Man, it's been a real long time since I even went on fanfiction itself but a new story just popped into my mind and I hope you guys enjoy it.
My previous username was overrated6464, letting you guys know for my past readers out there.
Yes, I know "Traumatized Love" is discontinued... I seriously forgot what I had planned for the drama of the triangle love that formed but I do know what ending I had for it. But seriously everything of how I was going to put it together was challenging for me and soon I just decided to discontinue it.
But I will not be dropping this one, I do have a plan all From beginning to end. Even though making the chapters pretty lengthy is hard and I have a thing where I do rush my stories. So, pacing the story is a challenge for me and I would accept any pointers on how to pace a story without it seeming very rushed.
Hope you enjoy XD. Disclaimer: Hiro Mashima owns Fairy tail.
What lies behind a smile, is a life that you haven't seen.
In a small apartment building lives a blonde and her son. Now the blonde is an 18 year old senior at high school, she actually just recently moved to Magnolia to "start a new life" as she would tell herself and her name is Lucy Hearfilia. Her son is six years old in first grade, now he has blonde hair just like his mom and he mostly has her features as well. He has blue eyes that are neither from his mom or dad... Not that he knows who his father is anyways. Oh, yea his name is...
"Ezekiel!" Lucy shouted for him "Hurry up and get ready! I need to get you to school quickly!" Lucy was scavenging around the house for her keys, backpack, Ezekiel's backpack, and quickly writing a note explaining Ezekiel's absents. Which is that he has asthma and to make sure he doesn't play too hard and she put down her contact information as well. Now she does have the doctors note but she wanted to write her own note just to be extra sure they understand, him being her first child and all.
"I'm almost done mommy, I'm just putting my shoes on right now!" Ezekiel hurriedly put his shoes on and ran out his room and towards his mom, grabbing his backpack that she held out for him to grab while she finished up the note. She grabs the keys and heads towards the door with Ezekiel close behind her.
"Ok ok... Where the keys!? I just had them!" She panicked trying to look for the keys frantically. Ezekiel goes up to her and taps her. She turns around to face him and he grabs her hand calmly and takes the keys from her palm. "Oh, hehe." She chuckles awkwardly, feeling embarrassed about her recent action.
Ezekiel just shakes his head and heads towards the door with Lucy close behind him. He opens the door and lets her out first like a good mini gentleman, closing the door after himself locking it and hands Lucy her keys. 'It's like he is the parent and I'm the child.' Lucy pouted.
"You have your keys right, so you can open the door when the babysitter comes to pick you up?" He nodded his head. " I always put it back inside my bag mommy. Unlike you who leaves it everywhere." He laughs and Lucy just glared playfully at him.
"Oh hush you little rascal." She nudges him towards the car and he runs off towards it. Lucy speed walks her way there because she doesn't like running, it makes her feel stupid every time she does. They both got in the car and Lucy drove off towards his daycare, dropping him off as soon as she got there, making her way towards her school. Fairy high school home of the fairy with a tail also known as Fairy Tail. They are most known for their mythical mascot and they're sports winning streaks.
She parked her car in her student parking spot. She took a huge inhale and a huge exhale dreading her day here like any other day. Not that anything is new, she seems to be a bully target no matter what school she went to since back in elementary. She would've let herself into a deep depression if it wasn't for her son. Right now he is holding the key to the locked door named death. Meaning if he dies then so will she, for he is her pride and joy. That reason and that reason alone is why she is still breathing right now and not buried underground lifeless.
When she was little her mom ran away and her dad... Well, that is something I can't say. Not until she says it first. Any who...
Lucy walks into the school, heading towards her locker. She opens it and goes into her bag ready to grab her snacks putting them in her locker for later when she gets snaky but, nope~ she forgot them along with her morning coffee.
"Ugh I hate when I have to rush, I'm always forgetting something" she sighs then realizes "Oh my gosh, I forgot to pack his lunch. DARN IT!" She finished taking her stuff out and was about to close the locker until...
"Oh well, lookie here. If it isn't Lucy Heartfilia, the transfer student who never gets hurt and always smiles." Natsu Dragneel, the star pink haired football player teased as he slams her locker shut, causing her flinched from the sudden bang. "You little masochist." He smirked as his partners in crime walked up.
Which consisted of Grey Fullbuster; the star basketball player, Lisanna Strauss; the head cheerleader who has a crush on Natsu, and Gajeel Redfox; the quarterback and Natsu's friendly rival, along with Levy Mcgarden; Gajeel's bookworm girlfriend. The last two don't bully her like the first three because they rather spend time with each other then mess with Lucy.
Lucy forces a smile out of habit, a really bad habit. "I don't really think I'm a masochist. I don't feel excitement getting hurt, Mr. Dragneel. Now please excuse me, Imma go to class right now." Lucy tried to force her way through but Natsu grabbed her arm, making her stop in her tracks. She turns to face him, still smiling. "Yes?" She asks, wanting him to let go of her already.
