Brother,
I should have been there with you,
I shouldn't have left to go see Exotica and Cassandra,
Even though it was girl talk
I should have brought you along,
But instead I told you
You wouldn't be interested
And left you in the den all alone.
I blocked my connection with you,
So I didn't have to listen to you complain,
Or to have you listen to my conversation.
I forgot about you as I talked to Cass and Exotica.
I came back that night,
But you weren't there,
I thought it was nothing,
I thought you had gotten bored
And walked off.
The next morning when you didn't show,
I should have been concerned,
But I thought you were just sulking and moping,
And that's why you blocked your connection with me,
How I wish I didn't think that now.
Munkustrap began to grow worried
When you didn't return that evening,
I told him you were probably moody,
Because no one wanted to talk to you,
Munkustrap wasn't convinced though,
But I got him to wait one more day before panicking.
I wish I had listened to him now,
I wish I had let him send out that search party for you.
The next day,
You still didn't show up.
We all began to grow worried,
Even me.
Munkustrap was pacing, he was scared.
He had no idea where you might have gone.
He brought together a search party,
But it was already too late.
Macavity appeared in the yard,
Sending everyone into a panic.
He just laughed and looked at us all,
His magma red eyes finally resting on me.
"You should have realised," He told us all, laughing cruelly,
Before dropping something on the ground.
He disappeared then.
And then I heard Demeter's scream.
I ran forward, falling to my knees beside you.
You were bloody, so bloody.
Your gentle emerald green eyes were closed,
And they would never open again.
I had never felt you so cold, never.
I hissed at any cat that tried to come near you,
But it was finally Munkustrap that talked to me,
I allowed him to lift you and carry you to Jenny's den.
He was crying silently as he carried you,
I don't think I had ever seen him cry before.
You were his friend,
He was in shock that you were dead,
That you had been murdered.
I watched as Jenny checked you over,
Sobbing softly,
She said your neck had been snapped,
But you had also been raped as well.
That made me lose it.
You had been a virgin when you left,
What those monsters did to you,
Maybe it was for the best that they killed you,
So you didn't have to deal with that horrible memory.
Munkustrap cleaned you,
You couldn't be buried covered in blood.
I offered to do it,
But Munkustrap shook his head,
Saying that it wasn't right for me to do it,
That it wasn't right for me to groom the blood
From your dead body.
Your funeral was the next day,
Everyone was still in shock,
Still in shock that you had been murdered,
A quiet, gentle Tom like you,
Had been murdered by Macavity.
I was crying as Munkustrap spoke about you,
Saying that you had been a good friend of his,
Saying that you didn't deserve this.
Afterwards, everyone came past me,
Giving me words of comfort,
Telling me that they were there,
If I needed them.
It was too late for that now,
They hadn't been there for you,
But I guess, neither had I.
I was the one, who left you alone,
I was the one that left you
Alone in our den.
I should have been there,
I should have been with you,
I should have stopped you leaving the yard,
I could have stopped Macavity taking you,
Stopped Macavity torturing you.
He had you from the moment you left the yard,
He had tortured you for two days,
And killed you before he brought you back home.
I should have let Munkustrap send that party looking for you,
But instead I told him you were just sulking,
It never occurred to me that you were being tortured.
I'm left alone now,
No longer connected with your mind,
I feel so empty,
I feel so alone.
I was so used to having you connected with me,
That when I lost you,
It hurt so bad.
You should still be my side,
Both moving in sync with one another,
But you're gone.
And it's my fault!
Brother,
I am so sorry!
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I have no idea where that came from…but it just appeared. If it made you sad…well, that was sort of my intention, but sorry :)
I might put Cori's view up, before he was murdered.
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Luv HGP!