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Light sat alone in his room. He had nothing to do but just sit there. He had finished all of his school work, helped Sayu with hers, nothing interesting on the news. So he just sat there. He really needed to get a life. His whole life was about school. NOTHING is intresting about school. It made him wonder why he doesn't just say 'screw it' and forget all about school. No, he had to please his parents. The only normal thing in their life was that Light kept good grades. He was always top of his class. His parents knew they could count on Light. He hated it. Having done nothing to earn that trust. That relient attitude. He hated how they trusted him. He couldn't even trust them and they were his parents! He tried but failed. He was just too isolated from the rest of his family. They couldn't understand the things he did. They couldn't ever speak with him about anything he would find interesting. He held pety conversations with them that seemed to mean the world. He couldn't understand why they even felt the need to converse with him. He knew why. He just couldn't understand it. It was because Light was their light. Their luminesent spark that kept them happy. Someone they knew they could depend on. Light couldn't understand how they came to that conclusion. He never did anything that would give them reason to suspect that they could depend on him. He didn't understand.
Light got up from his sitting position. He needed to clear his head. What better way to do that then fresh air? He grabbed his jacket from the coat rack in his room and headed down stairs. He could see his mom and Sayu watching t.v. together. He snuck past them lest they invite him over there. He didn't have the heart to say no to them. He slipped on his shoes and out the door.
The air was fresh. It gave him the feeling of lonlyness. Even in this city of hundreds of people. He felt lonely. He felt distanced from everyone. He didn't understand. He was around so many people and he felt alone. A nobody. Someone who doesn't deserve to exist. A person who is just there. Living in a cold and unforgiving world. Light decided to walk to the park. Maybe he could sit down and rest without being stared at. He couldn't help it he was attractive, but that didn't mean you HAD to stare at HIM. There are plenty of other attractive people out there. They could find someone else to look at. It didn't have to be him. Light sighed. He knew going to the park on a nice day meant people oggling him. He reahed the park and found a nice bench to sit down on. He was just going to have to relax. To sit back and unwind. He could do that at home but the way everyone in that house trusted him. He felt smothered.
A hunched over young man came up to Light. Light studied him. He studied Light. The man had black eyes. Not a dark brown like what you would expect of a person with japanese heiratage. This man... Light wasn't sure he was japanese. He certainly didn't look asian. Even if he did have black hair. Light kept getting drawn back to the man's eyes though. They were souless. Calculating your every move. They held no emotion whatsoever. They were scary? No, maybe not scary. Another word must go better there. Light was searching for it. Searching for the word to describe those black eyes. They looked like an abyss you could fall into and never hit the ground. Suddenly the man spoke.
"Do you mind if I sit next to you?" The man had a monotone voice. It portreyed nothing but boredom. Nothing but the sound itself. There wasn't even a hint of emotion in it.
"No, go right ahead." Light responded casually. The man interested him like no other. It made him wonder if he had emotions. He looked so plain and yet so, so. Light couldn't grasp that word either. It could have possibly been extraoirdanary. Light wasn't sure. He knew that the man was not just a nobody like him. He must have something that makes him great. Like a hidden pride.
"Thank you. My name is Ryuzaki. May I question of yours?" Light suppressed a small chuckle. Then, he wondered if he should give him his real name. He could just be another pervert.
"Takeshi. Takeshi Sato. Nice to meet you Ryuzaki." Light went with an ailias. It couldn't hurt. After all, he was probably never going to see this man again. This was a big city. He was lucky if he seen anyone twice.
"Likewise. I assume Takeshi Sato is an ailias." Light held back his bewildered look. No one he had ever talked to figured out he used an ailias. It was a common name so how did he know he was lying?! Light fought back the question.
"Yes, just like Ryuzaki is. You wouldn't give a stranger your real name would you?" When Light made his point the man stuck his thumb in his mouth and pulled his knees into a crowching position. Light didn't even notice. He was too busy with why the man figured that it was not his true name.
"Correct. So, I suppose I will just have to call you Sato-kun. You make a good point, Sato-kun." Light smiled a little. He used this smile so many times. All of them it had been fake. This was no exception. He wasn't a happy person. He didn't like who he was. He couldn't even love his family. He tried so hard to feel something for them. He gave Sayu help on her homework. He carried the groceries in from the car. He even gave his dad a back massage when he came home from work. Nothing worked. In fact, if they died right now, Light wouldn't have felt a thing. Unfortunately, you never make a wish without knowing if it will come true or not.
"Yeah... Ryuzaki-san?"
"Yes, Sato-kun?" Light figeted in his seat. He never asked anyone anything. He usually knew it all.
"I was wondering, how did you know it wasn't my real name?" Light was generally curious. He didn't know why. He just was. This man, whoever he was, was interesting. So interesting that Light couldn't help but talk to him. Ask him things.
"Ah, that is for me to know and you not to find out." Ryuzaki let out a little chuckle. Light gave him a small glare and smiled a little. This guy was really childish.
"Ryuzaki-san is so childish." Light was still smiling a bit. This was his true smile. It was sad. A sad smile. If you were to see it, it would undoubtedly break your heart into a million pieces.
