Chapter 1
(Bella's Point of View)
I opened my eyes to the sound of a faint humming in the right side of my ear, and rolled over to see Edward smiling at me with his wonderful crooked smile. "Good Morning, Love." He said brushing a loose piece of hair out of my face. "Morning," the sound of my voice still startled me when I heard the way it sounded ever since I had been turned into a vampire. "Still new to you?" He asked brushing yet another piece of my dark hair out of the way. "A little, it's strange." I said sitting up and leaning against the back board of the bed. "You'll get used to it eventually." I smiled and decided to put some clothes on and head into the house to see what the rest of the family was doing. "Going inside?" Edward asked copying my movements as he put clothes on as well. "Yea, I'm going to see how Renesme and Rosalie are doing." Edward pulled an off-white shirt over his head and smiled again as he held the door open for me. It was beautiful outside for a change. The air was fresh and the sun was beaming. Not a cloud in the sky, the warm breeze felt lovely against my cold skin. I decided to walk slowly to the Cullen house so I could enjoy this rare weather. I was half way to the house when I noticed a bright sparkly light from the corner of my eye in the distance. I turned slightly to see Jasper sitting on an old tree trunk staring out blankly into the distance. My heart felt like it dropped to the pit of my stomach as I looked at the beautiful vampire. I felt Edward put his hand on my shoulder. "Let him be." He murmured into my ear softly. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't. About 2 years ago, Alice decided to was best if she left the family. She was sick of not knowing 100 percent of her past, and needed to go try and fit all of the missing puzzle pieces together. It broke her heart into a million tiny pieces as she had to leave Jasper, but it was the only way she could keep living. "You can't move forward to the future, if your still being dragged back by your past." She said lightly in her tiny singing voice before she had vanished into the distance. She wasn't coming back, and we all knew that. Except Jasper, who still had hope to see her beautiful pixie like face again. They were supposed to be bonded together, forever. They couldn't be one without the other. And yet it happened. And we all missed her with every bit of our hearts. I looked at the ground, trying to distract my vision of the torn apart man sitting in the distance. Even though he looked like he had just witnessed everyone he had ever loved slaughtered in front of him, he still looked beautiful sparkling in the sun. When I looked his eyes met Edwards and mine, and then he was gone. Just like that, with such quick movement he had disappeared somewhere. "How much longer will he be like this for?" I asked grabbing Edwards hand. "I'm going to assume forever. Him and Alice were meant to be together. Not apart. And now, he has nothing. I don't want to even begin to imagine how he feels. If I lost you like he lost Alice, I would have to die. I don't understand how he has kept himself alive all this time." I frowned, feeling my heart drop again, thinking of what a mess I would be if I had ever lost Edward. A faint, blurry, painful memory from the past came to mind. A shook the memory and started inside. When we walked inside Renesme came running over to me arms open for me to pick her up. "Have you seen Jasper?" Carlisle asked looking out one of the windows. I looked around as the room went silent, and then I saw Esme's face turn into a horribly sad expression, as she put her hands to her face and turned to quickly leave the room. She missed her daughter so much, and missed the way Jasper used to be as well. "Yes, he was outside sitting near a tree." Edward said walking up to his father. "I see. How is he today?" He asked quietly. "The same." I managed to choke out, having memories of Alice spring back. There was a long almost awkward silence as Emmett rolled into the room. "Maybe we should take him hunting? He hasn't had much to eat the past few weeks. He's probably dying of h - " He stopped dead in middle of his sentence as we all heard a deep snarl coming from somewhere outside. It was Jasper, he had heard our conversation. Since Alice left, everything was difficult for Jasper. It was almost as if Alice created an invisible barrier around Jasper that helped stop him from attacking humans and drinking their blood. Even though it had been years, Jasper had still had a really hard time stopping himself from hurting humans and avoiding the smell of them. Alice made it easier for him, and now that she was gone it was much harder. A few months back Edward, Emmett, Jasper and I had gone hunting in the forest. Emmett had just taken down a huge bear and was about to sink his teeth into the side of the animals neck when we heard a ripping sound coming from inside Jasper. Before we could adjust to what has happening he was gone. "Run after him!" Edward yelled in a panic as we bolted after him. It was too late by the time we got there. Jasper was standing over a hiker who looked like he had been looking for something he dropped in the leaves. The look on the hikers face was the most horrified expression I have ever seen, and it will be burned into the back of my head for the rest of my life. "No!" Edward and Emmett both yelled at the same time as I stared in horror. But before the could do anything Jasper picked the man up by his throat, and sunk his teeth into the pale skin of his neck. The man's scream faded into a silent moan as his eyes rolled into the back of his head as Jasper snapped his neck and whipped the blood from the corner of his mouth. At that moment he didn't look like the calm Jasper we all knew, he looked like a monster from a horrid nightmare. His eyes weren't the beautiful normal gold for some reason, they were a dark almost black red. He looked vicious. Edward took a step back from him, looking almost frightened. Emmett of course took a step forward. "What the hell are you doing!?" He snarled at Jasper. Everything went silent except for Emmett's heavy, impatient breathing. Jasper looked down at the lifeless man and froze, then looked back at us. His face wasn't scary anymore, it looked terrified, and alone. It looked like he wanted to say something but the words were lost in the thick humans blood that he had just consumed. Before we knew it he turned and made a run for it. I snapped out of my flash back and looked out the window, even though I couldn't see Jasper I could sense he was near. It wasn't the first time Jasper slipped up like how he did in the forest. He had killed 3 other humans before that. Two young, teenage boys, and a middle aged women. When I thought about how easily their lives were taken from them it made me cringe. These people had parents, children, pets, people who loved them, who needed them. And now they were gone, just like that. It was hard to think about. "Sorry…" Emmett said quietly. Rosalie put her arms on his giant shoulders and rested her head on his back. "It's not your fault." Her beautiful voice said. "I want the old Jasper back." Emmett said placing his hands on Rosalie's. "We all do, but he needs to grieve, and we have to give him all the time he needs. Put yourself in his position. He's hurting more then we can even imagine." Carlisle said looking down for a moment.