And as she looked up to the sky and saw the star filled blackness that was once the only home she knew, she remembered what she had lost. The freedom she sought after that was once hers that she had somehow managed to destroy… how had it all gone so wrong? She knew she shouldn't have trusted him, from the minute she met him she knew he was nothing but bad news. But she always did have a thing for the bad boys so she shouldn't really be too surprised that she fell for him.
"Could you please look at me Alex?"
I heard his voice and couldn't bear to turn to face him. He was a monster and that was all I would see when I looked at him.
"Alex, please my love look at me." I heard a hitch in his voice as though he were about to cry… and I didn't care. He should cry. He should feel the pain he put me through.
Slowly I turned to him and a single tear rolled down my face as I did, he was sitting cross legged beside me just staring. I was still bound by my hands and feet and laying on the ground.
"Alex, you don't know how much it pains me to have to tie you up just to keep you. Don't you understand that I love you and I don't ever mean to hurt you. I realize that I've made many mistakes but all I want is for you to give me another chance. Why do you have to run Alex?" he stood up and started pacing back and forth as he continued to speak.
"I saved you when you had nowhere to go, your own family didn't want you but I did. I still do. So why would you go and run?!" at the last sentenced his voice rose so suddenly I jumped a little.
"Talk to me!"
His voice rang in my ears and it took all I had not to break into tears. But I couldn't, he hates when I cries. He says it makes him feel like he's hurting me. But he is, he hurts me everyday. Not always verbally but physically too.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean,,," I couldn't finish my sentence before he started yelling again.
"You didn't mean to? You didn't mean to wait for me to go to work before you packed your things and ran? Do you think I'm an idiot?"
"No I'd never think that. I am so sorry I promise I'll never do it again I love you so much."
"Ugg, why do you turn me into this person Alex?"
"I don't mean to. Forgive me please?"
He stopped pacing for the first time in what felt like hours and kneeled down in front of me.
"Tell me that you love me."
"I love you."
"Look me in the eyes when you say it, say my name. tell me that you love me!"
Could I really bear to say his name without vomiting? He repulses me. Every inch of me wants to push him away, I would kill him if I ever had the chance.
"I love you, Mason."