"Sato-kun is smiling at my childish antics." Ryuzaki pointed this out and Light lost his little smile.
"Ahem. I suppose." Light cleared his throat. He did not like to be made a fool of. Suddenly an older gentle man came up to them.
"Ryuzaki, it is time to go." The older gentle man informed Light's companion.
"Yes, thank you Watari." Light got up.
"It was nice meeting you, Ryuzaki." Light started off towards his house when he heard his name called.
"Sato-kun!" Light turned around to find Ryuzaki rushing up to him.
"I would like to meet you again. Tomorrow same time?"
"Sure, sounds good." Light unknowingly just set up a date with the man. He figured it would be around five when he got back home. He had left around three thirty so by the time he did get home it would be time for the news. He kept walking thinking about how he agreed to come tomorrow. He didn't even know the man's true name and he agreed to meet with him again. Light knew it was a stupid decision but there was something about him. He just didn't understand. Light came to his house. Walking to the front door he found it slightly ajar. Light stopped. He didn't leave the door open. He knew if he HAD left the door open then his mother or Sayu would have closed it. Light was curious. He was careful not to touch the door with anything but his sleeve. His mom and Sayu's shoes were still there so they hadn't gone anywhere. Light could hear the t.v. playing in the other room. It was loud. So loud that if Light felt like having a screaming contest with himself, he wouldn't even hear himself. His mother never would let Sayu turn the t.v. up this loud. No, she had sensetive hearing. Her and Sayu. Something was up. Light strode over to the living room.
He saw his mother. Not her usual cheery self. No, not like that. He saw his mother. A knife was placed in her hand. Blood dripping off onto the floor. Staining it. Light stopped moving. His mother was laughing. LAUGHING. With a bloody knife in her hand. Light saw something else in her hand. It was... I was Sayu's hand. Sayu wasn't holding his mother's hand. No, his mother was holding Sayu's hand. Her dismembered hand still dripping the last essence of her blood. He saw it. The bone was sliding out of the hand. Trying to let gravity handle where it was to be. He could see where some of the skin was barely holding itself attatched to the hand. It all wanted to slip to the floor. Just drop and land with a comforting sound onto the awaiting ground. Light was frozen. He needed to find the rest of Sayu before his mother noticed he was in the house. He ran in tiptoed steps to the kitchen. She wasn't there. The bathroom. No. Her room. No. His parents room. No. The only room left was his. If Sayu was still alive, he had only minutes before she bled to death.
Light ran for his room. He didn't even care that his shoes hit the ground with loud clacks. He didn't even care if his mother noticed he was in the house. He didn't even notice that she noticed when he first came in. Light reached his room almost hesitant of finding Sayu in there. He knew she would be missing her hand if he did. Without another thought on the matter he flung open the door. He finally found Sayu. She had more than a hand missing. All of her little limbs were chopped off. Lying wherever they pleased on the ground. Her eyes gouged out and her tongue almost completely out of her mouth. The blood staining her once white teeth red. She had cuts all over her body. They were still bleeding. Light ran to check and see if she still had her pulse. He knew it was selfish, but he did want her to live. He wanted her to live without her limbs. He wanted her to need him for the rest of her long and miserable life.
He placed two fingers on her neck. He prayed there was still life in this mangled corpse. Nothing. No heatbeat. She was dead. Sayu was dead. His mother appeared in the door way. Still holding the knife and Sayu's hand, though, the bone was now dangling dangerously close to falling out.
"Light, shhh. You are being so noisy. Just like Sayu. I had to cut out her tongue to keep her from screaming. She just didn't understand that the neighbors might hear. She kept shouting something like help me. Or something like that..." She trailed off. Obviously thinking Light would understand why she did what she did. Why she had killed his little sister. Why she was holding her dismembered hand.
"M-mom?" She smiled. She wasn't thinking clearly. Light needed to leave before she decided she was going to kill him to.
"Yes, my sweet Light?" She was smiling. She was smiling after she gruesomly killed her own daughter and if Light made a mistake, him too.
"I-I think I f-forgot something at the park." He tried to give an excuse to get out of this house. To leave and get help. To save himself. It was too late for Sayu but if Light could just get out.
"Oh, it will be there in the morning. Come downstairs now. We're going to eat dinner. Grab that long piece of meat. It might taste good for dinner." She smiled as she pointed to Sayu's leg. And started walking down the stairs. Light wasn't sure what to do. Follow his crazy mother to go eat his little sister's leg. Or stay here and undoubtedly anger her and probably get killed too. He decided on the latter. Not sure you can call eating your little sister the latter, but he chose to live. To think only of himself. He chose to follow his mother down stairs and eat his sister. He was going to eat her.
Light grabbed the dismembered body part and dragged it downstairs. Carrying a leg isn't as easy as those horror movies make it look. He almost tripped twice before he was able to get to the kitchen. His mother was already there waiting patiently for Light to come down. She smiled when she caught a glimpse of him. He layed the dismembered part onto the counter.
