Disclaimer: I do not own these characters or the lines from "To This Day."
We Made It
~Third Grade~
I watched as my classmates played on the playground while I waited for Lelouch in our classroom. I was able to see my reflection in the window. My green hair, yellow eyes, and…my body. My ugly body. I lightly pinched the fat that was hanging off me and I knew that, even though Lelouch has told me otherwise, I was ugly. I glared at myself; I glared until I heard the door of the classroom open. I turned, expecting to see Lelouch, but was faced with his twin sister. Marianne Lamperouge. She was followed by her "friends."
Marianne quickly noticed me and turned to her friends.
"Hey, Rakshata! Nagisa! Pork Chop is here!" They all turned to face me. "Hey, Rakshata. You're the smartest here. Is it possible to be that fat?" Marianne pointed to me and laughed. Her so called "friends quickly joined in. I didn't say a word because I knew that it was only going to make it the situation worse. I quietly watched as they sat down in their seats near the front of the class.
It was less than three minutes when Marianne turned back towards me. "So, Pork Chop! Where's my worthless brother?" Nagisa, a total sheep, offered a suggestion.
"Maybe the little shit finally died! At least now we won't be able to see his ugly ass face!" They all laughed like it was funny. It wasn't funny. Not to me. I feel the tears; they begged to come out.
"…don't…" I couldn't get the words out. I felt a lump form in my throat. I hated when people talked about Lelouch's wine stain.
They immediately stopped laughing. Rakshata was the first to talk this time. "What the hell did you say, Porky?" I stood up.
"Don't say those things! Lelouch isn't ugly!" Marianne was the first to recover from my outburst. She stalked silently towards my seat. Right when she opened her ugly mouth, Lelouch opened the door and walked in.
"Sorry I'm late, C.C., but Mrs. Ja-" He quickly stopped when he noticed Marianne, Rakshata, and Nagisa. I saw his eyes widen with fear. Nagisa stood up and walked towards Lelouch.
"So, Faggot, how have you been? Your face looks especially ugly today! Did you even try cleaning your face?" I saw Lelouch start shaking even harder the closer Nagisa got. I remembered how Nagisa gave him the now light purple bruise on his wine stain. While I stared at Lelouch, I failed to notice that Marianne had gotten close to me. She was bigger than me so she was able to push me down to the floor. I heard a cry from Lelouch so I knew that Nagisa punched him.
"YOU'RE SO DAMN UGLY! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST DIE!?"
I felt Marianne land a kick on my stomach.
"Hey Rakshata! Do you think that if I kick her hard enough, she'll throw up her fat?"
Rakshata only watched. She was always the weakest of the three and that was only because Marianne and Nagisa took martial arts classes. I looked across the floor and saw Lelouch curled up on the floor. Our eyes met and I knew that it hurt Lelouch much more. He felt the need to be a man. To be strong enough to protect me, but wasn't because he was born weak. We knew that, before the bell rung, we would quickly be stuffed in a supply closet somewhere on campus. That was the routine that happened at least once every two months. We counted.
~Fifth Grade~
Lelouch and I watched as the new kid introduced himself. His voice was firm and loud enough for everyone to hear. We could immediately tell that he, in some way, was just like us.
"Hello, my name is Suzaku Kururugi. I'm eleven years old." He, strangely, bowed and said, "Please take care of me." The entire class started laughing. Except for us. Lelouch and I rarely laughed in school anymore. I felt sad for him; he was going to be treated like us. Maybe even worse than us. I didn't immediately notice the sparkle in Lelouch's eyes, but when I did I was confused. It left me wondering if Lelouch liked Suzaku. Well, if he likes Suzaku, then I'll make sure we become friends with him. Maybe Lelouch will thank me and notice me! I thought to myself. Even though it took me a while, I had finally realized that I liked Lelouch. I liked him a lot. While Mr. Ackley searched for a seat for Suzaku I stood up.
