DISCLAIMER : I DON'T OWN EITHER HEROES OF OLYMPUS OR HOW COULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME BECAUSE IF I DID THEY WOULDN'T BE NEARLY AS GOOD.
You walk into Piper's room knowing she is the only one who you would be able to properly answer your question but once you realise that she isn't here you look around her room a bit and notice her ipod.
Now you are not usually the kind of person who would look at other peoples ipod but it was left on and you recognise the song playing so you put her headphones on and listen to it.
I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
You remembered when Percy, Jason and Piper had saved your life from the Jar and how bitter-sweet is was that Percy had to save your useless ass again.
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain
Sometimes the pain of being constantly alone gets to you but you push it out of your mind, feeling sorry for yourself will get you nowhere in life, not that you think you're going anywhere.
How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
You know you've made mistakes, you've screwed up so many times that you've lost count but every single time you were only trying to help.
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
You hate the persona you created. You just want to scream and cry and throw a massive tantrum about how unfair life is but, no, you can't because the new Nico di Angelo would never do. Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
You laugh quietly to yourself, this is your life in a nutshell. Those days alone after finding out Bianca had died when no one had given you the time of day except for Minos who was doing it for his own purposes and didn't even care about you.
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again
You remembered when you were pulled into Tartarus and how it felt like a massive vacuum, how terrified you were but kept it hidden as you didn't want to break the persona you had created. So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't
You thought back to how carefree and happy you were when Bianca was still around taking care of you and back in the Lotus Hotel when time just seemed to fly by, although you hadn't know how true that statement was. How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
This question is constantly on your mind and you hate it. You hate how depressed you've become and how many people you've pushed away, if you could go back and change it all you instantly know you would. I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me
You rip the headphones out of your ears and put the ipod carefully back on Piper's bed and wonder why she has this kind of music on her ipod.
The question you were going to ask forgotten while a new one plagued your mind.