This is my first fanfic and I noticed there weren't many Ben 10 fics about Devlin, so here's mine! YAY! Hopefully it's good.^^

Disclaimer: I do not own Ben 10...

The knife glistened in the sunlight that streamed from the window as Devlin washed it in the sink. Drops of water slid down the silver metal, making Devlin mesmerized by them. He lowered his head a little, his long black bangs falling into his deep blue eyes. His depression had somehow gotten worse even though he now had a family that cared for him and loved him. It was probably the nightmares, they'd happened almost every night for the past few weeks he'd moved in with the Tennysons. Visions of past memories that he'd rather forget came back to him in rush and make him wake up gasping for air in a cold sweat. Devlin slowly rolled up his sleeve until it was up a few inches above his elbow.

'Just do it. You'll feel better. You don't want keep feeling like this…' the eleven year old thought and he slowly put the knife to his soft, pale flesh. He looked at the other scabs that were beginning to heal and the long pink scars. He was just about to slash the knife against his skin when he heard footsteps coming down the stairs followed by a loud voice calling his name.

"DEEEVLIIIN!"

He sighed and unrolled his sleeve quickly and started drying the knife. Kenny walked into the kitchen and went over to his best friend and brother.

"What's up?" the brunette asked. Devlin shrugged and replied, "Washing dishes."

"Hm… well you better get ready for school, wait, how long have you been up?" Kenny turned his head toward Devlin who shrugged again.

"Since….five or four in the morning." He replied and Kenny's eyes almost bugged out of his skull. "And you're still going to school? Aren't you tired?" he said incredulously and Devlin shook his head.

Kenny blinked and shook his head he grabbed Devlin's arm and pulled him out of the kitchen.

"Hey! Let go- I wasn't done-" Devlin cut himself off as Kenny shoved his backpack at him and tugged on his arm again, leading him out of the house. "Common, we're gonna be late and you don't want to miss your first day at school, do you?" he said with a grin. "Never thought I'd see the day you actually wanted to go to school." Devlin said, tugging on his arm to get it back and winced slightly. Kenny let go of him and just walked next to him, chatting away as usual and Devlin spaced off after listening for a few minutes.

He wondered what school was going to be like, if he was going to make at least another friend. Or if he didn't, if they wouldn't think he was a freak that belong there.

'You don't. They won't accept you. What makes you think they would? Not even your own father accepted you.'

'Shut up…' Devlin thought, shutting his eyes closed, but the voice in his head continued.

'You're just a freak. Those scars are proof. Imagine if everyone found out, than you'd really be a freak-'

"SHUT UP!" Devlin shouted out loud, his eyes shut tightly and his hands gripping his head, trembling slightly. Kenny stared at him in disbelief, his green eyes widened.

"I'm sorry… You could've just told me if I was annoying you." He said going over to his friend. He tilted his head to one side and blinked. "Is something wrong?" he added. Devlin snapped his eyes open and shook his head while rubbing his arms.

"No, no. Nothing's wrong. I'm just fine, um, just a little nervous. Sorry…" he lied, starring at the side walk. Kenny's face broke into a grin and he put and arm around Devlin's neck. "Don't worry about it. School's not that bad, except the homework. And the teachers. And the classes." He said, going back to his usually talkative self. Devlin nodded and replied, "That just leaves lunch and that recess thing you told me about." Kenny's grin widened. "Exactly."

"See? We have the same class so it won't be that bad." Kenny said after their stop at the office and now going down the hall to the classroom. Devlin nodded and adjusted the black backpack strap on his shoulder. Even if Kenny was there with him, he still felt awkward and the other kids that stared at him as he walked down the hall weren't helping either. Not to mention he was trying to ignore the voice in his head and not burst out like earlier this morning. Then others would really think he was a freak.

Once they opened the door to the class, the bell rang and other people were slowly starting to come in. Kenny led Devlin to the teacher and handed her a note from the office that they picked up. She read it over before standing up and looking at the seating chart and saying that Devlin was to sit in the empty desk next to Kenny in the back of the class, to both of their relief. They went over to their seats and the teacher started writing what they were supposed to do for the day. She also announced to the rest of the class about Devlin, but thankfully didn't make him introduce himself and make him do something ridiculous, like tell them what his hobbies were. If they wanted to know, they could ask Devlin themselves.

He tried to pay attention for the first few lessons before lunch, but his mind kept wandering and he even fell asleep at one point in class. Just as he was on the verge of unconsciousness, he heard giggles of the two girls that sat a row ahead of them and opened one eye at them, seeing that they were glancing back at him and Kenny, whispering some things to each other and blushing a slightly. Devlin rolled his eyes and put his head on the desk on his arms and closed his eyes again.

'They wouldn't act like that if they actually knew you…'

Devlin almost groaned in irritation and replied back to the voice, 'Just leave me alone.'

'But you know it's true. They'd think you were a freak and shun you.'

'Please stop…'

'Once everyone finds out, no one will want you around. They'll send you in an insane asylum or just kick you out.'

'Stop…' Tears started silently forming at the corners of Devlin's eyes as he dug his fingernails into his arm. He felt stinging pain as he started scrapping them slowly across his pale skin. Strangely it made him feel better, like he was taking the pain all out of his body. His fingernails found the previous, healing marks and he dug his nails in them, hard. He willed the tears to stop and his mind went blank. Suddenly, just as he was about to dig nails further into his skin, he heard the ringing of the bell and everyone get out of their seats. He looked up and blinked, Kenny standing next to him.

"Are you sure you're ok?" he asked, looking a little concerned. Devlin nodded and got up. Kenny led him to the lunchroom and introduced him to his other friends. They asked him a few questions, which he answered and they seemed to accept him. After that school just went by and finally, much to Devlin's relief, he and Kenny were walking home together.

"Are you sure you're ok?" he asked for the millionth time that day.

"For the last time, yes." Devlin sighed, now getting frustrated by it.

"Look, I know I'm being annoying. And I know you're probably ready to kill me because of it, but I just want to know what's wrong. You've been acting really weird lately and even Dad has been noticing. You've been spacing out more than you normally do and you have random outbursts and you haven't been the same." He said, stopping and standing in front of Devlin and looking at him with concerned, emerald green eyes staring into deep, dark blue ones. There was an awkward silence before Devlin managed a fake smile and said, "I'm fine. Honestly. It's just-"

"Stop lying to me Dev! I know something is wrong with you, but your being too stubborn to admit it! Will you please, PLEASE, just tell me so I help you?" Kenny interrupted him, raising his voice which made Devlin wince slightly and look down at the concrete. He unconsciously started rubbing his arm.

He shook his head, making his black bangs swish into his eyes. "It's nothing…" he whispered more to himself and tried to believe himself. He started to walk past Kenny but when he was barely two inches away, Kenny turned around and grabbed Devlin's arm, tightly. He was just about to start yelling at his friend when Devlin let out a gasp in pain and surprise and winced. Kenny looked at his arm and pulled the sleeve up. He stared in silence at red, angry lines that stood out against his brother's pale skin. He took his eyes away from them and looked into Devlin's with a mixture of emotions.

"Devlin….you've be cutting yourself…?"

Poor Dev...I didn't mean to make him slighty schizophrenic too, but my friend gave me that idea.

Please review! ^^

~Ash