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The Eldest Child

Prologue: Somewhere Within

 I will say one thing, and mark it well, because it makes all the difference in our struggle.

            I came first

My name is Analicia Delizabane, the second child of a prestigious family of German decent. The eldest child, a distinction which has haunted me for my entire life and now has finally caught up with me; now that they have found me again

They took me from Brussels, my family that is. I had been suddenly thrust back into the "pilot's seat" of myself and felt Anne retreat deep inside. Somehow I knew she would not be coming out again. I was on the floor to my surprise, and holding my arm, rather painfully tight, was Gabriel. Aria and my other relations stared down at me in their triumph. I noted Kateline's look of venomous pleasure and I know even now I must be guarded against her.

Only an hour or so before I had also been awake, the sight of my almost unknown sister Shireen had sparked my return to control. Things of that nature always chased Anne away. Seeing my family always brought me out, as I know Anne could not understand it and therefore not handle it. All other gaze in confusion at me, thinking my behavior, my reasoning, my very mind to be out of sorts. They say I have some kind of disease of the mind you know, that I am disordered. Well… I don't really know about such things.

I was taken away from that place directly, my family in tow along with other prisoners; Mariemaia, and Relena. They protested far more than I did. I did not wish to return to the Isle, that much is true. But I certainly had no real attachment to Brussels. This kept me strong even as I boarded the plane. You see, I am not one for emotional displays and it embarrasses me to think of how Anne has behaved on previous occasions. I know we were both taught to act differently. In any case I will not pretend to regret my departure from Brussels; I have no love for the place.

In truth there are but two things I was loathed to leave. That is of course, my son Alexander. He is still only months old. And Zechs…. Which I will not get into right now.

Yet even now I wonder what he would think and what he would feel as he ascended the staircases and reached Alex's nursery and found us gone. I wonder if he would even survive to make to there.  But I believe he would, I was sure of it. Zechs was never to be underestimated. I knew he would get there, albeit far too late. Still at this late hour, I wonder what he thought to find me gone. I especially wondered if he understood the truth about me, and what he thought about that. That, and all the other hidden truths, now exposed. The lies.

Yes, I suppose it has been a lie all this time, being someone else, living a false life. But it was not I who fashioned this lie, it was another, and it was necessary for my survival…Or so he said. I wonder what Zechs will think of that as well.

Regardless of what dwells in Zechs' mind, I was taken from Brussels. Gabriel held my arm tightly as we traveled, making sure I would not resist. He did not understand things yet, and I pitied him greatly.  Even more so to see what the Isle must have done to him, the sight of his one eye made me bleed inside. For, though I am not Anne, I did love Gabriel after a fashion; though it is a certainty that had he known me, he would not have felt the same. This is fine for me, I can live with it. But I do regret knowing that it because of me that Gabriel has been so twisted to suit an Isle purpose. Though I bear a measure of bitterness for him, I believe as others do not, that he is really a good man.

            I have been now in the Isle for twelve days, locked inside the room that was once mine, forced to stay until I accept Aria's agreement. My lips are silent to her. I have not spoken since they took me from Brussels.

            So for twelve days I have sat here, dwelling on all the things that have made one Leecy from another. I think also on those other parts that have made Leecy what I now am, all the parts. It is the story of my life, and I will be honest, it was never pretty. Although if there is one thing I have learned, it is that nothing is for sure, and beauty is negotiable. My life has been in a few words, the burden of living under the rule of others. Some I was forcefully subjected to, others I chose of my own free will. I will explain that better in my own time

            What is best to understand from this is that there was a beginning to it all, and reason. Yes there is much reason in my life and the choices I have made. I want these reasons to be understood. That is my purpose I believe, to make people understand, and to allow myself that same luxury. My course then is set now, not to dwell on Aria's offers, or of that which has passed so recently; Zechs, Gabriel, Relena, Alexander. No I wish to go back further. I wish to contemplate my world before there was such a thing as Anne to claim it. In understanding that world, so you will understand me; my world, from its beginning to where ever it shall end.

            Then, fate willing, you will understand why I must do what needs to be done.

End Prologue