AUTHORS NOTE: (PLEASE READ TO UNDERSTAND THE STORY!~):
Hehe, hey fan fiction people. This is my first Yaoi Fanfiction ever. And Anime fan fiction ever.U-um...this is also my first fanfiction NOT rated M!~ *happy* :D And like, I'm totally nervous. Sorry for spelling mistakes at stuff... I don't mean to do it!(Please tell me what I can improve on, what you like, etc. :) Thanks!~
Note: This does contain the Cold War, but not really...(was that confusing?) Read on, see what I mean. I don't support it really that much, but its an okay pairing. But I love Rochu. Like to a point till its insane.
P.S. Rochu is love. XD
"IN OTHER WORDS I GET TO BE THE HERO!" America shouted, after the long speech. He looked at Russia and mumbled, "And Russia too..."
My fists clenched as Russia smiled at America. America flushed slightly and continued talking. I looked away from there silent exchange, looking at England. England was looking away, sipping his tea, completely relaxed. I could note how he gripped his cup more than necessary, how his eyes tightened whenever Russia spoke. He was such a Tsun...Tsun...Whatever Japan calls him, aru..America announced that the meeting was over, claiming he wanted donuts. He whispered something to Russia.
It's not fair, aru.
Russia smiled the smile that could make anyone's knees weak. America kissed his cheek and left. My stomach felt uneasy, as I rose up, wanting to leave immediately. I almost ran out. I could hold my tears until I reached home.
"Ch-china dah! Slow down!" Russia yelled after me as I left the building. I froze.
Russia wants to talk to me aru..to me aru...not him aru...
I turned around having the coy blush on my face, "Y-yes, aru?" I trembled slightly.
"Would you like to join us dah? I don't want America to eat to much...he might get a stomach ache dah..." He frowned slightly. R-russia was inviting me to join him...and America, aru.
I looked away and blushed. I didn't like donuts. They were too sweet and fried. America had such strange eating habits...
"And also," Russia continued, a bit sheepish, "I don't really like donuts dah...they are so sweet," My breath sped as I felt myself sweat. I actually have something in common with him. Something we could talk about. But what kind of idiot would talk about donuts aru? I shook my head.
"No thank you aru, I don't really like donuts either," I blushed and looked down. Stop blushing aru. I tried to tell myself.
I saw him darken slightly for a second but then he smiled, "That's okay, dah...maybe next time," He turned around and left. I froze. I should have said yes. Why did I turn him down, aru.?
England passed me muttering, "It's no fair,"
I smiled and nodded sadly, "No its not," He didn't give a backwards glance as he heard me and left, murmuring, "Not now mint-bunny..." I frowned. England was probably insane or something...or he had friends I could not see...it could be both aru...
I made it to my room, ignoring the loud havoc my family created. If Russia and I were married aru...we could probably keep them quiet...I could be the waifu aru...and Russia would be-
I shook my head. No point in thinking of something that won't come true anyway. I went inside my room and locked the door. I sank to the ground, my legs refusing to support me as I started to cry convulsively.
So much time passed as my tears turned into tiny whimpers and I heard the faint knocking vibrate through the walls.
"A-aniki? Open the door...you're scaring me..." Korea said, tugging the door. I kept silent. I couldn't face them like this.
"He probably went to sleep," Taiwan said, the annoyance in her voice was still visible.
"Without anything to eat? …...I guess," Japan sighed as I heard feet shuffle. I curled up into a ball trembling.
No one could help me...no one could help me aru...I had no idea how much times passed...no one ca-
There were 3 knocks on the door. "China dah?" I closed my eyes. It was probably an illusion, nothing more.
"He is not responding dah..." There was a quiet whisper and shuffling of feet. "China I know you're are in there dah...come out before I tear the door down, korukoru..." I flinched. My eyes flashed open as I stumbled to my feet.
"I-I-I'll be out in a minute, aru!" I yelled back. I smoothed my hair nervously,washing my face in the bathroom. I sighed and simply slid off the band and shook my hair out. (8DDDDDDD) I opened the door.
"AAAANIIIIKIIIIII!" I was pushed to the floor by none other. He tightened his arms around me.
"AIYAAA!" I shrieked. Everyone else came in surrounding me, but Russia rested against the door frame.
"Were you sleeping? Your eyes look a bit red.." Vietnam said nervously. I nodded, smiling straight face. Being the oldest meant you had to hide pain, aru.No one seemed to notice that I was crying.
"I told you Russia would work..." Japan muttered.
"Lets get you some tea, you haven't eaten anything have you ana?" Thailand smiled, helping me up. I walked passed Russia feeling his scarf brush past me. The soft, delicate scarf, one that I would love to cuddle in all day, talking with Russia aru...I was letting my imagination out of hand. The next thing I knew, I was on the sofa, sitting across from Russia, a cup of tea in my hands. I drank, realizing how dehydrated I actually was.
