Wishes Are Never Real
A/N: After today, I felt like writing a Justin Lowell drabble. I just truly hated how his father treated him and couldn't help but think that, that was why he is so mean to Matthew.
Justin Lowell hated Matthew Buchanan because of what he represented. He was a boy with a loving family. A mother and a father, uncles and aunts and cousins, and nieces. He had friends who cared so much for him. Justin didn't have any of that. His mother was dead, his father was abusive and acted as if he hated him. He wasn't even allowed to see the rest of his family. His father kept them away especially after his mother died.
Matthew was kind and gentle and had people to support him and deal with the loss of his legs. He had people to lean on, people who'd do anything in the world for him.
Justin had none of that. He couldn't cry because otherwise his father would ridicule him and tell him that only wimps, babies, and women cried. Real men didn't show emotion. Real mean fought. It was why he was so mean to Matthew. He wanted to feel empowered, like he had some sort of control over his life instead he always felt weak. He fought Matthew because he resented him. It wasn't fair.
He used to wish every damn night that he had a better home life or that he could switch places with Matthew. Sometimes he wished he'd die in his sleep just so his father would feel bad for all the things he'd done---and to get away.
But wishes were never real. Every morning, when he woke up and went down for breakfast before school things were always the same. He couldn't even count all the times he went to school with bruises that he'd so carefully hidden---not that anyone would even care if they were to see them in the first place.
His father cared about his reputation as the mayor and he couldn't have that tarnished by his son's stupidity. Justin always felt that he had to be perfect and when he was little, he tried to be perfect, to do everything right but that never seemed to make his father love him.
So yes, he hated Matthew but not because of how the kid looked or who he hung out with or all those other insignificant things kids judged others on. He hated Matthew because of what he had that Justin did not. And that was something that he could not change.
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