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Chapter Song: My Life Would Suck Without You

Cause we belong together now, yeah

Forever united here somehow, yeah

You got a piece of me and honestly

My life would suck without you.

Chapter one

"Bella?" My energetic pixie like friend Alice called through the corridors of her oversized house. I have lived in this house for a year and have been coming here since I was three years old and I still get lost sometimes. I have lived here with Carlisle, Esme and their three children Emmett, Alice and my best friend Edward for 13 months now. When my parents asked me to move with them to Phoenix I didn't know how to react. Everything and everyone I have ever known was here in Forks and I couldn't leave that behind and after a long speech from Carlisle assuring my parents that I would be safe and that I would be in touch by some form of communication and after hours of pleading on both my and Edward's part they finally agreed to let me stay. It wasn't a big transaction moving into The Cullen's house, I already had my own room here since I was ten years old.

I pretended to be asleep when I heard someone outside my door, the door opened and I heard someone enter. It was quiet for a couple of seconds and then the person came closer to me.

"Bella?" the dark seductive voice whispered in my ear. It was clear that it was Edward but I didn't give up on the charade. "You're a terrible actress." He laughed but even that sounded seductive. I opened my eyes and laughed as I met Edward's emerald green eyes, his smouldering, deep, loving green eyes. Edward was my best friend for as long as I can remember his eyes are only meant to be his eyes to me and his voice and laugh shouldn't sound seductive. I shook my head and forced the unidentified new feeling out.

"Hey, so where have you been today?" I asked as I sat up on the bed. I crossed my legs and ran my fingers through my hair trying to avoid looking into Edward's eyes again. Edward mimicked my position on the bed facing me, this seemed so normal for us, like nothing had changed between us but if I was being truthful something had changed and it had changed long before today.

"No where yet but I was just coming to ask if you wanted to come to Port Angeles with me?" He asked in a pleading voice and faking a pout. Don't think about his lips- just keep your focus- don't even think about those soft, smooth, kissable lips-Fuck!

"Yeah let me just get ready," I told him.

"Bella, you are dressed already." He laughed. Yeah but I want to look at least some bit presentable compared to you. Why does he have to look like a supermodel when he knew that I couldn't? I looked at him doubtingly and held up 2 fingers.

"Meet you down stairs in two minutes." I told him and laughed.

"Yeah, yeah just don't take too long we have to pick up the booze for the party tonight." He left the room closing the door behind him. Party? What fucking Party? I ran to the door and down the corridor after Edward.

"Edward what party?" I shouted after him. He turned around and had a smug smile on his face.

"Bella mom and dad only leave us alone about once every three months and we are finally going to make some use out of that freedom." As he spoke I was only getting angrier, he must have noticed the anger looming because his mood changed suddenly he was no longer smug. "It was Alice's idea." He smiled weakly. I shook my head and stormed back into my room locking the door behind me. I hated when people kept stuff me it was unbelievably frustrating and Edward of all people should know that. And shortly after the door was locked I could hear Edward knocking on the other side. I was pacing the room, working off my anger. What was worse was the fact that both Edward and Alice knew I hated parties, they were just a poor excuse of attempting to climb the social ladder which evidently Emmett, Alice and Edward couldn't get any higher on. And if they weren't using the party to for popularity then it was because they wanted something else like hmm… I don't know …sex. Was there nothing that boys think about other than sex? But Emmett had Rose, his beautiful, supermodel like girlfriend and Alice had Jasper who was Rose's twin brother… which only left Edward and lately I liked it that way. Just Edward… not Edward and Tanya or Edward and Jessica or Edward and Lauren. Why did he have to make things so confusing, before I was just happy being friends with Edward and now there was so much behind everything I did with Edward, every word he says to me I analyse it just in case there is a hidden meaning and every touch we share I savour the jolt of electricity that travels through my body- I was slowly turning into a stalker, I had passed freak and was on my way to becoming an obsessive stalker. I know Edward only thinks of me as a friend but that still didn't stop the dreams well they were more like fantasies really.

"Bella open the door" Edward ordered, anger clear in his voice. "Bella, please?" he tried quieter. I opened the door and threw myself back on the bed.

"What?" I asked sourly. He closed the door and sat next to me on the bed.

"You always get like this when people keep stuff from you, I know that but that's the whole reason that I kept this from you until the last minute so that you couldn't get us to change our minds, Bella you need to have some fun. What happened to the fun loving, party going Bella? Up until last year you were going to parties nearly every weekend- you were the one persuading me to go, remember? Bella you'll have fun tonight, I promise. We're only young once." I rolled my eyes at him. "That is unbelievably frustrating, you know?"

"What? You mean people don't take what you have to say seriously. No I wouldn't understand why that would be frustrating." I said irritably.

"Bells please?" He smiled and batted his eyelashes.

"You'd make a really good female." I laughed.