"M-mom do you need help with dinner? This is alot. You and me not might be able to eat it all." He smiled at her. Though he was terrified, he smiled as easily as she did even if she had just killed her daughter.
"Oh, yes. Thank you Light. Please chop up that meat. I will take care of the salad. Your father will eat some when he comes home and we can eat the left overs." She and Light smiled. He grabbed a butcher knife. He needed to cut it up first. Chopping up Sayu's leg was easier thinking of the leg as an it instead of a leg. The meat sliced easily. The bone didn't even feel as though it was there. Light chopped it into three sections. The thigh, the calf, and the knee. He dicided get the biggest part out of the way first so he would cut it into smaller pieces first.
"Light we only need half of that big part right there. We'll cook the rest later." He nodded and chopped the thigh into two pieces. Half for the two of them. He took another knife for the cutting of the piece into smaller pieces. This knife was smaller. It would be easier to cut the meat with this. Light learned cutting round meat was difficult. You always ended up slicing into uneven pieces. It was so annoying. His mom just smiled and cut up some carrots. She was putting the slices into the salad bowl.
"Light, would you be a dear and go and get those eyes from upstairs. I would like to put them in the salad." Light stopped his cutting. Not even phased by the odd request.
"Sure thing mom." He climbed the stairs to go to his room. Wishing that he never stopped talking to the older man. He wished that man was here in this hell. Light remembered when he was four. He had a baby brother then...
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"Mommy! Is that him? Is that my new baby brother?" Light was only four then. He was so happy to get another boy in his family. So happy to have another male. He would be able to play with someone finally.
"Yes, Light-chan. He's going to be your baby brother." His mother just smiled and told him that. His dad didn't even know she was pregnant. He didn't even know she had given birth to another child. He didn't even know there had been another child in the house besides Light and Sayu. He didn't know Light had helped cook dinner then either... He never even knew he had eaten his own son.
Light couldn't remember anything else of that incident. He only remembered that he felt somewhat sad that he wasn't going to have another child in the house when the baby was gone. He walked to his room. They were going to eat his sister too. He opened his door. He saw the bloody sight before him again. He was going to have to clean his room. Or maybe he would take Sayu's. He walked in to the room. Found the eyes and walked out. No harm, no foul. That's what his mother told him about his baby brother. His name was Akira. Sids. That's what his mother told the police. She said she had disposed of the baby in the trash. She paid a small fine and that was it. Besides the police offering their condolences. They didn't even have a funeral. Light would have to talk to the police this time. If he wanted to keep his mother safe, he would have to lie to them. He would have to tell them she was kidnapped. That she was stolen away. They thought she had gone to a friend's house this weekend and she hadn't come back. He would have to explain this to keep his happy family. To keep the only person who ever loved him. He didn't love her, but she loved him. He was forever thankful that he didn't end up like his brother and soon to be his sister. He went back downstairs to his mother. They were going to have to keep this a secret if he wanted to continue with his life. He didn't want to go to foster care. He wanted to stay with his mommy.
"Here." Light smiled at her and handed her the gouged out eyes. He liked helping with dinner. He had thought Sayu would never have to be dinner with how long she stayed, but oh well. It didn't matter anymore. He would have to pretend everything was alright. Everything was alright. He would attend school as usual. He would contact the police. It would be alright. No one would know. It woud be okay. Everything would be okay. Light kept telling himself this. Even if he had an uneasy feeling. HIm and his mother prepared dinner. After it had been cooked properly he and her sat down to dinner.
"Light, did you hear on the news, a woman walked into an elementry school and blew it up?" Light looked up from where he was eating his sister's limb.
"Oh, I didn't. I was at the park." His mother gave a small nod.
"I forgot."
"Mom, I met an interesting man today. He called himself Ryuzaki." She looked up from her salad after she put a piece of eye in her mouth.
"Oh really?" Light nodded.
"Yep. I agreed to meet him tomorrow at the same time in the park." She smiled. His mother was glad he was finally getting friends.
"Oh that's good. I'm glad you're making friends." He gave her a small smile and bit into Sayu's leg. It was chewy. It tasted like roast beef. Or maybe pork. He couldn't put the right word to it at the moment.
"I like him. Not as a friend. Does that bother you?" His mom looked up at him.
"No, as long as you have hormones. I was getting afraid you were asexual." They laughed at her joke. They laughed over the table that held the meat of his sister.
"Yeah... I might let you meet him soon." Light was thinking of how to introduce Ryuzaki to his mother. If he made one wrong move, he would be eaten just like Sayu...
"Light, if you're finished, I'll take your plate." He handed his mother his plate. And got up from the table.
"I'm going to sleep in Sayu's old room from now on. She can have mine." His mother nodded and continued cleaning up and putting leftovers in the fridge. they had stored most of Sayu in the deep freeze. Best place for her. She didn't go bad like that. Light climbed the stairs again. Instead of walking to his room he turned to Sayu's door and walked in. It was pink. A nice pale rose shade. He walked in. No need in turning on the light. He was going to bed anyways. He jumped on her bed and fell asleep.