"Mr. Ackley, Suzaku can sit right there." I pointed towards the seat next to Lelouch. Mr. Ackley smiled at me.
"All right Suzaku. You can sit next to Lelouch. Lelouch, please raise your hand." Lelouch made a small "eep" noise and the entire class started to laugh at him. I stared down at my fists, trying to calm myself as I watched Lelouch from the corner of my eyes. His face was red and his beautiful purple eyes started getting watery. Suzaku quietly walked towards Lelouch and the entire class stared with excited eyes.
I realized that they were waiting for Suzaku to say something. With a sinking heart I realized that this was Suzaku's chance. His make it or break it moment. If he rejected Lelouch, then he would be accepted by the rest of the class and, eventually, the rest of the school. If Suzaku accepted Lelouch, then he would be forever rejected by others and accepted by us. I closed my eyes and waited for the awful blow to fall on Lelouch. It never came. I opened my eyes and looked up. Suzaku's face held a kind smile and his green eyes held a strangely warm smile. A smile that I didn't like. Suzaku raised his hand and held it out to Lelouch.
"Hi, Lelouch. My name is Suzaku. I hope we can become good friends." Lelouch's face was no longer a full on blush, though a small blush was still there. His eyes were also brighter and he lifted his hand. Lelouch slowly brought his hand up, almost as if he was afraid that, if he touched Suzaku, then he would wake up to find that it was all a dream. I looked towards the rest of the class. I noticed that most of them had anger on their faces. The others had an almost pitying look about them. They knew that there was another person who was going to be bullied without mercy.
I looked back towards Suzaku and I wondered what kind of friend he would be.
…
Lelouch and I led Suzaku to the roof top of the school. I took the lead when Lelouch started to talk to Suzaku and nearly walked into a wall. I could hear Lelouch giggling about something that Suzaku was doing. Suzaku was starting to annoy me. I was about to chew him out for but then Lelouch out right laughed.
Lelouch laughed.
Lelouch laughed.
Lelouch laughed.
It was a pretty laugh. I snuck a look behind me and saw that, while Lelouch was laughing, Suzaku stared at him as if he was the most wonderful thing in the world. It hurt when I saw Lelouch look back at him with a similar look. When we finally made it to the roof, I gave a relieved sigh.
We sat down in the shade and began to eat lunch quietly. Suzaku sat waaaay to close to Lelouch, but I didn't say anything. I gave Lelouch my apple and he gave me the pizza slice that his mother had packed him. Suzaku offered me a rice ball and I…gratefully accepted. I didn't offer Suzaku anything. He already had enough to eat. Yeah, that's it. After we finished lunch, I stood up and brushed off my dress. I then pointed to Suzaku and I didn't hesitate with my interrogation question.
"So, why are you an outcast? What's your story?" Lelouch gaped at me before he scolded me.
"C.C. that wasn't very polite!" I turned to him.
"You know that he has a story too, right?" the look in his eyes said it all. Suzaku, who had stayed still, gave a small nervous laugh.
"Why do you think that I have a story?" I rolled my eyes.
"Because we have stories too!" I sat down and straightened out my legs.
Suzaku stared at Lelouch but wasn't really looking at him.
"My parents left me and I was adopted. I guess that's why I usually get bullied." Suzaku looked away and towards the floor. It was starting to get awkward so I decided to redirect the conversation. To me.
"Well if you haven't noticed, the reason I'm bullied is because I'm fat and ugly. That and I'll stand up for others who are being bullied. They also like to call me Pork Chop." Lelouch, who was still standing, turned towards me with an angry look.
"You are not ugly! You're beautiful and you know it! Why can't you see it!?" He started to pace. I looked up at him and gave him a look that I hoped said "really?"
I looked up towards the sky. "You know, you can be such a hypocrite sometimes." I turned back to Suzaku and pointed to Lelouch.