"W-well I'm going to sleep...Goodnight Nii-san..." Vietnam kissed my cheek and left, followed closely by Taiwan. Everyone followed after them. Me and Russia were alone. In a room aru.
"S-so why did you come aru?" I was truly curious, "Weren't you supposed to go to America's aru?" Russia's face darkened.
"He said he was busy, dah, and wouldn't tell me why.." I trembled. Why would America ignore Russia? Didn't he realize how lucky he is aru?
"S-so you came here out of boredom, aru?" I guessed.
"No, dah. I came because..." He looked at me in the eye, "Y-you're the only other person who seems to enjoy my company, dah..." For some reason my heart swelled when I heard this. In a good and bad way.
"O-oh, aru..." My throat felt tight. I wanted to tell him right now, so much.
I sipped my tea, as Russia mimicked me. I smiled a little. He looked so adorable trying to copy my movements. I wonder what he would do if I kissed him aru...
He would probably hate me and tell everyone how much of a creep I was. My lower lip trembled. No crying. Not one tear. I hugged my knees closer to my chest and looked down at the cup.
"Ch-china, dah? You do like me right, dah?" He said uncertainly. I looked up in shock.
" Why wouldn't I aru? Of course I like you!" A bit more then I should...I tried to smile but my heart translated it into a grimace.
"Then why do you look so upset dah? Did something happened?" He looked at me concerned, as my heart fluttered. E-everything happened Russia-san. H-heart break happened Russia, aru.
"Everything is fine aru...why would anything be wrong?" I lied, looking down. Russia noticed, so I quickly added, "Korea is just a bit to much that's all, he tires me out so quickly aru..." Russia nodded.
"Oh Psshh...yea right..." Korea seethed silently.
Russia stood up, placing the tea on the table, "I should get going, dah," He smiled. I panicked.
"Wh-what? You just came aru!" I said frantically. Don't go aru...Don't go..don't go...
He looked at me strangely as I blushed looking down. I hadn't realized I grabbed his arm. His arm. I actually got to touch it aru...How desperate am I?
"Whatever you like dah," He smiled cheerfully. W-whatever I like? C-can I ask for happiness aru? O-or you?
"B-but Aniki!" Korea stumbled out, "I don't want to share with him! We turned the guest room into the manga room, remember?"
"Y-yea!" Taiwan said, echoed by Vietnam. Thailand and HK nodded there heads. Japan looked down and murmured a "yes" as well.
"O-oh, sorry Russia, I guess I forgot aru..." I said. So he wasn't going to stay aru...
"C-can I share with you dah?" He asked. H-he wants to share with me aru...
"Are you okay with that, aru?" He nodded happily.
"Whatever you like dah." My heart raced as I trembled.
"Okay Russia, you can sleep in my room while I sleep with Ani-"
"NO WAY! You molested him last time!" Vietnam smacked him.
"DID NOT!" Korea smacked her.
"H-hey...we have a guest over!" Taiwan chirped. I sighed.
" This way aru," I stepped passed them. I touched Japan's shoulder, " You sort this out please," He nodded. Russia followed a bit confused.
I opened my door and stepped inside, turning on the light, "Sorry if its a bit different aru," I fixed the sheets.
"I like it, dah..." He smiled politely. Smile that smile you give America aru...that smile should be mine aru...
He sat on the bed, loosening his scarf. He took off his coat and lying down on one side. He patted the space next to him.
"I-I have to change, aru..." I smiled nervously blushing. I grabbed more comfortable clothes and stopped. Stupidly I asked, "Y-you'll be here right here when I come back aru?" He smiled and nodded. I changed quickly, knowing that Russia would be waiting on the other side. I flung the door open.
"R-russia-san?" I asked breathlessly. He wasn't there. It was an illusion...Nothing so good could be true aru...
"I'm right here, dah," Came a soft voice in the shadows. He was staring at a painting I made of sun flowers. It was when I first realized that Russia-san liked sunflowers. I felt so happy before...I realized he liked someone else aru...
"Do you like it aru?" He nodded his head.
"Dah," Was all he said, "America got me a whole bunch of sunflowers last week, It was nice.." He trailed off as my smile faded. O-of course America would beat me aru.
His hands hesitantly ran across the huge painting, his expression unreadable. I gently placed a hand on his shoulder. I hope he didn't notice the trembling.
"Should we sleep aru?" I asked. He sighed and nodded. He laid on the bed as I brought the covers up just to the base of his neck. I was about to kiss his forehead. But I didn't. I wanted to touch his hair, his face, anything. The violet eyes followed me as I went to the door to check on my family. Korea was sprawled out on one of the couches, and Japan on the other, exhausted. Taiwan and Vietnam slept on the floor, neatly. HK sat silently reading with Thailand , who was listening to music looking over HK's shoulder. I took blankets from the closet and placed it gently on everyone. I offered the blanket to Thailand who dropped it on HK's shoulders. I took a step back. It was so peaceful. The only that was missing was me..., and Russia-san aru. I walked back slowly wrapping my arms around my waist unconsciously.