"Thanks that's something I have always wanted to hear. So we're okay?" I smiled and he embraced me in a tight hug. A hug that had my literally tingling all over and way too soon he let go. "And you're not going to spend tonight locked away in your room tonight either, okay." He ordered rather than asked. I nodded and laughed.

"Maybe." I told him truthfully. I wasn't set on going tonight, I didn't want to be in the 'company' of any of the boys at school and I didn't want to Edward with any girls- I officially have an obsessive crush on my best friend.

"I'm going to take a wild guess and say you're not in the mood to go to Port Angeles." He assumed. I nodded and with one last hug he left. This was getting so much more complicated than it needed to be.

E.p.o.v

I know Bella hates parties and drinking and dancing and whatever but doesn't mean she shouldn't at least try and have fun tonight- right. I thought the whole reason that she has been avoiding parties is because of her parents leaving but I think she was oddly okay with their leaving and her staying but I guess she suddenly hates parties- there was a story behind it that she wasn't telling me and I would find out- it's amazing what a little vodka can get out of people. The drive to Port Angeles wasn't long- I could make it there in 15 minutes if I didn't obey every rule of the road. Driving seemed natural to me, never once had I an accident nor have I gotten any speeding tickets- a miracle with the way I drive. I had just arrived in Port Angeles and my phone rang. I thought it was going to be Alice but the caller ID showed 'Mike'.

"Hey Mike what's up?" I asked. As much as I disliked him, I still kept up the façade of being his friend.

"Edward, hey. I was just wondering if well…" he paused and spoke again in a shaky voice. "Is Bella going to be at the party tonight?" He was calling to ask about Bella… what was funnier that he actually thought he had a shot with Bella.

"Actually Mike she was saying she was feeling kind of sick and she was going to stay clear of the party" What the fuck? Why am I lying? The words came out without thought.

"Well I was going to ask her out anyway so maybe I'll just swing by yours and see if she is there." I was strangely angry and was fighting to maintain my composed voice. I know Bella will turn Mike down so I should just tell him 'go for it'.

"Bella's not home…she's out with…ah… a friend." I lied. This was getting stupid. Bella was sitting home on her bed listening to her I-pod or Alice was forcing her to play Bella Barbie but he didn't need to know that.

"Oh… does she have a boyfriend?" No!

"Yeah she was saying something about going out with some guy or something." I lied yet again.

"Oh okay see you tonight then, bye."

"Yeah see ya." I was in shock, guys have always asked my permission before asking Bella out and I have never acted like that before. Maybe because it was Mike Newton and I didn't want him around Bella and that was the nicest way of letting him know that. I shook the thoughts from my head and went to get the drink. I knew they wouldn't ask for ID because I looked much older than my real age. Once I had everything Alice had told me to get and it was all in the car, I was ready to head back home but I heard a familiar voice call my name.

"Hey, Edward" Jacob called from across the road.

"Hey Jake, what's up?" I asked. Jake was bearable in small doses and thank god that is all I ever had to deal with him in.

"Ready for tonight?" he asked. "Heard that this was supposed to be the party of the year." I nodded and laughed. "So I wanted to ask you something about Bella." Please not this again.

"Shoot"

"What's her deal, are you two together?" he asked unsure. I guess it would seem that way to people that didn't know us we are always together. I didn't know how to answer the question, part of me was shouting 'No' and another part was shouting 'Of course we're together, does it not look that way.' I looked at my watch and even though I plenty of time I lied- again.

"Shit! Alice is going to kill me." I said while opening the driver door of my Volvo. "I'll talk to ya later Jake. Bye." The journey back was taking a little longer than it should have taken. This whole thing with Bella was confusing me and I needed to clear my head.

B.p.o.v

The second Edward had left Alice dragged me from my bed and forced me into her wardrobe, which with the amount of clothes Alice owned was an extra room in the Cullen house and for me to try on outfit after outfit. Some were half decent and some made me look tacky. We finally settled on a strapless blue dress that just covered my ass matched with a pair of silver, strapy 4 inch death heels- yeah I'm gonna die, Fuck you Alice. Once my clothes were settled on Alice plastered me with make-up. I could faintly here Edward laugh down stairs, he must be back already. I was ready and when I looked in the mirror and surprising I actually looked good. We went down stairs where we were met by Jasper who pecked her cheek.

"Where's Edward?" I asked. "I thought I heard him down here."

"He's upstairs getting ready" Emmett called from the living room. "I swear to fuck he's worse than a girl sometimes." I laughed and went to help Emmett with the food. Soon people started arriving and Alice had the music blaring. The house was almost full and I still hadn't seen Edward yet- what the fuck was he doing? The longer he took the more I drank. I was half tipsy when Mike-shithead-Newton came up behind me and put his hands around my waist. I was drunk but not that drunk.

A/N: So this is the first chapter and i really want reviews just to tell me what ye think of the story and if ye have any ideas they'd be useful too =]. so please review. thanks.

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