The morning light streamed in through the window, hitting the sleeping blonde. He opened his eyes and instantly regretted it, his head ached and the world spun. He threw his arm over his eyes hoping to make the spinning go away.

He lay there breathing slowly to try and make the nauseous feeling go away. Never again would he accept a drinking challenge from Nami. Who was he kidding he could never say no to her.

He caught a delicate and subtle scent, something a beautiful woman would wear but he knew neither of his crewmates wore it. He slowly moved his arm letting his eyes adjust to the light. As the world settled and began to focus, he could make out a figure lying next to him. Long silky black hair, her skin pale against the dark sheets she was curled up in; Sanji couldn't believe his luck to be sleeping next to such beauty.

Now he just had to hope that Zoro hadn't seen him leave with her. He had a pretty sweet deal with him, he could flirt and worship woman to his hearts desire. They kept the fact they were sleeping together was kept quiet and all of this on the promise that he would only sleep with Zoro. Well he'd definitely fucked that up now, he could only hope he hadn't found out.

He closed his eyes, trying to remember what had happened last night.

Nami had came over to him whilst he had been flirting with a group of local woman. The island had a lot of beautiful woman and Sanji had enjoyed the attention.

'Sanji we need another for the drinking game' Nami leaned over to whisper in his ear giving him a prime view down her top 'Just stay in as long as you can I'm going to make a fortune out of that lot'

Sanji jumped out his seat wiping away the blood from his nose 'Anything for you Nami-swan' he crowed rushing over to her table.

He sat down next to Zoro, it was a drinking game of course Zoro was taking part.

The guilt was beginning to take it's toll as he searched for his clothes, whilst searching he found a used condom wrapper, well at least he'd been safe. He found his suit dumped on a seat in the corner, he got dressed buttoning up his yellow shirt not bothering with the top button or tucking it in when he pulled on his trousers. He folded up his tie putting it in his pocket, as he pulled out his pack of cigarettes. He took one last look at the beautiful woman lying in the bed, he sighed and rubbed his hand over eyes; he was tired, hungover and he wasn't sure if the twisting sick feeling in his stomach was guilt, too much alcohol or both.

He placed the cigarette in his mouth leaving it unlit whilst he bought water from a nearby shop, he found a bench and sat down to smoke and drink his water. He began trying to remember more of last night, how had he ended up with…...crap he couldn't remember her name and had Zoro been there when he left with her.

Sanji's world was spinning, how could such a delicate flower drink so much and be fine; He figured that Zoro being somehow related to moss could just absorb the alcohol and be unaffected.

He decided it was time to call it quits and went back to the group of beautiful woman. Nami grinned at him, it was only her, Zoro and one other local left in the game; If Zoro won the Beris went to Nami for his debt so she was guaranteed the money at this point.

Sitting with the ladies he drank more and the world became blurrier, he lost track of time and drinks. He felt the sensation of a hand slowly caressing his leg, a beautiful whisper in his ear promising so much if he went back to her place. Part of him so badly wanted to refuse, he was with Zoro as much as that was a secret; Zoro had been loyal the two years they had been apart and had believed Sanji, when he had claimed the same. It had been the truth of course but Zoro didn't need to know about the island he had been on, just as he turned to say no, her hand moved to his groin and her mouth was on his. Sanji's worries vanished, he happily followed his angel as she left the bar, not even the flash of green he saw at the bar could affect him now.

God-dammit Zoro had been there when he'd left, and he hadn't even been subtle about it. So lying to him wasn't an option, he would just have to try and explain, maybe promise never to drink that much again. He sighed and ran his hand through hair, he thought about how tough Zoro had been when Usopp had challenged Luffy; He was going to have to beg forgiveness to get the Marimo to even consider forgiving him. Sanji's chest ached at the realisation that he and Zoro were probably over; Zoro was one of the most loyal people he had ever met and he would…..had sacrificed himself for the crew. Sanji shuddered remembering waking up and finding him barely alive, that should have been him if Zoro hadn't knocked him out. They'd barely had anytime together before they had been separated by Kuma, two years he'd waited to see him again.

Sanji let his head fall into his hands as panic began to set in, no he wouldn't let it end this way. They were going to be setting off today, Zoro would be trapped on the ship with him; He would apologise as much as was needed, he would even promise to tell the crew about him. Sanji stood up with a new conviction he could fix this, he would fix this. He stubbed out his cigarette and headed for the Thousand Sunny.

When he arrived at the ship he picked out a clean suit, this time he choose a grey shirt with a bluey grey tie. He went for a shower, got himself dressed back to his immaculate standards and dried his hair so it sat perfectly over his eye. When he returned to the deck, the Sunny was already sailing, Luffy was sitting on the lions head staring at the ocean. Sanji lit a new cigarette on his way to the kitchen to make a late lunch for the crew, he found it odd that Luffy wasn't jumping around demanding meat; he guessed Nami had fed him before they boarded as he obviously hadn't been here to make breakfast.

When lunch was ready Sanji called for the crew to come and eat, as the table filled with the crew, there was two noticeable absences. Brook was on watch, Sanji had taken him his food whilst he waited for the others. No Zoro made Sanji's stomach twist, he must be avoiding him but the absence that made everyone round the table tense was Luffy. Never had Sanji known him to skip a meal, he had seen him eating in his sleep. The crew abandoned their meals and went out to find their Captain, he was still on the lion head.

'Luffy are you okay?' Usopp called up to his captain.

When Luffy didn't respond it was Robin who asked next

'Where is Kenshi-san?'

Everyone stared at Robin until Luffy answered.

'He's left' Luffy still kept staring ahead

Sanji could feel the panic come rushing back, his chest tightened and he fought to keep his breathing normal.

'What do you mean? Luffy if you left him on that island just go back and get him'

'He's not on the island anymore' Luffy lowered his hat over his eyes 'He left last night on another boat'

Chopper looked like he was about to cry. What the hell was happening?

'You're kidding right Luffy' Even Usopp sounded panicked

'Luffy explain what's going on?' Nami demanded

'He came to me last night, told me he couldn't stay on the ship anymore. He wouldn't tell me why or what had happened.' He could see Luffy tensing up 'I couldn't get him to stay, so I told him he would always be my first mate and that when he was ready he should come back.'

Sanji couldn't be sure but he was pretty sure Luffy was crying, realising their Captain wasn't lying seemed to set everyone else off. Sanji fought off the overwhelming sadness he needed to talk to Luffy, maybe he could put this right.

The rest of the crew headed to the kitchen to eat their abandoned food, Sanji stayed back. 'Luffy can we talk?

Luffy finally came down, his eyes red from crying but serious. He held Sanji's shoulder and pulled him close enough to whisper into Sanji's ear, his grip was like iron.

'I know what you're going to say, Zoro told me everything' Luffy's grip tightened 'He told me not to tell anyone else and to' Luffy paused 'He said he had to go because he would hurt you and out of all of us he's the only one who can complete his dream alone' Luffy let go of his shoulder and let his head fall against Sanji's shoulder. 'He's my nakama, I want him back. He has to come back Sanji' He could feel Luffy crying into his shoulder and finally even Sanji couldn't hold back anymore.

'I'm sorry Luffy please, let me try and fix this.' he begged. His chest felt like it was trying to stop him breathing as guilt and anxiety crushed in on him.

Someday Sanji swore to himself he would find his shitty swordsman and no matter what it cost him, he would give Luffy back his first mate.