"They have some surprise for you Lu-chan. I don't know what it is." Levy said nonchalantly, with her head in a book. She seemed very interested in the book that she didn't even make a sudden movement when Gajeel threw her over his shoulders and walked off to the roof where Levy sits with her legs out and Gajeel naps laying on her lap while she reads her book and unconsciously brushes through his hair.
The other three just watched their petite friend being carried away by their giant friend. Using that chance, Lucy attempts to slip away from them but to no avail. "Where you think you're going?" Lisanna caught her trying to sneak away. "Didn't you hear Levy? We have a surprise for you." Lisanna reminded, then starts chuckling to herself. Grey grabs Lucy's hand "Let me escort you, my lady." Grey bowed and Lucy can obviously see his smirk.
"Then allow me to lead the way," Natsu said and they all followed. Despite how reluctant Lucy is, the way they're heading towards is her classroom, which is also their classroom.
"I love surprises," Lucy said sarcastically. Natsu looks back at her, trying to see if her expression changed in any way but she still smiling like if her life is the greatest. That irritates him really bad, she must have a fantastic life out of school to be smiling no matter what. He smirked because the surprise they have for her will surely make her cry and depressed.
They made it to the classroom right before the door. "You ready?" Grey asked with that smirk still plastered on his face. Natsu opens the door, Lisanna went in first then Grey still holding onto Lucy then Natsu, as he closes the door behind them.
"Surprise!" Everyone in the class shouted. Lucy's eyes widen, for just a split second she showed her hurt but quickly the smile came to cover it up, leaving no one to notice the hurt expression. On the blackboard, was messages written for her by her classmates saying; die, kill yourself, your not wanted, why are you still breathing, whore, slut, but the one message that actually made her angry was NOT EVERYONE HAS A GREAT LIFE LIKE YOU!
Lucy is furious but she doesn't show it. 'What do they know!?' Lucy could feel her mask slowly breaking.
Despite that, she still kept the smile on. "Thanks for the surprise guys," she walks to the board and grabs the eraser to clean it "But we should clean this up before the teacher sees it."
Everyone stood in shock, no one didn't expect her to continue acting like this is all okay. Natsu was just extremely pissed that she didn't broke down like he was expecting. "What is wrong with this chic?" He mumbled to himself. He walks towards Lucy and pulls her out of the classroom shouting "CLEAN THAT BOARD UP BEFORE THE TEACHER COMES IN!"
He drags her to an empty classroom and pushes her on the wall, trapping her between his arms. "Why didn't you cry!? Why do you still continue to look like nothing is wrong!? Is your life that beautiful!?" He shouts at her, just yelling question after question not even giving her a chance to at least mumble an answer. "Ugh, your existence just pisses me off. It's like you don't understand what it's like trying to survive in this world!"
Lucy looks up at him and says "Maybe you're right, maybe your wrong. No one knows how I live and I don't want them to, that includes you. If you're going through something Natsu." She cups his cheek with one hand "Then sincerely I hope that it gets better. No one deserves to live a harsh life but it happens to them whether they like it or not." She sees his shocked face. "I'm sorry for being a burden to you." 'I'm sorry for being a burden from the very start of my own existence.'
Natsu was still angry. "Listen, little hoe, I don't need your damn pity! Your the one who needs pity, being bullied by basically the whole school ever since you transferred here! Freaking five months, I'm surprised you haven't ended your life already." he chuckled like a psycho, trying to get Lucy to show him sadness, anger, depression. He wants to see her crushed by him. In all honesty, he doesn't even know when this thought started to become a goal for him but he sure as hell was going to achieve it.
Lucy was done, just this once she will show him how angry she is and then go back to being happy no matter what. "WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW!? HAVE YOU LIVED MY LIFE? HAVE YOU WALKED IN MY SHOES? DO YOU KNOW EVERYTHING I ACTUALLY GO THROUGH? DO YOU KNOW MY PAST? HUH DRAGNEEL? YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME SO BACK UP AND WALK AWAY!" She pushed him off her and stormed out the empty classroom leaving Natsu by himself.
"Well damn," was all he that left his mouth before heading to class. He felt accomplished yet not satisfied. Natsu walks into class, he sees Lucy taking notes and looking happy as ever like if what just happened never actually took place. That made him upset and frustrated, the teacher told him to take his seat and begin working.
The rest of Lucy's school day was dreadful. Everyone continued to verbally and physically bully her and she was just thankful to have it done and over with. She drives home, receiving a text from the babysitter, Minerva, saying that she just picked up Ezekiel and is heading to her house.
Lucy arrives home before the babysitter and starts getting ready for work. She finished changing and heads out to her job at a cafe, where she works as a waitress.
Arriving at the cafe, Lucy receives another text from Minerva saying that she and her son are both at home safe and sound. Lucy walks into the cafe and clocked in just in time. "Hey, Lucy." Her co-worker greeted. Lucy is grateful that her co-workers don't treat her bad like her classmates. "Hey Erza, how was your day?" Lucy asked, starting up a conversation. She puts on her apron and starts walking towards a table. Even though they aren't allowed to have a conversation while waitressing tables, the two of them still do it.
