Sometimes he wished someone did notice.
The way his left eye would twitch ever so slightly when the track didn't meet his standards, which was why he always seemed to be so unhappy in the studio until everything was just right.
Or the way his hands had to be in constant motion, whether drumming on a solid surface or making vivid hand motions in the air that meant absolutely nothing to everyone, himself included. His hands never seemed to fail at doing something, but next to no one took note of this either.
He wished someone would noticed how his lips would tremble and quiver whenever he was nervous, or how silent he became when stressed or angered.
There was also that wish that everyone understood him, but so few did. So few understood him until it hurt him deep within his heart.
He wished that everyone really knew Kwon Ji Yong and understood and appreciated who he was and who he was meant to be. He wished that everyone noticed that he was human, just like everyone else.
He wished.. He wished..
But until those wishes came true, Young Bae would have to settle for being the only one that noticed almost everything about his dear friend.
It was a lonely feeling being completely alone in understanding the ever complicated, yet surprisingly simple Kwon Ji Yong. The only one to notice.. The only one to see.. It was even more excruciatingly painful to be the only one to feel..
'We'll always be best friends, Young Bae-ah,' Ji Yong had supplied one night after a late rehearsal and an even later dinner. The truth of his words shone in his bright smile, and there was no doubt in Young Bae's mind that he meant it with every fiber of his being.
The truth of Ji Yong's words sent a burning pain through Young Bae's heart and it had taken the singer every ounce of control to return the smile as he struggled to reply, 'I'm glad, and nothing will change that.'
He wished that Ji Yong would notice how his body would tense whenever the prodigy rapper would invade his personal space, or how his heart hammered whenever they hugged, however briefly.
Wished that he cared a little less about what others noticed about Ji Yong in exchange for Ji Yong to finally take notice of him.
He wished that Ji Yong noticed how his eyes became a little more dull each day as the term 'best friends' was often used in reference to the two entertainers. He wished Ji Yong cared more than he seemed to..
No one noticed how Young Bae retreated into himself, growing even more distant with others as his 'friendship' with Ji Yong only seemed to remain just that. They especially didn't notice when Young Bae would just stare off into space, his head usually filled with images of his best friend, and the things they could be doing if it weren't for that damn title.
Dong Young Bae had never cared for things such as attention or praise. He simply worked hard and believed that at the end of the day, if he had done well, all would reveal itself over time.
But for the first time, Young Bae wished that, for the sake of himself, someone noticed.