hi this is my first fanfic so, hear goes deep breath before the plunge.
hope you like it and enjoy
DISCLAIMER: I do not own primeval or the character. Everything is itv (or watch's I don't know who officially owns it but its all yours except my story)
If I did own it the new series would already be on telly with a hell lot more Jecker moments :)
Jess POV
i walk down the very familiar corridor that leads to the menagerie to fine Abby. I'd been going there a lot recently, ever since the whole bug thing, it freaked me out. It was the first time I'd actually felt like i could die doing this. It's not like I haven't been through a near death experience before but last time I was more worried about Becker than anything else. Suddenly my brain flashes back to a certain hug with a certain person...
I wonder into a bit of a day dream for a moment about what might of happened if Beckers men hadn't walked in when they did.
No, nothing would have happened jess, Becker would have let go when he did. he might have held on for a second or so longer, if I was very lucky and then he would have let go and that would have been that. The end.
But I didn't want it to be the end, I wanted to hug Becker, maybe even kiss him.
No.
I will not let my imagination go that far, because it hurts. Not in the wild and wonderful fantasy, no but when I had to come back. Drag myself back to reality. The reality where the most me and Becker were going to be was friends, if I'm lucky.
I try to convince myself that we couldn't be together because of the circumstances. But the truth is he just doesn't care about me . He cares about me in the same way he cares about everyone in the ARC, his protectiveness and loyalty to everyone at the ARC. No matter what. No matter if it hurts him. No matter if it nearly kills him.
That one of the things I love about him, one of the many things I love about Becker.
Why? Why? Why was I thinking about Becker? Everything I say or do reminds me of Becker? And what anybody else says for that matter. What is wrong with me? I can't even walk down a stupid corridor without thinking about Becker. Get a grip, as I had been telling myself a 100 times a day, no wonder Becker doesn't like me because I'm just a pathetic, clingy and hopeless. And he only puts up with me because I'm his co-worker. My metal rant at my self took me all the way to the menagerie. I really needed to see Abby, I was dangerously close to having a melt down in the middle of the corridor, and all I need is for Becker to have another reason to think I'm a weakling. I spirited the last yard into the menagerie.
Please review and tell me what you think and i'll have next chapter up ASP xxx M.M.S