"Good, that blue haired boy with the tattoo around his eye came by again and we chatted for a bit... of course I got yelled at by the company owner." Erza blushed a little thinking about him. Lucy giggles then realizes "Wait Igneel came by? Or his wife, Grandeeny?"
"Both, but Grandeeny was the one who yelled at me to serve the other tables, then when my break came she was asking so many questions about him." She said thinking back to the moment. Lucy began laughing while writing the tables order down "Man, Grandeeny sure knows how to separate work and personal stuff."
"Honestly, then Igneel comes in talking about how I'm too young to be dating. Like I'm eighteen Lucy~" Erza pouts. Lucy puts up the order for the chef to prepare the customer's food. "So~" Lucy starts taking another tables order "Did he asked you out? Hmmm~" she teased. Erza blushes even harder if this goes on, a lot of blood is going to rise to her face. "No, I haven't even gotten his name yet."
"YOU BETTER NOT!" A male voiced roared causing everyone's attention to be on him. Realizing this, he clears his throat "I apologize, please continue eating." He makes his way towards Erza and Lucy who happen to be serving tables that were next to each other. "I don't want you dating any stranger. Same goes to you, Lucy. You both are like daughters to me, don't grow up and leave papa for some boy." The man began sniffling.
"Igneel, we aren't your kids." Lucy chuckled "Besides, I encourage Erza's date and I bet Grandeeney does too." The blonde walked over to the chef to pick up a tables order and carried it towards them. "Yea, besides I have a crush on him," Erza mumbled to herself.
"You have a what!? And besides, I don't care if Grandeeny encourages or not if papa says no, then it's a no... she has a what!?" Igneel continues bickering.
Lucy hands the order to the table "Here you go, guys." She sets down their order and continues to the next table. "Igneel doesn't you have company owner business to do," Lucy mentions.
"Oh, yea... If I see that boy, I'm going to kick him out." He huffs and heads to the back where his office is. Erza and Lucy laughed at Igneel, both of them love their boss so much, he is very kind and treats them well.
Lucy hasn't told her bosses or Erza anything about her family life cause, she wants to keep that a secret. Lucy doesn't want to burden anyone with her family problems. She suddenly thought about Natsu... and she notices that she is a burden to people even without telling them her problems. With that thought, she sighs and continues working.
"Lucy, how was school?" Grandeeney asked as she walks into the shop with a latte in her hand. Lucy always wondered why Grandeeny walks in with a latte when they sell them here in the cafe and Grandeeney could just get them for free.
"School was great. Learn more stuff every day." Lucy made sure not to look face to face with Grandeeny as she lied. Grandeeny felt like there was something wrong with that answer but she doesn't ask because she can tell that the blonde wouldn't tell her even if she did.
"Well, see you Grandeeney, bye Erza and tell Igneel I said bye to him as well." She said her farewells as she clocks out and heads home. She texted Minerva that she is almost home. She stops at a red light and sighs once again, trying to relief her stress. She looks to the side and sees a familiar figure with pink hair, she immediatly recognized who it was 'Natsu,' she sees that he is with some friends, they're coming out of a karaoke place.
The blonde teen always wanted to hang with friends, having a lack of responsibilities, getting in trouble with her parents, the age of not having a child but thinking of what you will name your future one. All the things she wants is only going to stay as a dream to never come true. Lucy truly loves Ezekiel and right now he is the main priority, study's are not because she smart enough as it is. That just leaves bill's, babysitter, work as secondary importance.
Lucy arrives at the house and gives Minerva her pay of the month. "Sorry, the pay isn't as much as it's supposed to be. Got a lower paycheck since I missed a day taking care of Ezekiel." Minerva smiles "It's okay, I understand." She left the house and as soon as she closed the door, her smile got replaced with a frown "Tch, what am I working for, if I'm not getting my expected pay." The grouchy woman left to her home.
"Hey mommy, I did my homework." Ezekiel runs up with his math homework, a huge grin plastered on his face. "Great job sweetie." Lucy picks him up and starts tickling him, both of them laughing and enjoying their time. Though, the time isn't going to last because it's about nightfall and as soon as the blonde teen finishes the leftovers, she will have an hour or two to spend with her son.
She spent the remaining time before bedtime playing with her son, tutoring him a little, and just relaxing. "Sweetie it's time to sleep." Ezekiel's once smiling face turned to a frown. "I don't want to..." He held in his words and just looked up with begging eyes "Can I sleep with you?" Lucy's heart broke, she wishes so much to spend more time with him, but, she can't, she has to work to provide for him and herself.
"Of course sweetie." They went to Lucy's room and held hands while sleeping the night away.
Well, that's the first chapter. I know a whole lot just happened just for a chapter one but there's a lot more to come.
I can't promise frequent updates because of school but I'm a try my best
Love you guys so much. Till next time ;)