Disclaimer: I don't own Fairy Tail

Rain dripped down my face like tears. But I wouldn't cry, no matter how much I needed to, no matter how much pain I was feeling, no matter how much I loved you.

I fell to my knees, my keys, rusty with negligence, clanging against my leg, I traced the letters that were carved into the headstone.

NATSU DRAGNEEL

For each letter I traced, the broken shards of my heart shattered into infinitesimally small pieces

I slammed my head against the dark gray stone, attempting to use brute force to push away the incoming tide of memories.

Everything I see reminds me of you...

I grit my teeth, furious at the fact that I wasn't. Even after all you had done to me, all I could remember was all he had done for me. All the times you saved my life, all the times you made me feel at peace, all the times you made me laugh.

When you were with me,

The sky was always blue...

My lower lip quivered as my memories of you abruptly stopped, it was the time we were apart, when the only thing I had of you were in my dreams. That day, when you said it was over, the only way to stop my grieving heart was to give it to you, or it was to shatter it.

Even after the fight,

I never forgot about you...

I closed my eyes, lifting my face to, what seemed to be, the never-ending downpour. It was on a day like this, the incessant cascade of rain that put out even your searing fire, the one you naturally had, and the one for me.

A tear-stained face,

Soggy drenched clothes...

I opened my eyes, hoping, wishing that the rain would wash away all the memories I had with you. No, of you. It wasn't fair. The 'affection' you had for me didn't last a year, but for you? For you, mine has never stopped.

I loved you from your head,

All the way to your toes..

I hung my head, the rain not expelling my memories, but instead yielding more. I studied the flower that someone had put before your grave. It was fake. Like you, and all those 'joyous' times we had together. All those times where all you were doing was running away.

But now all that has passed,

And our memories are all faux...

Loosened my grip on the floor, hoping the agony that was shredding my heart would ease as well. I was too naive, I was the one that continued to try to put us together again, repairing my crippled heart, time after time, just to give it back to you. Even before you turned away from me, I had wanted you back.

I wish we hadn't,

Fought that night...

I dragged my fingers across the sodden dirt, only stopping to crush a clump of soil that was in my path. I stared at my blackened palm that resembled the void that was once my heart, the void that you created. But my devotion to you ran deeper than that, so that now, the emptiness is caving in, leading to a vacuum of darkness, and even the idea of 'me' is ceasing to exist.

This is for the broken,

The lost,

The ever-trapped soul,

The one whose heart

Is replaced by a black hole...

I clench my fist, my last resort to stopping the tears that threaten to spill. Misery and despair overwhelmed me, I shuddered, goosebumps lining my arms. I close my eyes and stare at you, the same one who made my heart melt, the same one who cast it off as well.

You stole my heart,

And then ripped it to shreds,

Shattering the pieces...

I could hold it back no more, a scream ripped through my throat, one that barred all my devastation.

"WHY!? WHY, NAT-" I choked on a sob tears now matching the rain. "Why, Natsu?" I whispered, my throat clogged with pent up tears

And now the pain never ends.

"I miss you."

A/N: I really can't write these kinds of things, please review.