Chapter 1-

So many questions were running through Elena's mind. One being, what did Katherine mean Stefan gave himself over to Klaus? Elena had been through so much within the last year. So many people have died.

Her parents

Isobel

John

Jenna

Caroline (even though she came back to life as a vampire)

Elena (technically, but she came back to life)

Lexi, even lexi

Elena didn't deserve to go through this much pain, but she had. She was only 17, a 17 year old shouldn't have to endure this much heartache. But she did as if it was on a constant loop. Now the love of her life was gone, but she found herself wondering; Why would I call him the love of my life when I just kissed his brother? She just basically cheated on his brother, but yet she didn't feel an ounce of guilt.

She kept trying to tell herself it was a pity kiss. Damon was dying; she needed to give him some sort of deathbed comfort. She would need the same thing if she was dying. But she could not ignore the feelings she had towards Damon lately. Even time he would walk in the room her heart would flutter and she would get butterflies in her stomach. That was something she used to feel around Stefan but those feelings had started slowly fading away, and she couldn't figure out why.

Elena was snapped out of her thoughts when Damon spoke in his ever so sexy voice. "Elena?" Damon muttered still sounding weak. She didn't look at him. She couldn't look at him. She was in shock. Her boyfriend had left her.

"Elena, look at me" Damon said sounding much like his normal self

Elena slowly turned her head to stare at Damon in his icy blue eyes.

"I know you are hurting, but I don't know why Stefan would just agree to Klaus like that"

"He did it to save you Damon." Elena spat back

She tried not to notice the hurt in his eyes, but she couldn't help but see it all over him. Truth was she knew it wasn't his fault; she just needed someone to be mad at.

Elena slowly got up from where she was sitting on the bed and made her way out of the room; they both knew exactly where she was going. There were no words to describe the agony and pain Elena was healing right now. She felt like her chest was burning, she could feel her chest exploding with pain. She was in despair; she couldn't bear the thought of how much worse she would feel right if she was a vampire. She knew everything was magnified and heightened; she wouldn't be able to withstand that much pain.

She finally found Stefan's room and hesitated as she stood in the doorway. This room was filled with so many memories good and bad ones. She made her way into the room letting her eyes roam to every piece of decoration. She stuck out her hand letting her fingers touch the books on the shelves. One by one she pulled the books out letting them fall onto the floor. Now that all of his books were in disarray on the floor she made her way over to his dresser eyeing all of his clothes. She pulled out a white t shirt and held it to her nose finding any trace of his scent.

She took the shirt away from his nose and stared at It in her hands. No longer would she be able to smell his intoxicating scent, no longer would she be able to see his adorable smile, no longer would he be there to protect her when she needed him. He would no longer be there.

She had finally had enough she took all the clothes she could carry and threw them on the floor with anger. She moved away from the dresser and pushed forcefully on his desk so it tipped over. Anything in sight she flew across the room till she collapsed on the ground sobbing uncontrollably.

She felt her chest constricting and she let out screams. Loud "no's" escaped her mouth as put her hand over her mouth to silent her muffled screams. All she could think was about was Stefan. She couldn't figure out why he chose to be with Klaus.

"Stefan, why did you leave me?" she asked out loud to her self trying to control her sobs.

Meanwhile Damon was in his room listening in on Elena's breakdown. He felt his heart break into a million pieces. Even though she was crying for his brother he couldn't help but sadness towards the girl he loves. He knew deep down that the kiss she gave him was no more than a pity kiss, she thought he was dying. Hell, he even thought he was dying.

He didn't know what his next step was going to be. Stefan was with Klaus, and who knew if he turned in to the ripper or flipped the switched. He hoped to god he didn't flip the switch. Everyone knew how bad he would get if he did. He even hoped he didn't flip his switch, but he couldn't. He had to stay strong for Elena. Elena would be in so much pain for god knows how long.

Damon would have to give Elena her space, she needed to grieve. He could hear just how bad she was hurting. She couldn't imagine what she would feel if Stefan would die. He would not want her to ever have to feel that pain.

Damon got up feeling like his normal self again and headed for the shower. He needed time to think about all this drama that occurred within 48 hours. The love of his life had died, even though he was relieved they had found a way to bring her back he was still in shock over the incident. And Katherine. Where ever the hell she was he hoped she stayed put. We don't need her bitchiness messing with Elena anymore.

