luna was right about it being his queue now. Stepping forward he began to make his way to the light only to stop when Luna called out once more.

" One more thing Noctis."

Turning he raised a eyebrow but let her say what she wanted to. He watched in curiosity as she hesitated for a moment but then squared her shoulders with determination.

"If you get the chance to try and save me, please don't. I was ready for my fate and have accepted it."

Noctis was practically struck dumb by her request. How could she ask something like that? And looking closer he could see she was completely serious. Sighing he nodded his head. He wasn't sure if he could fulfill that wish but for now he could at least acknowledge that he heard it.

Turning around Noctis took a deep breath before entering the light. Luna's quiet call of " good luck" the last thing he heard before everything went white.

So here we go guys. As mentioned above I have some huge plans for this fic so stick with me. And for Luna as well so trust me her fate will not be the same either. I really hope everyone enjoyed this chapter and keeps reading!

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