"It took you a while, dah" Russia-san complained. He was sitting upright. I smiled apologetically.
"Aiyaa, should I re-tuck you in again aru?" I teased. I brought the covers up again, my back of my fingers brushing against the scarf. He smiled childishly. I lay on the bed, pulling up the blanket till it reached the bottom of my nose and I curled up into ball. I sighed. Tonight was probably the only good night of sleep I would have in a while. I could feel Russia's warmth, the sound of his breathing. It was enough...for now aru.
Russia-san POV!~ 8DD
I lay on the bed staring at the painting. It was so pretty, seeming to pop out from the frame. It was surprising that China painted it by himself. I glanced at him. His back was to me, and he was curled up into a tight ball. His shoulders were slightly hunched which upset me. He was so tiny...and earlier when I talked to him he seemed...so sad dah...
China suddenly moved slightly, rolling over so he was facing me. His eyes looked wet but he was sleeping. He shuddered suddenly and whimpered slightly. I reached my hand out it cup his face, gently placing it on his cheek. He trembled slightly but his shoulders relaxed. I smiled and scooted closer to him. He seemed to be cold. I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him closer. He unconsciously placed a hand on my scarf, snuggling closer to me.
China is so cute dah~
A few minutes later he mumbled my name. I looked down at him. He was still sleeping but...he was smiling a little and his looked happy.
"Russia, aru..." He mumbled my name again and sighed. Why is he saying my name dah?
A few moments later he mumbled again. But he said something else, "Russia aru...Wǒ ài nǐ …." He wrapped his arms around me, unconsciously. Wǒ ài nǐ...? What does that mean dah? I buried my face in China's hair and went to sleep.
"I GET TO WAKE HIM UP!" I eyes flashed open as I heard Korea's voice just outside the door. China was holding my scarf, snuggled closely to my chest. I gently pried his fingers off and pushed him away slightly, getting up.
"You got to do that last time ana!" Thailand protested.
"No, it was Vietnam-"
"NO I DIDN'T"
"G-guys...you do realize that Russia-san is there too?"
Silence.
The door flung open, "ANNIIIKI!~" Korea burst in and jumped on the bed.
"AIYAA!" China yelled tumbling off. My eyes widened. China suddenly got up from the floor, with a murderous look. He grabbed Korea's ear and pulled.
"OWW! The hurts Aniki!" Korea whined.
China's eyes widened, "Really aru?" then narrowed, "For the last time Korea, don't wake me up like that!" Japan bowed. Taiwan flopped on the bed.
"I'm hungry Nii-san..." She muttered.
" Right aru.." He sighed and noticed me. He blinked and something set in his eyes, "O-oh..Russia-san...I..you...would you like something to eat aru?"
"Whatever you like dah," I said again. Whenever I said that, China would get a weird look on his face and blush. His family took there leave.
He is so cute, dah.
"R-right aru," He looked down and smiled and left.
"So what do you guys want for breakfast aru?" It felt nice...knowing Russia was in my room. Russia suddenly came down and sat on the chair. Everyone froze.
"D-did you sleep well Russia-san?" Japan asked nervously.
"I did dah," He looked at me as if sharing an inside joke. Had I done anything strange?
BANG. BANG. BANG. I jumped slightly at the bangs on the door.
"Talk about rude," Taiwan muttered as she went to answer the door.
"RUSSIA!" America screamed from the outside. My heart dropped. I couldn't breath. Why was America here aru?
"America dah?" Russia said confused, standing up. Everyone looked up startled.
"Where were you? I went to like, everyone's house, and you weren't there!" He said, coming in. He wrapped his arms around Russia in front of my whole family. There eyes went from me to them, to me again. All of them wore the same confused expression. Russia's arms wrapped around America as he murmured to him quietly. I shot them daggers. Wounded daggers, but they were still sharp enough.
"Eww...Aniki, they are spoiling my appetite.." Korea made a face. I mentally agreed.
"I made you breakfast and everything!~" America said excitedly. Russia forced a smile.
"You did, dah? I-it's not donuts is it?" He said, hiding his disgust perfectly.
"Of course not!~" America smiled and pulled Russia out of my house.
"B-bye Russia aru!" I managed to choke out. Wounded daggers huh? Made sense. Russia smiled at me swiftly.
"Later people." America said, slamming the door.
"Well that went well," Vietnam said, peeling her banana.
Err...yea...please review, tell me what you think, the next chapter will be up in no time!~ :)