Elena got up from her spot on Stefan's bedroom floor while wiping the tears away from her wet face. She knew Damon was listening to her breakdown but he knew better then to try to console her. She would literally pull his head off. No one could make this situation any better. Elena realized that maybe she could try and call Stefan; it was at least worth a try.

She took her phone out of her pocket trying not to drop it because of her shaking hands. She flipped through her contacts looking for Stefan's name, she quickly found and it and put the phone to her ear silently hoping he would answer and tell her he was on his way home. She heard the phone ring 6 times and then it went to voicemail. She felt the disappointment rise through her veins. She didn't know what she was going to do know. Stefan was basically gone. Correction he was gone. She knew what Stefan would turn in to once he drank human blood. He would turn into the ripper that was never a pretty sight. Who knows he might even flip the switch. Elena though about this and then considered one option. An option that would take all the pain away. She wouldn't have to feel the grief, pain, sorrow, agony. It would all just go away.

It could be anything really pills, rope, gun. All of these would take the pain away. It would be gone forever. She would be gone forever. In a simple second she would be free of this world and all its pain. Maybe people would even be glad if she was gone. She herself had caused so many people pain. So many people had died for her, just to save her.

She knew Damon kept stakes handy, maybe a stake would be a good way to go. Hopefully the pain would go by faster. She walked out of Stefan's room and walked to Damon's room to find a stake. She had heard the water running so she knew Damon was in the shower. She went over to his dresser and gazed over the entire anti vampire weaponry. She found a stake that didn't particularly stand out. She grabbed the stake and walked over to the middle of the room. She all of a sudden saw everyone she cared about flash before her eyes.

Damon

Stefan

Caroline

Bonnie

Jeremy

Matt

Tyler

She would be leaving all of these people behind. But that didn't mean anything if she couldn't be with Stefan. Not paying attention to her surroundings she was unaware of the shower no longer running. She put the stake in front of her chest right before her heart. She was ready to do this. No life was worth living if Stefan wasn't in it.

Elena breathed in and breathed out. Still having the stake pointing to her chest she plunged it into her body feeling the wooden point pierce her skin. She was suddenly masked with pain. She fell onto the floor with tears flowing down her face. She then whispered out loud "I Love you Stefan" with that Elena closed her eyes and the pain slowly started to drift away.

Damon was snapped out of his thoughts when he heard a noise what seemed like to be coming from his bedroom. She turned off the water and stepped out of the shower while grabbing a towel on the towel rack and wrapping it around his waist. He made his way out of the bathroom with caution. Considering how many people wanted him dead he always needed to be careful.

As soon as he found his bedroom he couldn't believe the image in front of him. He saw Elena, his Elena holding a take to her heart. He was in so much shock he couldn't find himself to say anything, let alone stop her. He was soon fixated out of his trance when he saw Elena plunge the stake into her body. He used his vampire speed to go catch her as she fell to the ground. Elena didn't even notice she was in Damon's arms and she closed her eyes and though of every happy memory she had ever endured.

Damon grabbed the stake that was in her chest and pulled it out of her body; he realized she was aiming for her heart. Luckily, she had missed. He bit into his wrist and put it to her mouth.

"Elena, please drink. You can't leave me, I need you Elena. You are all I have now, I can't lose you."

Elena wasn't drinking his blood; he tried hard to listen if there was a heartbeat. It took a few moments till he finally heard a faint thump. He sighed in relief, but he knew if she didn't drink it wouldn't be long before she faded.

"Elena please, I love you" Damon muttered trying to manage his uncontrollable sobs.

With that Elena's eyes started to flutter open, and without knowing it she let his blood flow into her mouth not knowing what was happening. Before Damon had confessed his love to her she was mesmerized in the memories she loved thinking it would be the last time she would ever have them. But in those happy memories was Damon. Not a single one was Stefan. Elena had just attempted to kill herself and while she was dying all she could think about was Damon.

Damon had scooped Elena in his arms and brought her to his bed. He laid her flat on the bed and went to his dresser to bring her fresh clothes that weren't covered in blood. He set the clothes down next her and went to the other side of the bed and waited patiently for her to get up. He would do anything for the women he loved.

For what seemed like hours later Elena jerked awake with wide eyes and started coughing uncontrollably. She looked around the room trying to get her vision back to normal, her eyesight had been blurry and she felt lightheaded. When her sight went back to normal she noticed Damon sitting next to her with a very concerned look on his face. They stared at each for a moment when Damon opened his mouth to say something.

"You have got some serious explaining to do" Damon said.