Keep Your Eyes Closed
And When You Open Them Maybe It Will Be Ok
It's so dark, so very dark and when I close my eyes the darkness stays the same.
But there are shadows and I can't see them with my eyes closed and I like that.
It's nice to pretend that I'm just sleeping. But one day I want to open my eyes and like it.
One day I want to see the sun again.
One day I want the world to look better with my eyes open.
Sunshine is possibly worse than rain, in that it is so happy and only serves to remind me of happiness. I had forgotten happiness.
I wish I could feel it again but it just won't come.
I still can't open my eyes.
The sun is always shining now. I wish it would rain so that I could pretend I was back in my cell and the cage was still a cage.
Whenever I do open my eyes all I can see is the sun.
But it won't shine on me.
The ministry is dark and cold and so full of anger. I can't see the sun or the rain. I can't even see the sky.
I feel so free.
I think I can feel the sun.
I can see James.
I can see Lily.
Their smiling and waving.
I feel...Happy. It's such a nice feeling.
More angsty Sirius. With a bit of happiness at the end.