Yeah I worte this on a wim I don't really know how it turned out and I'm kinda sad I did it but I'm going to post it anyway. I hope you like it!
My pillow is soaked with my tears
You're not here yet probably out with some tramp
I'm so tired but can't sleep
You're the one who does this to me
You tell me you love me but you're never around when I need you
You kiss me and tell me I'm beautiful but you do the same thing to other girls
You wipe away the tears I cry but you're the one who causes them
Why do I still love you?
Why can't I just forget you?
You cheat on me, you lie to me, and you're just the same as papa
Why did I ever think you were different?
Why didn't I realize we were just going to end up like my parents?
Why am I even still here, waiting for you to come home?
Am I an idiot or something?
I sure do feel like one
I get up out of bed giving up on trying to sleep
I lay down on the coach and turn on the TV
I turned it on so I could stop thinking about you
I can't take it anymore
Why can't I get you out of my head?
I stare at the TV for maybe an hour
It doesn't help
Why can't I just leave you?
I turn off the TV and just lie there on the coach
And stare at the ceiling
The window curtain is open I can see the moon
It's up high in the sky
I look at the clock it's already 1am I should be asleep by now
I can't stop thinking about you though
I can't stop thinking about that shark toothy smile I love
Your white messy hair that you say you comb but probably don't
Your ruby eyes that always stare straight into mine
Why can't I get over you?
I can't even cry about you anymore because there's nothing there to cry about
What can I do anymore?
There's nothing left for me to do but leave you
Yet I can't, why can't I
I get up and go to my room
I start packing my bags and place them in the living room
I'm about to go and you come home
You stare at me
I look away from you
You ask me what I'm doing
I tell you I'm leaving
You grab me and ask why
I tell you it's because I've had enough
You start yelling and I yell back
We start fighting
I hate it when we fight
I can't help but cry again but not cause of how you act
I cry now because I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe you
You stop yelling
And stare at me
You say you've had enough
You open the door
I stop crying and look up
This can't be happening
You leave saying you'll get your stuff later saying that you'll never bother me again, that it's over
I try to stop you
No this isn't what I wanted I was supposed to be the one leaving not you
You can't be doing this to me
You look back only once
I'm crying again but I notice
You sigh and close the door
I fall to my knees
Why did this happen why couldn't I have given up on love after what happened to mama
Why did I hope you could love me?
I hate that I ever loved you Soul
It's not fair
Why does everything in my life turn out bad?
Why can't I ever stay happy?
Why was I cursed for these things to keep happening to me?
This sucks
Life sucks
Love sucks
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