"If you're blind, then the reason that Lelouch is bullied is because of his birthmark." When I looked back over to Lelouch I saw that he had his back turned. Suzaku cocked his head to the right.
"Why would they bully you over that? It seems like a stupid reason." Suzaku turned to Lelouch who had turned back around.
"Yeah, I know. The thing is Lelouch believes them when they tell him that he's ugly, stupid and worthless. The thing is they're wrong about him!" I smiled. "He's smart and a good friend!"
Lelouch and I turned towards Suzaku with wide eyes when we heard him say "Not to mention beautiful." Suzaku quickly looked away with a huge blush. "I-I mean…" Luckily he was saved by the bell.
…
We were the first to arrive to class even though we were probably the farthest ones away from it. We stopped smiling when we came to the front of our desks. Lelouch's had a white sheet of paper taped to the front of his. It said:
BEWARE
Of DOG
Suzaku caught Lelouch as he fell and held him as Lelouch cried into his school uniform. As Suzaku comforted Lelouch, I grabbed the stupid piece of paper, tore it to shreds, and threw the left overs away. Sayoko and Marianne appeared at the door and laughed. Sayoko seemed to do a pose before she pointed towards Lelouch.
"Your face looks like a wrong answer that someone tried to erase but couldn't quite get the job done."
I hated them. I hated them all. Except for Lelouch and Suzaku. Never Lelouch or Suzaku.
~Tenth Grade~
As we walked out of school on a bad day, Luciano pushed Suzaku. Lelouch and I quickly came to his side even though we both knew that Suzaku was stronger than Lelouch, me, and Luciano combined.
Lelouch was the first to speak. "Why the hell did you push Suzaku, Luciano!?" My glare grew stronger when I saw Luciano's grin widen.
"I'm only trying to help the princess, Faggot." Luciano turned to look at Suzaku and his brown eyes darkened into a glare. "Yeah, we know your life sucks and what not, but here is a word from the wise: Get over it. Your parents left you so what? Everyone's gonna leave you. The Faggot and The Fat Ass don't give a piece of flying crap about you. They're only using you as a meat shield. They won't even care if you are hit by a car. Hell, they'll probably be the ones driving it!" After he finished being a bastard, Luciano left. We were quiet. Suddenly Suzaku's face lit up with a smile.
"I forgot something in class, don't wait up." He ran back towards the school building. Lelouch turned towards me and immediately said: "Something's wrong" then dashed off towards the direction that Suzaku was headed. When we entered the building, Lelouch headed towards the rooftop entrance.
"Lelouch, where are you going!? The classroom's that way!" Without pausing Lelouch answered me.
"Just trust me!" when we finally made it to the top of the stairs, we quickly burst through the roof top door. What I saw shocked both of us for a good five seconds before we panicked. Suzaku was standing on top of the stone rails. And he looked ready to jump.
Lelouch was the first to get to Suzaku and he quickly hugged Suzaku's legs around the knee area. "Suzaku! What the hell are you doing!? Get down from there!"
Suzaku tried to look anywhere else but he ended up looking at me in the eye. I was still a bit shocked.
"I…I have to do this…nobody…there's nobody…that wants me here…" Lelouch and I watched as Suzaku silently cried. He turned so he could look at the both of us before he gave us a wry smile. "Even you guys want me gone."
Lelouch let go of Suzaku then stepped up on the railing to stand alongside him. And slapped him.
If Suzaku wasn't an exercise nut/superhuman, then he would have probably just fallen to his death. Lelouch gave Suzaku the full force of his glare.
"WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU THINK THAT, YOU ASSHOLE!? DO YOU REALLY THINK WE'RE THAT CRUEL!? DO YOU THINK WE'RE LIKE ALL THESE OTHER DUMBASSES!?" Lelouch made a sweeping motion outwards towards all the students leaving the campus. As he continued, Lelouch's voice got quieter and quieter. "DON'T YOU THINK THAT WE ACTUALLY CARE!? Cause we do you know! We do! I…I…I love you…" Lelouch started to sob. "I love you an-nd you-you wer-re get-get-getting ready to leave-us…"
Suzaku, as if he had just woken from a trance, blinked and a wrapped his arms around Lelouch. He quietly led them both down from the rails and onto the floor of the roof. When they were on solid ground, Suzaku held Lelouch at arms-length and asked him a very stupid question.
"Do you…do you really love me?" Apparently, Lelouch thought it was dumb too. He stopped crying long enough to give him a "Duh" look. I looked away as they…
My heart hurt a bit, but I knew that I never did or ever will hold Lelouch's heart. It had been painfully obvious that they loved each other but…now that it is official…it was just so much more painful. But I knew I could get over it. I knew because I loved them both.
When we finally decide to leave, we slowly walked back towards the school entrance. Right before we walked out of the school, I smacked Suzaku upside the head three times. Suzaku rubbed the spot before he gave me a weak glare.
"C.C.! What the hell was that for!?" I smiled evilly at him.
"Three things." I brought up three fingers as I listed my reasons. "One, for scaring me. Two, for making Lelouch cry. And three, for making me run."
We started laughing as we headed home.
~Senior Graduation~
I watched as Lelouch delivered his speech that every Valedictorian had to deliver before him. As always, Lelouch delivered it flawlessly. A few chairs down, I could see Rakshata, who was the second runner up, seethe with anger. During the ceremony, I clapped hard and heard a "GO LELOUCH!" from Suzaku when Lelouch got an award that was signed by the president himself! I also gave a satisfactory clap when Suzaku also got an award that was signed by the president for being the most athletic student in the country! I was actually surprised when I got an award for being the most improved in Physical Education. Well, not really. I had looked into a mirror that morning. My green hair was long and silky. My yellow eyes were brighter but my body was…beautiful. I had curves! The good kind! Though, I would probably never be as beautiful as Lelouch (he would have probably yelled at me for that) I knew I could still turn a few heads.
After the ceremony, the three of us met up. As we talked about each other's awards, a camera man started walking around. He took a few pictures of all the people who tormented us when I finally remembered the small poster that I had in my huge pocket. I shouted towards the cameraman.
Everyone turned towards us and I unfolded the poster and held it up. There were gasps that came from all the people around me (including Lelouch and Suzaku) while I stood still with a grin so wide it hurt. But it felt so good!
The cameraman started taking pictures like crazy and at different angles. Luciano then charged at us. Well, Lelouch anyways. Just as he was about to hit Lelouch, who was starting to cover himself, Suzaku did this weird roundhouse kick. But in the air. In the freaking AIR!
As we all stared at him, Suzaku simply shrugged. "What? He was about to hit my boyfriend." Lelouch blushed before he turned to the side a bit; his nose slightly in the air.
"You could have taken him out without mercy you know." Suzaku smiled warmly and hugged Lelouch around his waist.
"Fine, I'll try to remember that next time, okay Lu?" Lelouch turned back towards Suzaku and let their foreheads touch as they stared at each other's eyes.
"Fine." As they kissed, I looked down and at the poster in my hand.
Class of:
F*CK OFF! WE MADE IT!
Sincerely,
C.C., Lelouch, and Suzaku
(For the stupid people who know us by Pork Chop, Fugly, and Stupid)
I so needed to frame this.
COMMENTS:
This is for all of us who have been bullied. I myself had been. I guess I put a little of myself into C.C. ^_^; I actually made a poster based on the poem "To This Day" it says:
Johnny, Anthony guess what? You were wrong.
I'M F*CKING BEAUTIFUL
Except the "beautiful" part is in cursive. I got the idea for this because we had a Bullying day at my high school and I saw this video for a poem called "To This Day" by Shane Koyczan. Almost everyone was in tears. (Myself included) it's on YouTube so go check it out if you want.