Disclaimer: I do not own FMA and it's characters.

Warning: Heartbreaking, yaoi (boyxboy)- Don't like, don't read!

"I swear on my life, I'll get your body back, Al."

"Oh yeah? When?! It's taken us this long, and we aren't getting any closer to finding a way! And besides, you've been saying that same thing over and over for years now! How can I trust this promise you keep making, after so long in this damned body?!" Ed stared at him with wide eyes.

"A-Al..." He watched as his precious baby brother stormed out the room, leaving him completely alone with only his thoughts to keep him company.

Ed sighed as the scene played repeatedly in his mind. He lay on his back, sinking as deep into the mattress as he could, wanting nothing more than to be able to disappear into the sheets. He stared blankly up at the ceiling, his golden eyes unseeing as yet again, he relived their fight. He knew Al was right. It had been so long. They had been searching for so long. And yet, they still had nothing to show for it. What did his promise matter anymore if he had nothing? The night he had caused Al to lose his body, he had sworn he'd get it back, no matter the cost. He'd be willing to give his life so that his brother could feel again. But at this point, how much was that even worth anymore?

He let out a shuddering breath as he draped his arm over his eyes, plunging his world into a comforting darkness. Finally, after a long while of laying silently with his thoughts, he drifted off into a troubled sleep.

Envy sighed as he sat in the windowsill of the shabby hotel. He gazed in, staring at the slumbering golden boy. He didn't know how long he just watched the small boy's chest rise and fall. Envy thought back to , the fight he had seen the two brothers have just hours before. No, Envy was not stalking. He just happened to be in the neighborhood, and decided he'd pay a visit, seeing as how they were important sacrifices and such. Yeah, that's right. He was just doing his duty to Father, making sure they were still alive and kicking. That was all. It had absolutely nothing to do with the fact that he couldn't shake Edward from his thoughts. It had nothing to do with the fact that the boy's alluring image haunted him every waking hour.

He sighed again as he rested his head against the side of the window, still never taking his eyes off Ed's small form on the bed. His eyes travelled over him. He watched in awe as the pale moonlight casted upon his face, catching the golden locks just so, making it appear as if he had a gleaming halo. It gave his tanned skin an almost ethreal glow. He looked like an angel. Then, he slowly felt his eyes raking over his right arm. It was not that of flesh, but of cold, unfeeling steel, shining brightly under the light, reminding Envy, yet again, why it was impossible for him to be an angel.

He blushed. What the hell?! An angel? Seriously?! He bashed his head against the surface it rested against. He winced slightly, rubbing his sore head. He gazed up as he heard the boy emit a tiny noise.

Ed rolled over on the bed, whimpering. His face was set in a hard scowl as sweat glistened on his skin. He groaned, his fists clenching at his sides.

"A-Al, please... p-please forgive me. I'm sorry... I'm so s-sorry. I'm sorry," he muttered frantically. Envy frowned as he felt an annoying pang in his chest. He glared at Ed. He was a homunculus. Envy the Jealous. He was not supposed to be feeling these strange feelings. Especially not for some low-life human scum. They were beneath him... so why was it, that this annoying little pipsqueak could send his heart racing? Why was he feeling this?

He continued glaring at him, even as he leapt down from the windowsill to stand in the room. Still he glared as he made his way across the room. He glared down at the boy, eyes so full of hatred... and yet, he felt none at all. He glared at him as he forcefully pulled back the bed sheets and climbed onto the mattress to lay beside him. He turned his glare to the wall as he drew Ed carefully into his arms, tucking his small body to his chest and resting his chin on his blond head. He looked down at the boy's face, noticing it visibly relax. He scowled.

"You damn idiot." He stayed like that for the rest of the night, holding Ed close to him, stroking his soft hair when the nightmares became too much, offering words of comfort. He didn't think Ed was even fully aware he was there. He smirked as he thought of what the boy might do if he knew. He smiled fondly as he looked down at his once again peaceful face sadly. They were enemies. Always and forever. There would be a day when one would be forced to kill the other. He knew that. That was why these feelings were so annoying... because, when that day came, he knew he wouldn't be able to do it. He'd die. And he'd never see the irritating runt ever again. He laughed shakily as he buried his face back into Ed's hair, drawing in his sweet scent as tears pricked his eyes.

"You damn idiot," he muttered again to himself. Falling in love with a human? How pathetic could he get? But he wouldn't ever regret it.