Eternal Hidden Paradise

By: My good Friend Maria Urameshi

Here I sit, Alone in the dark,
Lost in shadow,
curled up into a ball hugging my knees up to my chest,
laying down on the hard cold ground,
Bangs soon falling into my face,
Covering up my crimson red eyes,
Starring out a window up at the darkend sky,
Watching the stars prance around emotionlessly, my single bright smile,
Fades into a broken one,
Thoughts soon pile up in my mind,
My world comes crashing down on me,
Just like the waves in the ocean,
I soon began to question my self, "Why?"over and over within my mind, "Why am I even alive? If all I feel is pain?...What is my purpose in life? I feel so alone and lost...Why does life feel like hell?...Is there even such a place without a care in the world?" Tears soon start to blur my eyes,
Soon making their way down my face,
It seems trying to hold back the tears,
Only causes more to come with the package of pain,
my heart sills up with pain and sorrow,
mere images of the past suddenly fade into illusions,
And soon into nothingness,
I finely glance down only to find my self laying in a pool of my own blood,
now seeming to have silver wings stained in my own blood appearing on my back,
my gaze suddenly is shifted to a man walking my way,
Too frighted to move I just lay there to watch, After a few moments of watching,
I find this strange man now standing in front of me with his hand reaching out to me,
I stared for a moment only now to find my self reaching my hand out for his as he helped me up,
My hand had soon fell down by my side, "W...Who are you? What's going on?..."I find my self asking in a faint voice,
The strange kind man didn't answer me at first,
He seemed now to be pointing towards me,
I had quietly gazed downwards only to find several slash marks on my body and wrist,
I then looked down to find a bloody knife down at my feet,
After a few moments of silence between us,
I soon realized who he really was,
I began to slowly walk forwards slowly trying to fight back my tears, "F...Forgive me...for all my sins..Please.."I had said reaching the kind man before collapsing over down onto my knees, my gaze turned towards the ground,
Tears seeming to roll down my face once more,
Shattering all over onto the ground turning into pure blood,
The kind man had placed his hand over my head gently,
The next thing I knew the kind man held me by the chin and into his arms for a hug, I could hear him whisper these words to me "My child...I am here for you..You are forgivend for your sins...and your loneliness will be no more...for I am...follow me..into a place where you can live life freely in peace without worries..."
I had slowly nodded a bit but I was still unsure and afraid at the time,
The kind man had then let go taking my hand into his as I stood,
As we both turned a bright light within a tunnel had lighted the way, "Is...Is it safe?"I had asked as the kind man had nodded, "I am god, For I do know what this tunnel leads at the end of this light...just like a hidden paradise my child..."He had said beginning to walk forwards,
I had took a deep breath as I glanced behind me whispering "Good-bye..."I had said before beginning to follow him when he had let go of my hand,
When reaching the light I took one more look back into the world of pain I use to know and had smiled for once in my life, "I..I'm free...my soul is free."I had found my self saying before entering a world of eternity for now in a place like paradise now free from everything that weighed down heavily on my soul for one last time...

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Sara: this was done by my best friend Maria i hop you like it!