hey, my fans. This new story is like the show 1 lite of tears that i love and cried over. Aya is my inspiration for loving life and I wanted to make a story like that with twilight cause in New Moon Bella hated life cause of Edward left her and i wanted her to go through a hard time and see how precious life can be with or without Edward. No, I'm not trying to copy the show that i highly recommed to watch it's my own twilight story that i got the idea from that show. i hope you like it!
Dear diary,
I thought my life ended when Edward left me. The pain of a broken heart is the worst pain there is in life but you have no choice but to move on, go on with life with a hole in your heart. No matter what happens in life I can't forget the Cullens… and I cant forget Edward. I think that I wouldn't ever love somebody how much I love Edward and with all my heart and soul I forgive him for breaking my heart. This is life and sometimes fate seem unfair but I never realize how unfair it can be. I thought Edward leaving me was the worst thing that would ever happen to me in life and I had my whole life ahead of me but then this happen.
Spinocerebellar degeneration disease is a neurological deformation disease with unknown cause. All four limbs will slowly crease to mobile and one will lose the ability to speak and at the same time will slowly lose the ability to be able of logical thinking. Soon they will lose the ability to eat without choking. The saddest part is watching one go from walking on two feet to walking with a cane, to a walker, and then not walking at all…a wheelchair. Then there is the fear of closing one eyes and never able to wake up again. It is an incurable disease nor is there any medication.
I was diagnose with spinocerebellar degeneration disease just a few weeks after Edward left me. For awhile I didn't care that I was dieing that the whole in my heart was hard to live with, that I would give anything to die cause my true love didn't love me back, but after I met Amelia I know I had to fight and that I wasn't alone. With everything life throw at me I had to fight back and I will even though this fight is a one that I'm going to lose I wont give up…I will keep fighting until my last breath…I wont give up…I will live.
Love,
Bella Swan