Hey, Alex here~ It's been a pretty long time since I've actually posted a story on fanfiction, but that's mostly because I've been busy with school and other things. Anyway, this is also the first Homestuck fanfiction that I've uploaded, so yeah. I hope you enjoy! This is from 2nd person point of view, with you being Sollux. This takes place after Sollux goes blind and Karkat runs off, leaving Sollux alone. This is fanfiction, so none of it is real, of course. The pairing is EriSol, which will become obvious during the course of the story. I only plan on it being 2 chapters long, by the way. So here it is, chapter 1.
Chapter 1: Denial
You guess things could be worse. You could be alone on this meteor with no way to tell where you're going while a murderous tool that you may or may not have flushed feelings for is on the loose along with an insane murderous clown. Oh wait, you've just described your current situation. Fuck. It also doesn't help that you're now completely blind and KK abandoned you. But, it's okay. Everything will be fine. At least you don't have a lisp anymore and the voices of the imminently deceased have finally shut up. You can finally relax, if only a little bit. As you walk into ANOTHER wall and fall on your ass again, you find your pathetically fake optimism crumble. You just can't seem to continue being in denial about how everything is totally okay when your life is quickly falling to pieces. KK freaked out and ran away when he heard honking, leaving you alone. AA is dead. Eridan (or CA, as you usually call him) hates you and went insane, killing FF and Kanaya, along with blinding you. And yet you can't hate him. Quite the opposite, actually. As you're thinking these things, you're walking around this gigantic laboratory that you and your eleven other friends have been calling home ever since SGRUB ended.
You're snapped out of your somewhat morbid thoughts as you trip over something. You have no idea what it could be, but you take a moment to clear your head before you start using your sense of smell. That's how TZ sees, isn't it? Maybe it will work for you as well. The room smells strongly of fish and coffee, and your cardio vascular organ stops.
"CA?" You call out, helplessly.
You hear nothing but the sound of your own breathing. It is deathly quiet in this room, which scares you. Without thinking, you begin to touch what you tripped over before. You find yourself struggling for air as you feel his webbed fingers, which are cold as death. You refuse to believe that this could be Eridan, or that he is dead. That's impossible, you assure yourself. Though, you can feel doubt gnawing at your thinkpan as you continue to feel along his chest, to his ugly striped scarf and finally you touch along his face, feeling the fins on the sides of his head. You can also feel his stupid hipster glasses, along with that stupid butt chin of his that you and KK sometimes make fun of, when he comes up in conversation.
You would cry if it was possible, but you no longer have eyes, due to Eridan's 'white science.' Bull shit, it was magic, Eridan was just being a retard as always. He's not BREATHING and you're not fully sure you're still breathing either. You can feel your body go numb, and you can no longer feel anything. You're not able to comprehend this, not able to truly face the facts just yet.
When you finally stop being in denial, you numbly lean down and kiss him, trembling as you do so. You know it's no use, since all the dream selves are dead, but you do it anyway hoping for a miracle. You shift yourself, so that his head is in your lap and you just sit there, hoping that maybe you were wrong. Maybe he's not dead. Perhaps he's just asleep and you're just being a total fucking moron for even worrying. He'll wake up and snap at you for being such an idiot and then he'll wonder what happened to your eyes, because he never saw the results of what he did to you. Maybe it was only temporary insanity, and he won't attack you again. Maybe he's even SORRY for what he did. Maybe he won't join Bec Noir after all, won't truly betray you for the enemy. Maybe you've gone completely crazy from misery and you're just kidding yourself.
After what seems like eternity, you fall asleep, unconsciousness claiming you…
And that's it! Please leave comments. I'd love to hear your thoughts and also, if you have any constructive criticism, please let me know. Thanks for reading this! I'll have chapter 2 up as soon as possible.